Thank You Marilyn King !

[Lena]

Is there a mental condition where you are half teen-ager and also half -adult ? If so am sure I have it . Maybe call OPRAH to do a show about it ?


The kid part was going out in what was already a mini I had shortened further and mainly barefoot .Like millions I love going barefoot for the comfort and feeling of freedom . Also since I am such a colossal attention getter and it does get you looks , mainly from guys . I swear most men out there are either foot fetishists or right away have this fantasy that your barefoot since it's part of undressing to go to bed with them Even went into the post office that way to mail our bills then later to the coffee boutique to have a drink ( it's a better alternative to the past of drinking alcohol at home or going to bars ) and great for people watching .


The big part of me also fawned all this old black dog that was just so warm and loveable . Designer dogs like Akita's and Airedales are nice but you can give me a old mixed breed mutt any day . Like the dog yesterday ( whose name was Shiloh ) do believe there smarter and are more loving . I think I held up the owner from leaving by petting & talking to Shiloh so much . In my car I imagined the man arriving late saying how he'd been held up by a short thin woman who looked like a hooker with a giant tattoo on her left shoulder and a shorter then short skirt who was doting on his dog..............


But almost like a miracle when I got to work became a adult which is more then too many of the people who work there do . so many being caught up in childish games like gossiping & messing around . The symbolical transition comes when I put the flip flops to go on since moi's been warned more then once about coming in barefoot. It's just easier not to fight & do what they want Saw my friend Capt'n Tom who was great , he was real nice about me being MOD last week . When he hugged me saying I was the next LEONA HELMSLEY who may have been a huge bitch but is a legend in the hotel business . I laffed at that , saying too how if I ever got that rich I wud sure never end up in prison like she did. Christophe the army guy who works there pt and who Ive always had wicked thoughts about was in picking up his check . Am sure by now if Karin and I had broken up by now he'd be number 50 something ................. Maybe even my bf although as I have written here before every guy I have gone around since I was 12 said I drove them insane ................ he was real good during the trouble with Karin that and now it's whole deeper relationship then one based on my lust . We're friends with a mutual respect which is nice. He was headed to meet buddys at a bar downtown no doubt to look for women . Lucky girls !


Picked up the black cocktail waitress dress and went to change in the locker room . The place was busy being full of the day crew leaving and the afternoon crew coming on . Several women were also taking showers which is rare .The hotel has 6 showers with intense water pressure that feels heavenly but hardly anyone uses them . Although moi as many of you regular readers know does indeed use them often m'bating as the water pours down on my naked body . The sudden new popularity of the showers was since a big part of the metro are even spreading across the river over to Indiana doesn't have power.The storms last weekend from hurricane Ike knocked it out and for some reason the power company hasn't got it all working again . Phyllis from the Gift Shop says some women have even been bringing in there kids for shower . The news made me feel happy we didn't lose out power


In the employee cafeteria ate with my boss Brendan and kept a happy face on .no trying to talk to him about the trouble with Marla and definitely didn't tell him how I'd talked to Marla the day before .Don't want to lose my mind worrying about them and also since Brendan is my boss have to get along with him to keep my job . He congratulated me about being MOD and says April the acting general manager was real impressed . And too that he knew I could do it . Then e got into shop talk . Lucky for moi I'd finished dinner and was ready to go to the Concierge Lounge when that hideous Barb Stuart showed up smiling at Brendan as if he was her man and even though she's always putting the knife in my back smiling from ear to ear at me ........................ I even smiled back at Barb just to keep things smooth .


The Concierge Lounge went fine . Didn't drink as much as I usually do up there .instead of the usual 3-4 merlots or 2hard liquor drinks had a single merlot . Do think I put more effort then usual into keeping the place tidy . I had to laff when several of the guests started moaning at the terrible economic news.One woman was so upset by the bad news on tv she wanted to put on a movie or game show instead. The copies of the WALL STREET JOURNAL had been read by so many I had to send down to the Gift shop for new ones.


Later worked the bar . Nothing went on .Had cocktail waitress Narla whose gay & fun . She's now dating a female 911 operator and a GI Jane from Knox. I hope she can handle it all ................... Seeing /sleeping with several people both at the same time can be quite the hoot . Moi always loved the intrigue and feeling of power . And shifting gears in more ways then one when fooling around with both another female and also a guy . But at this point in life thats more then I could deal with , just don't have the energy And I'm actually happy about that .


Heading out today in a pink T shirt & white painter's pants .At work the penguin suit and orthies .

[Lena]

Congratulations to all Scots for inventing golf . I never knew or TBB much cared about golf but at nite learned all a body could want to learn about golf and then some from a group of golf fanatics at work . Talk about having your ear talked off ! It's the Ryder Cup which I now know is one of the biggest events in golf here this week . Some of the players and many ( too many ! ) of the fans are staying at the hotel . Filling up the bar with there never ending and usually excited talk about the tournament and of course all things golf..........................


Golf really is it's own little world but to it's fans it's everything .All sorts of talk about the various tournaments and players. Naturally Tiger Woods is a god to that bunch . He isn't playing this year but heard he may be showing up to watch .Many Americans but also people from all over the world including Europe and Japan along with Canada and Mexico . Mostly men and with a tendency to look affluent , good lord it was like working at my pt job at the country club The RALPH LAUREN polo shirts were all over the place and the AMERICAN EXPRESS GOLD CARDS were flying . Affable too , nowhere like those world famous ( or infamous ) European soccer fans and also some American basketball fans who can get insane and violent .The golfers were just like the genteel and sociable horse people I see all the time , guess that comes with being a gentleman sports lover. Although some of the Americans were cussing out this guy on the European team named Garcia .


