The first time I tried anything like what you have described at first I was nervous but afterwards liberated. So much so that I realised that although my girlfriend was accepting from what I had tried with her I wanted more. For me there wass a life with my lover and another seperate life for my fantasies which are too extreme for most. I had to live like this though as otherwise I would be missing out on accepting such a large part of my subconciousness.
I rapidly outgrew my first girlfriend who experimented with me and found another. I have been lucky and met some really nice people for which the 'extreme' is in fact normal and I am able to do what I like whenever I like and not have to worry about the fallout when you try and mix it all with emotion. My partener is the same as me and accepting 100%.
I am me and that will never change and have been very lucky to find a girl who is similar. Most people could not accept their boyfriend being tied up and thick lipstick applied before being f*cked, cum over and pissed on by by 4 men but some enjoy the visual spectacle. Similarly most people could not handle watching their girlfriend being f*cked by 4 guys but for some it is a mindblowing sight. I have done both and enjoyed both and would do again.
I have been lucky and risked to be happy. I have scored but for some it is a pandoras box. You will never kknow until you try though. I was nothing short of homophobic before but am now so much more accepting and completely bi sexual. If nothing else that has been a positive step for me. Each man and woman has to carve their own path, just make sure you don't lie on your death bed thinking..."What if"?
Anyway mate if you want to chat more on it e-mail me at cherry@hotmail.co.uk
Take care and stay safe.
