well, i think the title says it all really. I was with this girl for a year and a bit it was long distance unfortunately but we didn't mind, we both actually liked it cuz it ment when we saw each other it was F****** amazing. So anyway time went on and then exams came this year and she began acting really funny with me she never wanted to talk anymore and she had the chance to come down for my 17th birth day but sh never did cuz she had to 'revise' when her exam was F****** 4 weeks away. So yeah some weeks went by then the day before my English exam she broke up with me i was devastated, i didn't sleep at all and went in shitty for my exam(i just barley passed). Anyway she was being very cruel to me she wouldn't give me a reason to why she broke up i thought it was damn unfair cuz she is in all honestly a bitch but when we were goin out i just left her be and took what ever abuse she had to say to me, i rarely argued back, i did alot for her like got up in the mornings to make her breakfast and coffee before she had to go college, stay at home when she was down or bored at home when i could of been at house partys etc and i stayed up with her when she was ill and comforted her but she never did that for me but yeah i was in love.
Eventually 2 months later she gave me the reason, she said "I just wanna go out and meet people, i want to be able to F*** whoever i want." So by saying that i was pretty torn up so i left her alone for a couple of days etc. She said she wanted didn't to lose contact and that she will come down to see me once im over her, so i said hey ever few days etc. Anyway its been like 4 months now and im still not over her she wanted me to stop saying hey to her and leave alone for couple of weeks etc i kind of got pissed off cuz she was like "oh we will be best friends if we break up" and "i will come see you one day" so i rang her and we argued and she said that she will never come and see me again but don't wanna lose contact and stuff so i got majorly f*cked off and for first i properly snapped at her, and to get back at me she tole me she has found someone better than me and that shes been having sex with him she also was saying that i will never find anyone cuz im a push over and that i wont find anyone better than her.
So after that i just left her be, i didn't sleep for two days straight and ive rarley eaten. I know i might of been annoying a bit and i should of left her alone as soon we broke up bu i never had my heartbroken before, but i have no one else to talk to about this stuff my parents normally have a go at me when im upset about her cuz they say "there is much worse stuff in life to be upset about and life is gonna be alot harder" etc etc. I've read that i should talk to my friends about ti but non of my friends have had there heart broken. Plus alot of them are in relationships so it kind of makes it worse. I know I've messed things up but i dont think i deserved to be treated like i did cuz in all fairness i am generally a nice guy probably to nice for my own good
anyway im writing because i just want to know what i can do to get over her. I'd love to go out meet a new girl etc but im still thinking of her and i feel like no girl will ever like me after what my ex said because she knew me best out of anyone and hearing S*** like that from someone you love really gets to you. Meh anyway sorry rambling on i really needed to get it off my chest. So what should i do from here? how do stop loving her?