Moi served up alot of mint juleps the official drink of the Kentucky Derby. Got tipped for the first time in years in Japanese yen too Hotel bars must be unbelievably expensive every where else in the world since even though or drinks come with a huge mark-up was told by Europeans and Japanese that our prices are dirt cheap compared to what they are in Stockholm , Munich , and Tokyo . Had me thinking that if I lived in any of those places the inevitable trip to AA wud have to come sooner then later ...............


Moi too learned she gets to be a boss again this week-end .Like the Kentucky Derby the Ryder Cup comes with a ton of entertainment and moi is the manger or at least a banquet Captain at a huge party for the golf lovers this saturday My friend & former cocktail waitress now Banquets manager Siobhan asked for moi's help ! My meteoric rise up the corporate ladder is head twirling , after 6 years am finally jumping into mid level management ..................


Did promise to mentioned earlier this week about running into the ex of my best friend Leslie . We ran into Madge McKeithan at a girl bar monday and she was shocked & confused about Leslie . I can get the same way dealing with the madness of Les first trying to be good mom and good person then reverting to her old bad girl ways , like the time she and her son and I were at the Oxmoor mall and she slipped off to f*ck that rail cop bf of hers in the service corridor. . Poor Madge is the same but in the opposite directions and more then a little frustrated since I do think she still likes Les and wants to get things going again .to be fair Madge had already had a few too many drinks but she just sat there blaring way at me in a angry/frustrated way asking that gives with Leslie . First she says she hears Les was dancing the other week at her old club ( true too, taking naughty break from being a single mom and student ) and including being wild with one of the dancers on stage ( didn't tell Madge how Les bragged about having sex with her & some suit from out of town later the same nite , have to be discreet ) with Madge thinking the old Les is still around and they could go back to doing all the wild and crazy things they did when they were going together like the lesbian orgy and those two guys who played for the ATLANTA BRAVES.......


But then when she called Les up the talk soon turned to Les's new interest in fundamentalist religion which blew Madge away . Madge now sounding downright angry and hurt using swear words galore said at first she thought that was a joke but then realized Les meant it .Madge said she was even going to a revival meeting later that nite . Madge finished it all up by adding that the next thing she'll hear Leslie is back dancing but worshipping 'that old homo the pope " which didn't impress Catholic Karin . Soon the still angry Madge was gone . Karin only said I sure know some charming people .................... Sad but true . And all I can say about Les is while I love her with her it's all ego . She loves the attention from men watching her dance topless and also from being around a bunch of religious fanatics and phonys who claim to be religious ( maybe including some of the guys who were watching here dance and hollaring for her to 'shake that thing " ?) thinking she's holy or saved and the rest of us are going to hell..................


Not much today before work . Going to get my teeth cleaned then go right back to getting them them discolored by heading to the coffee boutique . Dressing up in a low key way ..........................yellow polo shirt and Karin's lime green poplin mini with my brown kitten heels . At work the black cocktail waitress dress , nude thigh tops, and black flats .

[Lena]

Been too busy to have the time to get up a full post . They take at least 90 minutes to do .


Friday was fine , got my teeth cleaned .But was surprised to find my health insurance co-pay has gone up from $10 to $ 18 though .Wore the black cocktail waitress dress at work , no Mr. Dyson .


Saturday played tennis and we actually won 4 of 7 sets .Thats the best I've ever done .After that a quick healthy lunch which was too healthy for moi since it didn't have any alcohol . I think we should all eat as healthy as possible but goodness me we all need alcohol . I can do without candy and cookies but do need liquor On the way from the tennis club to work passed a mall seeing at least a dozen women and a few penis people going into JENNY CRAIG a weight loss store.Really is amazing , as a recovering anorexic moi has never had trouble keeping off weight . Even when troubles come moi usually almost totally gives up one eating switching to my own kind of alcohol based liquid diet . But too many food is a jones and places like JENNY CRAIG ( there plenty of others like it ) are the salvation . Good luck to anyone going to them .


The hotel was jumping all week-end , room occupancies were at 75% friday and a higher 80% saturday .Multiple functions too both friday and saturday . Most of the increased business was from the Ryder Cup , but also last nite in addition to a corporate party for the Ryder Cup also had a wedding reception and bar mitzvah . April the acting general manger stayed over too but they say kept out of every one's way letting them do there job . A nice break from some other general manager's who try micro managing and get everyone nervous .


Moi arrived looking very upper class and athletic in her white tennis dress .Just call me MM6...................a in-joke referring one of the most respected and well liked members here who was a tennis pro . Joking Bob in security joked I was dressing up that way to get into fancy tennis clubs then steal from the lockers. he must remember how I told him how when I was in grade school I wud deliberately get tossed out of class and have to stand in the hall but wud then go thru other kids coats taking there milk money . It took the school forever to figure out what was going on ............


For the first time since I was a cocktail waitress also brought in heels although not pumps but kitten heels to wear to seem more 'managerial ' since I was a boss last nite .I 've now gone full circle , couldn't wear my wonderful comfy orthies. I picked up a skirt suit uniform then took a long shower in the locker room which felt divine . When I was dressing Siobhan who used to be one of my cocktail waitresses came in , she's moved up the food chain and is the Banquets manager . Siobhan was exited about the upcoming nite , the woman puts alot of energy into her job and gets a whole lot of satisfaction from it .Unlike moi whose only in it for the money and education . Naturally management loves her all which is also helped by Siobhan's gorgeous looks .


There was a whole new feeling walking out of the locker room with Siobhan in our skirt suits . When Cassady and I leave the locker room in the sexxy black cocktail waitress I feel gorgeous ( do swear there's a extra swing in my booty ) and love the attention we get from the guys . You know 9 out of 10 of them WANT us then and now .............. .But yesterday looking so managerish and with someone as level headed & motivated as Siobhan I felt more mature and confident . That had me smiling and feeling good inside just as much or maybe even more so then thinking about the guys seeing me in the black cocktail waitress dress and wanting to f*ck me ...........


