by cosmicB on Sun Oct 28, 2007 5:33 am
Could be habitual..? given that when someone does something for many years, it is difficult to suddenly do a 180 on-call... like if someone for every day, for 50-years, wakes up and goes to a mirror, and looks into their mouth, everyday at exactly 7:45AM... Then one day when they wake in a place that doesn't have a mirror.. at 7:45AM like clockwork they will open their mouth, and pretend they are looking in... like the psyche nurse living across the street... Occasionally I'd see her start to drive up her driveway, and stop just a few feet in.. and pull her garage door opener off the visor, aims it, and click it.. then drive in... but the thing is, she doesn't have a garage... But she did before her divorce, when she lived in a big house, with a three car garage...
All depends how deep-seated the habit is... and what trauma-value it's connected to...
And for some.. their pain is all they possess, for triggers to treasures of related memorable moments...
It is easier to pattern and repeat than it is to force change where change is not part of ones equation... It's called "dying with grace"...
I'm this year noticing my 84-year old mum falling back to early dreams and traits... I live a mile away, and visit her daily, to do anything she needs done, to make her final years as pleasant as I can afford and do...
And in all this, I notice she's grumpy around that time of the week...
Maybe parts of meno go, or vanish, or hide.. and maybe some bits remain, in those who still possess a viable active strong spirit, and motherhood or matriarchal instincts..?
