im 21 a female and a compulsive lyer, i just came on this site tonight as i couldnt sleep due to this. my relationship with my boyfriend is over (i think) because i have no control over the things i say, i say things to make me feel better as i am so down with my life, telling lyes makes me feel like im not such a sad case, but its a vicious circle, i know i do it, and i truely hate myself for it, im weak, and pathetic, and even have thoughts of ending my life coze it all seems worthless, thinking back to the things ive lyed about is horrendous, at 14 i told my worst one yet which will haunt me till my dying days.
everything is my fault, and only i can change me, but i dont know how to so people will just get fed up of me and i will always be a lonely person, at 21 i should be living my life to the max, instead i cry, lie, and have silly thoughts. its destroying my life. and i dont know how to stress that enough, totally destroying me, and ive felt this since an early age, i want people to like me, love me, but instead they think im a loser. i am.
i dont know wut to do no more, i gave up along time ago because its all too much, im a sad and pathetic person. all i want is to have someone to truely love me, it will never happen, ive cryed all night tonight, and almost jumped in front of a car on the A13 , i should have, i would be dead now, no more lyes, heartache, or tears.
this is real, too real.
because of my compulsive lying i want to commit suicide coze i dont see a way out, they get caught up and mess your head up, at the time you dont see your doing ne thing wrong, its afterwards that it hits you, wen you get found out, or just wen you think to your self your life is so boring, and S*** that u gotta lie to make ya self feel better. sad. very sad. a life not worth living. i feel like ive got a curse on me. why cant i be normal. i truely hate myself, im an ugly person inside and out, you will never know how evil i am, the tales i tell, will cause me an early death. i will take my own life one day, because no one really understands, im just a sad case who lies, or an evil person , go on laugh at me, il join in, i laugh at my self everyday.