Moi's boss and at least one time friend Brendan was on site too. As Food and Beverage manager he had his work cut out last nite . We always could work well together and thats still the case although the special tinge of being friends is for now at least in the deep freeze .Hee hee, heard he and Carita the pastry chef are having troubles . GOOD ! I hope the relationship ends so he can go back to Marla and that home wrecking bitch Carita suffers !!!!


My main job was being what amounted to the banquet captain at the private party for teh ryder Cup . I never thought I'd ever have such a exalted title in my life. At work have been called everything from waitress to barkeep along with of course all sorts of 4 letter words but never Captain . I was nervous at first but Siobhan and Louie the head Banquet Captain explained it all petty good what I had to do .Looking back I think 90 % of the job was remembering to smile and keep my shoes on ..........


Moi assumed it was going to be a bar & buffet reception but it actually was a fancy semi-formal diner dance . It all began with supervising the set up which was easy since the crew does it so often . Like a machine they had the flowers on the table ( gladiolas) then put down the plates, flat ware napkins , and glasses . Then had to see the seating cards were set out right . While the people ate moi stood in a corner being discreet keeping a eye out for anything from trouble to people needing service but nothing hap pend . The crew really was always on top of everything . Did make a appearance in the kitchen to act like I was checking on things there but didn't linger . The chef had everything under control and also didn't want to get in anyones way since kitchens are madhouses but like I wrote for most of the nite mostly stood there smiling and (despite from time to time having one shoe off ) remembering to keep my shoes on .Did go over to say hi to pt bartender Shireen who was working the party .I've always liked her , a part America / part Thailand woman married to a army guy.

Some interesting tidbits. Did peer out in the hallway to see what was going on . There were a million kids running around from the bar mitzvah , loud loud loud . Those jews can be noisier then even us hillbillys and blacks .Although it's still summer some of the older women were in fur stoles do think not to look nice but show off . And saw this one 30 something woman in a very elegant black dress but who looked doped up & must have just had plastic surgery since her face was as tight as a drum . The wedding reception crowd was lively , Rafael and Cassady were working that many 20 somethings who tend to drink alot having the bartenders working all the time . Heard some of the people at the party I was working talk about how it was foursome day at the Ryder Cup which has a whole different connotation to a sex addict and pleasure seeker like moi . My first thought was not 2 person golf teams but instead the times last month in vacation first with the 2 firemen in Boston then the lesbian couple on Cape Cod ...............


The funniest thing was spotting one of my favorite coyotes Myrtle walking around the lobby between the ballrooms looking for business. She was pretty open about it too. your supposed to call security but moi is no snitch and TBH know they were all around and sooner or later get Myrtle .But fate got in the way . After talking to one of the waiters turned around and there was Myrtle right there in the party I was overseeing soliciting . I went over an he was happy thinking I'd let her do business. She even called me TASHA since she swears I used to be a coyote too & that was my street name . But all she did was laff and ignore me going right back to going up to men asking if they wanted a date .Was annoying , no one likes being blown off especially when it involves doing /keeping your job so I told her again to go in a pretty direct way . Myrtle quit joking and just glared at me . But luckily before anything could happen like shouting Barb and Donnie from security came in and Myrtle without a peep left with them ............ Barb later told me how Myrtle was saying Tasha's really turned into a bitch ...........


Raining today which is nice . In a purple RALPH LAUREN polo shirt dress we got at the hijacked truck sale . The first time I've worn it . Am off to work at my pt job at the country club where the RYDER CUP is NOT being held . There it'll be the uniform of the Kelly green jumper dress , white blouse & last nite's nude garter stockings and brown flats .

[Lena]

Happy monday to you all..............although going back to work after a few days off is a pain just imagine what life wud be without a job . Don't mean to sound so Republican /right wing , jut trying to put it all into perspective .The only real answer to having money and not working is to win the lottery .That's where moi is putting her hopes............


Must say something about the financial crisis here thats threatening to put the country into another great depression . I am scared like most everyone else about the near collapse of the whole financial system . Do know how to save and cut costs around the house but must admit I know NOTHING about high finance at all. But have heard one commentator after another say the whole crisis goes back to the financial people's greed and next to no government regulation . As a rorn rebel who was once even officially diagnosed as having sociopathic tendencies I don't care for rules and can understand why no one else wud . Especially those big financial people who wanted to make a much money as possible . Sad to say we all need rules , people and financial institutions or things go to hell. My family is a perfect case in point : there no rules, the family motto could be " If it feels good so it " and all it's only led to tragedy generation after generation . These financial people are the same , they didn't want rules and in the end came close to destroying there industry and taking down the whole US economy with them . So do think some new regulating for the financial industry is in order .


I made it into my pt job a the country club but we all got sent home early again . Hardly anyone showed up for dinner, guess it was the rain and the competition from the big golf tournament over at the Valhalla country club . I ended up working just under 4 of 5 hours.Do hope it picks up there , we need the money .if not moi is going to have to bite the bullet and look for a pt job at a regular bar .


Karin was still asleep when I got home so went for a walk in the rain which was very nice. The rain really has magic powers for me , I feel so relaxed, confident ,and energized . Bet I walked 3 miles , all barefoot . Going thru puddles & the mud and loving every second of it . Simple mind =simple pleasure and moi is NOT sorry .....................


While out saw some familiar faces . Our neighbors Belinda and Baily drove by me in there shiny metallic black Volvo and waved .Went by the coffee boutique ( leaving a trail of black footprints from the front door to counter ) and saw most of the east end gang as they call themselves .Not gangbangers by any means but yuppys . My connection is knowing one of the women whose a bi and very much the 'arteest ' named Ranna . She makes tv commercials and does what she calls video art . She lives with this incredibly cool black dude named Eric whose a photographer .Ranna can be a little too artsy and conceited but has always been nice to me . Yesterday even called me over to say hi . Nice enough , made small talk .the people at the table were friendly too , although some short bald yuppy guy named Russs creeped me out by staring at and my feet like he was in a trance and then when he came out of his trance worst of all started joking if I was some type of hillbilly going barefoot ................


