
why would you want to become anorexic ??
you know only a year ago i was anorexic all that i wanted to be was normal i diddnt want to feel sick everytime a bit of food went near my mouth i diddnt want to be the girl judging the girls that i used to think were skinny
but that was me
i would try and eat i would try not to judge people i would try to look at my self and say your to skinny but when a seen my self i thought i was fat but deep inside i knew i was to skinny and it wasnt as if i could go show off my body as if i was proud of it coz a wasnt and anyway i wore about 2 jumpers coz i was always cold coz i had no body fat
i was banned from doing p.e because i was too weak to do it and they new that it would help me i couldnt walk that far round the skool i was always last to my classes coz i was to weak
but i refused help
then one dai i went in and the furst thing the doctor said was whats wrong and i said you know whats wrong with me im anorexic
she said yeh i kno but why and i said coz am fat nd she went its not just that she sed i can see right through you yu crave attention but what for at that point i got up and left the room because i couldnt belive what she was saying but some how i new it was true
that night i sat and tried to figure out why i was like this but i couldnt find an awnser and when i went bak we started going over my life and then one day it hit me that i was anorexic because i was neglected as a child
then after that in 6months i was nearly better because it was helpin talkin and trying to eat with her help
a year later im better well i cant say completely coz i will never be proply better sometimes i panik and i make my self sick some times i feel sick when a go to eat something and other times i want to count how many calories im eating
but the only thing that stops me is will power because i dont want to go back to that
because anorexia took over my life and it was something that i couldnt hide and something i denied
thats what yu dont want to be
and sorry but that other girl yur not anorexic if yu were currntly yu wouldnt tell anyone trust me bt yu wouldnt want anyone to know
trust me i know
now read that from my experiance and tell me thats how yu want to live yur life to be skinnyer and yu will end up so sikinny that people will stop complementing yu and start talking about how thin yu are and how shockin it is that yuor anorexic and why yu are doin it
and just rember that anyone else who is considering that life