Back home took a shower and got into a comfy T shirt and gym shorts and almost right away dozed off. Karin woke me up about 6PM , she was in a great mood after a good days sleep . Last nite's work had been busy so the time passed but nothing intense which can drain her . She got on the couch and I had my head in her lap which was very very nice She said we should go out on the kayaks today which we will be doing later . her mom called .Diane is close to her due date so there all excited /nervous ! No news from that idiot cousin Cate , she said she'd be over to do laundry 2 weeks go now but never showed up . That's fine with moi , my quota for being a round yahoos was filled long long ago


We didn't do much at all last nite but still had fun . The meaning of quality time is up for question .To some it's going something special together but do think it also includes things like last nite where we were basically just being together Watched the Emmys on tv.... ...very glamorous . I noticed for the first time all those Hollywood award shows look the same . Then part of some movie in black and white with Frances McDormand who Karin loves and Billy Bob Thornton ( he has to be a 'billy with a name like that ) then went to bed .As far as that goes someone making a Figure 8 with there tongue in you is quite the marvelous experience ..................


Today we'll be on the Ohio River with all the barges and maybe few cabin cruisers .Should be a heap of fun so white one piece swim suit along with lite gray t shirt and jean short shorts .

[Lena]

A little sore but feeling very healthy after kayaking yesterday . We made it to the Ohio River and spent about 4 hours on it . going by barges , a few canoers, this older then old man on a cabin cruiser alone , and the state police patrol boat .Those police guys looked like they weren't even working .......... being totally at ease out on this huge motorboat sailing away waving people talking to some canoers ,and hawking at a lesbian couple who were all smiles. I wonder who that could have been ?


Back on shore we came home for a quick shower then went down to THE TRIANGLE thats the gay bar area here . The area is really my second home........... .Guess I should add doing a big post about that part of town to my already long long list of things I want to write about . Really is unique, a small but as intense as a anthill gay litle world. The place is full of storys and interesting characters .Life never stops happening all around you down there .


We dad dinner then went to a little hole in the wall bar that was a guys place but is now being dykeified I love it , so quiet and relaxed . A real break from the hotel bar that I work that can get frantic . But Karin whose never liked dives anyway got bored so we went over to the Connection complex.A fun place for sure , saw several people we know. Including this woman who at first I thought had to be the best drag queen I ever saw since she was so way out there fashion wise ....... in a navy blue wide brimmed hat , huge designer sunglasses, in a white with navy blue v-neck dress and designer mules.But it was indeed a woman From another lesbian universe then the one we are in that is for sure .............. Also Leila Duverney whose the last of the beatniks . Actually she's only about 30 and a folksinger who sometimes performed at our friend Frieda's coffee boutique .She looks like a woman from 1965 , heavy set with long waist length blond hair almost always in a granny dress and carrying a guitar . Nice woman though , on her way to a gig at a coffee house in the Germantown area .


The big news was seeing our find our freind Celeste ( and my onetime f*ck buddy and our friend Lonnie's ex ) and her new man .I can understand why C wud be there being bi but not the guy whose name is Rick.Like Celeste he's black and also lite skinned , more then her . Anyway Celeste was happy to tell us she's 3 months pregnant and looks very very happy . We were happy for her and all hugged . Must say didn't know how to deal with Rick though not wanting to make any social faux pas since we really weren't sure he was the father . Celeste has been pretty ambitious in the sleeping around department to get preggars . But she suttley let us know he was indeed the daddy saying 'We tryed and tryed and finally got pregnant ' . For his part Rick was real proud and happy too. So we hugged him too .


We stood there talking for about 10 minutes. Rick seems like a good catch, is a teacher and coach .Had been in the air force too. They look real happy and compatible ..........but who really knows about compatibility over time ?. After we parted Karin noticed how C must be bleaching her skin and now has brown not black hair .Moi started wondering if now that she's in a heterosexual relationship and is going to be a mom will we ever see Celeste again ? Do hope so ...............


Naturally moi drank too much . For the jillionth time someday do have to get into AA ...................but not today. I think I might still be at the bar except for the arrival of wanna be queen bee Alicia and her friends /pack of sheep .There always nice or really pseudo -nice but too in-bred for us and you know starting with that two faced Alicia the second you turn your back there dissing you . So it was back home for us .The elegant woman I thought was drag queen ? When leaving we saw her climbing into a white Range Rover ........


For today not much . Karin's already gone , to a meeting at the malpractice lawyers office about the big lawsuit at work . The hospital offered to settle out of court but the dead person's family wants to go to trial hoping for more money . Sounds greedy but that's how it works here getting money is the name of the game . Must say if given the chance wud sue anyone to make money from my father's death . I'd see it as reparations for all the harm that scum did to me . Happy to report Karin's doing real good with all this lawsuit business , especially not blaming herself and worrying her nursing career is over. She left looking very yuppy in a lite grey skirt suit, white blouse, bare-leg, and black heels .



Moi's SO yuppy look is much different from my clothes today . For me it's white T shirt and my HOOTERS gym shorts with flip flops . At the country club tonite there uniform of a white house , Kelly green jumper dress & t nude thigh tops and brown flats.Do hope more then a few people come in , the place has been so dead thanx to the storm , basement flood , and RYDER CUP we've all been hurting for tips .

[Lena]

Am in a half way decent mood today . Nothing big , just a few small things to be hapy about . Do believe we should all enjoy it when little things go well. After all we all get annoyed whe they go bad .....................


The diners at the country club are finally returning which means more dinero for moi We were pretty steady last nite , worked with Meghan whose always fun too. Carlene in the bar too was fun , her new hubby got her a tennis bracelet for her upcoming 48th birthday which she says is a life time dream of hers. Moi's had a tennis bracelet since she was 21 which was a gift she got for f*cking another woman's husband . A gift from my ex Rusty who sold wholesale jewelry . It's amazing I still have it , over the years was tempted to sell it to get money and did have to hide it from his successor Jerry who was scum and wud have stolen and sold it .The only problem is we hardly go anywhere I can wear it , no matter what you hear bartenders don't usually go as guests to very many fancy functions . Actually I like the pearls ( necklace, bracelet , and earrings ) more since there more low key and not so in your face as a tennis bracelet .Meghan too is getting married too which is great Her mom's happy since she's wrongly convinced Meghan is preggars .


Karin came back from the lawyers meeting more relieved about this malpractice suit crap then ever before .She's still scared about not in a panic and turning inwards at the expense of us like she was when it all started .That's a COLOSSAL relief to me since I hated to see her suffer and it caused to many problems around the house .I think the cats who in there own way pick up everything were also happy about her attitude too. She says the malpractice lawyer is a really big friendly old guy whose real smart . He even went to med school for a year to be able to handle these types of cases better . The way she talked about this one paralegal brought back memorys of my ex Marady who herself also became something like a paralegal or legal secretary .Although pretty , smart and funny Marady was a real bitch with a big mouth , wanna be tough guy , and underneath it all a neurotic mess . This woman like Marady was always trying to impress everyone with name dropping and a real know it all attitude and Karin said switched gears falling all over the male associates like she was a 13 year old in love . From what the lawyer said they stand a good chance of winning since they didn't violate something called something like existing standards of care .


Karin enjoyed dressing up too since as a nurse ( and one on midnites ) she doesn't get to do it often .Unlike moi she loves heels , shouldn't say I hate them .Actually wearing them twice no less last week was OK but still have the pain burned in my mind from having to wear them for 9 hours day as a cocktail waitress that left me with the strong suspicion they were really designed by the devil to torture women . ...................... :We decided to get dressed up and go out for lunch next monday which should be fun .


Also had a surprise nice time with our neighbor Steve and his fiance Doleres .After I walked Karin out to the car when she left for work they pulled in just home from work as rail police . The were real nice and up for doing something so we all decided to go out for a drink at this homey little fern bar a few blocks away . Moi is always up for extemporaneous drinking /partying . Do love Steve's macho HUMMER , although it's about the last car I'd ever buy ( the idea of 5'3' 130 pound me behind the wheel of that monster machine is absurd , about as crazy as me becoming one of those Catholic nuns ) but you do get a smooth ride. No big talk , just daily stuff. Steve's lost 40 pounds on his diet although says he's sick of WEIGHT WATCHERS food. Dolores is looking at wedding dresses which was really interesting although being a typical penis person when we stared talking about them Steve pretended to fall asleep & snore ........... . When I went to the bathroom one guy at the bar noticed my HOOTERS shorts and suddenly got very friendly , coming over to our table to hit on me . The attention was nice but I couldn't get into a big flirting/teasing but harmless ego gratifying game with him since Steve and Definitely Dolores wudn't have approved Also why moi love being looked on as being sexy by anyone the guys attitude was a little annoying , do believe he saw anything involving HOOTERS including moi in the shorts as a big neon sign saying I'M A TRAMP or YOU CAN PARK YOUR CAR IN MY GARAGE ANYTIME ...............


Today may go by our friend Frieda's coffee boutique for a snack & too catch up . Am a little wary since Frieda always trys to put me to work whenever I come in , hope she doesn't today Dressing very functional today ..............white T shirt with the name of some medicine Karin brought home from work along with black lycra shorts ,my one pair of black bikini briefs white socks & sneakers . At work tonite at the hotel the penguin suit & orthies .

[Lena]

Another day . Yesterday had it's surprises, all good or at least interesting . 


Moi has more plans for this blog and my other one . As far as the other blog goes this week-end plan to get up the fun filled account of out short stay in NYC on vacation . We crammed alot into one day including being swarmed by a bunch of cops when I made a wrong turn in Times Square  . Got the idea for what could be some interesting posts here last nite listening to 2 teachers who were at the bar . They were saying how they divided  group of 9th graders into groups each supposed to learn all about  particular era in American history placing themselves in the role of regular people . Sort of a inside out look at history where you get about the closest thing possible to a first hand look at life in the past .That sounded more fun then just learning names & dates like  I remember .


So plan on using clothes from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION to go back and look at life starting in the 1950's moving ahead .Focusing on what life was like in those times . The actual time periods and outfits will change maybe over a week or so .My wardrobe that week will be so uneven but indeed interesting . Hope to learn more about America & history and have fun telling it here. Thank the heavens too it's clothes not hair styles...............what a nitemare that wud be .


Among the surprises was stopping by our friend Frieda's coffee boutique and seeing how it's changed and also how Frieda did NOT put me to work the second I came in . Although she did get moi to commit to helping with a poetry slam in a few weeks but that's OK since there always fun .Frieda's main room is still the same ..............a huge square room with brite yellow walls , photos & paintings for sale on the walls , and big plants on a wooden floor . Her used book store is gone though , it's empty but like the rest of the place painted brite yellow waiting for someone to do something with it .Frieda's talking to a few possible renters and has her own idea about a cyber cafe .She's still doing good business, the place as full of students and faculty from UL and some of the other schools . Frieda's still the same , thin as a rail with her 1950's crew cut , as always complaining about running a business and being single parent at the same time . Sure looks rough but after having been around single moms all my life ( the men have a habit of running when they have to take responsibility for there familys ) haven't seen anyone do as a good a job as Frieda. Maybe it's energy and discipline coming from being half German ............... Happy to hear that some professors who I hit it off with when working there have asked about moi ...........


Several surprises later at work . After changing into the penguin suit learned I was going to be MOD again friday nite ......................... Should be a whole lot less nervous then I was the week . Also the general manager was due back this week-end from China where he and his wife went to adopt a second baby but it turns out they won't be back for another week then he's taking a few weeks family leave .So my friend and I guess patron saint April ( a Catholic term my gf uses for someone looking out for you , it fits but is funny since neither April or I are Catholic ) will stay on being acting general manager . Heard too my boss and for years good friend /Big Brother Brendan and Carita the tramp pastry chef have broken up which I hope sets the stage for him and his wife my friend Marla getting back together . My spys tell me the colossal phony and management wanna-be has eyes on Brendan for her 3rd husband but am not worried .As big a jack ass as Brendan has made of himself cheating on Marla he has better taste then a fake and oaf like Barb ..................


Work was slow which was a surprise to since it's mid-week when we're usually humming with business travellers & army people and the hotel was at 70 % occupancy . . At first was in the Concierge Lounge then the almost empty bar . We did get a rush about 2300 Euro time but for most of the nite it was moi and cocktail waitress Narla doing pretty much nothing .Good lord did the time drag.


Although it didn't surprise me as much as it did cocktail waitress Narla and some of the customers there was still another jolt about the goofy Sarah Palin .Seems her ex minister who is a black man from Africa was a preacher there and his ministry also included hunting witches...................


Moi was pleasantly shocked ..............white fundamentalists can be VERY right wing and it was amazing to see they had this black guy as there spiritual leader. Was actually happy about that .But that got wiped away seeing him and the flock on tv coming to the realization there all fanatics ...................


The witch hunting thing was bizarre.After all this in not the 16th century .We all got worked up hearing one reporter talking about how witch hunting in Africa is no silly game but actually dangerous .Many women accused of being witches have been beaten , tortured and even murdered .............


But it got insane when they showed video of Sarah on the alter with the lunatic witch hunter .In a phony religious posture with her arms out with men on each side to hold in case the devil showed up the minister was praying for her to be protected from witchcraft ............... Sarah all the time nodding and looking like she was praying along to be saved from those witches .................... Help ........................


Today pink tank top and white mini . At work the penguin suit and orthies .

[Lena]

Oh boy friday ......................


The start of the week-end for many and also for moi the start of what should be a interesting week-end of work & partying . Am the MOD tonite , work this rich girls huge wedding reception saturday nite, go into my pt job at the country club sunday ( or as I call it another episode of poor hillbilly in the land of the rich & privileged ) but after that to a open house for the return of Caroline O'Brien to our wonderful metro area . Actually I barely knew Caroline but she was known to be a fun person and moi always get excited about going to anything with free alcohol and a mob of dykes .


Work was the usual yesterday . Wore the penguin suit which is my alter ego , maybe I should ask to be buryed in it ? There still trying to keep the quality of the food in the employee cafeteria up which is a surprise and a nice one at that . Another one of the Barbie dolls from the front desk is preggars , and not married either !!!! There letting her keep working there which is only fair . I remember when I worked to MARRIOTTS one of the single women at the front desk got pregnant to keep up the wholesome image she was soon made a phone operator where no guests could see her and the big corporate lie of being us all being so wholesome wudn't be challenged


Some bad mouthing about April whose acting general manager going on too ................some claim she has a queen bee complex wanting to throw her weight around , is favoring female over male staff ( moi's name even came up in that context ) and even some anti jewish stuff since she is one . Nasty nasty nasty and be sure moi has been sticking up for her !!! It's all bad but no surprise . People do love gossiping & finding fault with others. Especially about women and women in power I've also come to the conclusion after 10 years in the hotel business that too many people in it are pretty angry & two faced . Moi thinks April 's doing great and not just because she's given me some opportunity but mainly since she treats everyone fair, talks to you like your a adult/member of the team not slave , and has a very mature /confident attitude doing her job


The economic crisis continues .The tv news said the politicians were close to a deal yesterday but it fell apart when the more right wing Republicans tryed to get in somethings good for the rich . Great isn't it ? Those greedy mega wealthy assholes cause this mess with there greed and are now trying to use the crisis to get richer . Saw too how the federal government has taken over the WASHINGTON MUTUAL financial company . They have a office not far from our home, may go by to take a look . Wonder if there will be a paddle lock on the front door like the tax collectors use when they up and seize your house or a sign on the front lawn like on government owned homes in the slums ( including the house my mom bought for $1) saying THIS PROPERTY OWNED BY THE US GOVERNEMNT , PREMISES PROTECTED BY THE FBI.I 'd add a laffing emotcion to joke about , gallows humor you know , but it's all too tragic especially since we could still end up with a major depression ................


On a happyer note like I wrote am MOD again tonite . I feel like CAPTAIN JANEWAY on STAR TREK . After much soul searching and talk with Karin am even going to wear regular heels tonite at work . The first time since I was a cocktail waitress 6 years ago . All to look more menagerish and mature............... If all the female managers can do it so can I too Besides it will feel nice being taller . Since I have only worn them a few other times am breaking them in to feel more comfy .I must be quite a site now here in the over sized man's T shirt I sleep in and blue heels . I plan to walk around outside in them later too.


Off to do some errands then work . Dressing up too , as MOD you even have to look good coming into work . White polo shirt , knee length tan skirt and my just shined brown flats with a pointy toes . At work the navy blue skirt suit uniform & striped blouse with nude garter stockings , white bikini briefs ( unless you work in a brothel do think managers should always wear underwear ) and of course my navy blue heels .

[Lena]

New post tomorrow .............am very tired now .

Today in white U neck top and jean mini

At work the black cocktail waitress dress, nude seamed garter stockings , and black flats .

[Lena]

MOD TWO AND A HALF : THE RETURN OF THE DAISY MAY

With NEVE CAMPNELL as LENA who as she writes is alive inspite of herself but hanging in there ..........OK I am painfully aware I don't look like NEVE CAMPBELL but it's a movie about my blog so I get to choose who'll be moi and that's final !!!!! We need a emotcion that says " And thats that !!! " ....................


MORGAN FREEMAN ( or maybe BILLY DEE WILLIAMS) as DERRICK the security supervisor ...........actually DERRICK is shorter and balding but since I love MORGAN FREEMAN wud pick him to play DERRICK . Although do know like many black guy his age DERRICK wud love being played by a vintage babe like BILLY DEE.........


ANDY GRIFITH as OLD MAN MONEY ...............Perfect casting , a evil greedy version of his folksy MATLOCK character .Corporate called and ordered us to fall all over the old reactionary ...............


ANGELINA JOLIE as OLD MANS MONEY SLEAZY JEWELRY DRAPED TROPHY WIFE ...............Jolie is about a decade younger but do believe she'd have no trouble playing a woman married to a man at least 40 years older and whose whole job is to look pretty and pretend to care about the selfish old coot looking forward to inheriting all his jillions.....................


CUBA GOODING JR .or JOSH HARTNETT as the DISABLED BUT STRONG AS HELL WAR VETARAN ................The actual guy was white but am a huge CUBA GOOODING FAN and errrr also a huge JOSH HARTNETT fan .Am I really writing how I want to sleep with each of them ?


SARAH PALIN as the HOMELESS WOMAN WITH THE SHOPPING CART WHO MADE TROUBLE .......................Actually SANDRA BERNHART wud have been the best choice since she's just as loud and hostile as the homeless woman was . But since I detest SARAH ( and am only bored by Sandra ) will give her the honor .


with KRISTIN SCOTT THOMAS as ACTING GENERAL MANAGER APRIL ..............Actually KST is about 15-20 years older then APRIL but has the same maturity , intelligence & that elusive but wonderful grace thing all woman want that April has ...............





Some of the actors for a movie based on my second time as MOD friday nite . I had a good time . BTW here in America like coon , catlicker, kyke , and spic DAISY MAY is a insulting term .Used by some to say hillbilly or on pc ' MOUNTAIN WOMEN ' as being simple minded and sex crazed oafs........... But what can you do , cant ban words so have to mock them to take the sting out . And this is one Daisy May who wants to live a good life ! . Was nervous but nowhere near as bad as I was the other week when I was MOD for the first time and also very excited looking forward to a nite that wud be interesting .The closest thing I can compare it to is going to a big party and there among all the people sneaking off to have sex in a closet or bathroom ..................


The shift began with me picking up the skirt suit and blouse at uniforms . I was actually cited feeling like I was picking up my WONDER WOMAN outfit or TBH the old hooker chic cocktail waitress uniform ( deliciously sleazy .... gold vest white nehru shirt & red bow tie and faux black leather mini ) that was always fun to wear and brought in the tips I suddenly felt very important seeing how it was kept separate from all the other uniforms and w as the only uniform covered in plastic . When changing in the locker room saw fellow bartender Cassady who was going on about how she wants to buy a Saab ( how ? not on the peanuts they pay us, of course she does have that older rich bf/keeper ) but then too a rare break from her usual self absorption to notice I was getting into the uniform knowing I 'd be boss again and looking like she'd seen a ghost when I took the heels out of my pack . Not really believing what she was seeing Cassady blurted out how she's never seen me in heels before maybe thinking she should let RIPLEYS BELIEVE IT OR NOT know ASAP!!!! !!!!!! Reminding me of the time a guy I went to high school with saw me at UL and was shocked to the point of anger moi from special ed and who was grade wise at the bottom of her class wud ever be on a university campus . As I said to that snob told now bug-eyed with shock Cassady how life full of surprises Right away she wanted to see the shoes ( just plain navy blue heels examining them like a jeweler does diamonds ) then insisting to know where I got them . Cassady smiled when I said at the outlet mall then kindly let me know how she could never buy her shoes at a outlet mall but always gets them at either DILLARDS ( a big department store ) or one of the fancy boutiques downtown . Or really "Nah nah nah "............. Was also nice enough to show me her new pink mules , I was so impressed and honored to see them ! That Cassady is sure a deep one .....................


After that went to April's office seeing my buddy Barb in security who was about to leave .We hugged and she congratulated me for being MOD saying how she 's heard many except that bitch Barb Stuart the ass't concierge who hates us both thinking moi did a god job . That was great to hear , love compliments but especially from friends with a brain and good heart like Barbie . Was with April for 20 minutes , she even wasn't taking calls during the the meeting . She has has a real organized and calm approach to doing things .......... real mature and free of the panic that is so common and also phony make a mountain out of a molehill crap that goes on in the hotel business.


Lets see ....... , we had 2 functions going on the banquet floors , a huge church group from Paducah wud arrive at about 6PM , there'd be a wedding rehearsal dinner at the back of the family restaurants ( cheapskates , most use a banquet room and also a waste since they could go to a nice restaurant and get a private room for a whole, lot less money ) , several guest room floors were blocked off for fogging , and briefly ( April is not one to dwell on the negative ) to make sure just fired day chef Prentiss Walker isn't allowed on the premises and to have him escorted out if he shows up and dum de dum dah ........arrested by the police if he refuses to leave . didn't know Prentiss but heard he was a huge know it all with a hair trigger temper and that's what got him canned . I nodded.The big thing was unless there was some huge catastrophe meet & greet this big shot checking in about 9PM ,arriving in town on his won jet . the orders came direct from the corporations executive VP! April said she'd be in the house and wud come down to greet the " messiah ' herself :lol Then we wrapped up and with her usual maturity and that grace said we could now go out and do our jobs .................do like her style .


For awhile was in the lobby being a professional smiler . Also answering all sort of questions from guests like the other week from where's the bathroom to whats going on in town , how can we get theater tickets ,and " whats there to do here of all places " from some snide yankees from the east coast ............. maybe pull your head out of your booty ? Checked in with the front desk , fellow queer James ( but he's not open about it instead coming of as more of your standard metrosexual male hotel type ) was boss . You can always count on him to do a good job . Then the kitchen , master chef Maurice was pretty busy but smiled and hugged me . No mention of Prentiss, when your up to your neck in work no time to agonize about possible trouble . Dropped by the Gift Shop , a new clerk was working . The one who was messing up the last time I was MOD got fired . Good . Suzanne the 50 something doctor's widow manager was still there busy looking at print outs. Still friendly , comes with being so UMC . Saw Derrick too who was security supervisor , I love him . So smart and kind . Sometimes I think he's a little lonely being a widower and the kids gone but he keeps busy working for state parole and here and is a huge fisherman Told me how he was there to serve good Queen Lena . Technically am his boss but could never in jillion years tell him what to do Was recording the presidential debate at home while at work which had me thinking I should have done the same . Do think though he had it in his mind to sneak off and catch a few glimpses ..............I wasn't going to tell.


Kept smiling & also moving so I wud be on top of everything . The heels hurt but what could you do ? MOD"S can't run around barefoot .......except when there in the elevator and nobody can see . Dropped in at the wedding rehearsal dinner in the family restaurant , 25 people . Although the grooms parents were hosting were teetotallers ( my natural enemys as a bartender and alcoholic ) who weren't paying for anyone's drinks but were still very nice people . All the way from North Dakota too , Louisville maybe a wide spot in the road to many but to them it was some huge mega city . Congratulated the bridal couple who work for FEDERAL EXPRESS.Then over to greet the churchers in from Paducah , 3 charter busloads of 'em . Very smiley and friendly to one and all . And cheap to, they had 3 bellman to handle the mob instead of the usual one bellman but only one single elderly lady asked for help taking her bags up . Naturally the guys were griping but moi reminded them we have a big convention this week so they'll be cleaning up .Don't think it really cheered any of the guys up and although I felt bad since I was manger couldn't do anything else to cheer them up like showing them my stockings tops or telling a dirty joke ...............


Dropped in at both functions going on on the banquet room floor. The biggest was the Grandee Ballroom for a dentists group, full of what my ex Rusty called 'tooth mechanics ' My friend Siobhan was running the show up there , like James at the front desk and Derick with security you can count on her doing a great job . Neither of us knew the other was working and were happy to see each other ,two male dentists were also happy to see us peck on the lips too She was impressed I was in heels since when she was a cocktail waitress I told her one of the best things about moving to the other side of the bar was escaping having to wear those things.Things change I guess. the other much smaller event was for a accounting company , nice people too. Handed out the sales managers card to one of the guests & got his to make sure there'd be contact there since he wanted to have his daughter's wedding at the hotel .


Things warmed up at the front desk , with all the crap I have seen & gone thru in my life I always love seeing good things .Was talking to manager trainee Lauren ( herself pretty cool) and we saw this nice German family . Both parents were in there 40's but fit and well dressed like the German guests usually are ...........also prosperous . But the stars were there 2 daughters Natasha and Rayessa who were 6 and 3 adopted from Russia .Both were in gorgeous kids clothes and obviously very happy . They really reminded me of Ying Ying, the girl we sit for adopted from China . I even told the parents about how they were like that special child Ying Ying . They smiled although Derrick who came up at the end later pointed out I should have said Ying Ying is like there special children instead . Also a guy about 25 checked in , a real generation Y type with a ball hat in a T shirt with shorts but with a artificial leg . He moved real good and seemed full of energy . Had a preservation with a disabled /retired veterans rate . Was also on the phone to some friends I figured at the base .While he was busy talking seeing how he lost a leg for America told Lauren to upgrade his room to a mini suite and it comes with a free breakfast It's the least we could do............ .Later in the bar ( where wierd Norm the lazyest bartender on earth grimaced seeing me as MOD ) saw the same guy with some younger noncoms and was even more impressed with him . Was talking about going to college and after that maybe business school ( those MBA's clean up ) and how he's working out alot .Where do people stepped on by life get get that kind of strength to go on and kick booty ? I was hoping he'd offer me some of his blood since I need a injection of whatever he has .............


Also weirdness galore. Good thing I have a taste for the bizarre and kinky in life. Starting with the much anticipated arrival of the special guest we were commanded to fall all over .His name changed from the messiah to Old Man Money over the nite . The limo driver called saying how they were leaving the airport so real quick got April on the radio phone then went to the front desk to tell Lauren how she should personally handle registration and graped the bellman and luggage cart . Like loyal children waiting for the parents to get home from work there we all were at the front entrance, me , April , and a bellman with the cart . Derrick and Donnie came out too interested in who exactly was this VIP .


Nothing special , just some 80 something with pale skin covered by huge brown blotches . In a cowboy hat and polyester western style coat with string tie but with sneakers instead of boots. We learned later that he made his fortune back in the 1950's building expressways then got even richer building airports and harbors. Also a much much much younger woman about 40 who turned out to be his trophy wife ( every time I think of her I see a sports trophy in my mind ) whose was indeed gorgeous . Perfect blond hair , make up- ,and nails .Herr nose looked done too. The woman seemed very impatient and hating every second of having to deal with little people . Am sure she was also a cocktail waitress too or even a hooker at one time too . In a black silk like jumpsuit with huge diamonds all over her body ...........the necklace alone was so big it could choke a horse. She was bossing the limo driver and bell man how to handle there 6 bags of luggage , no doubt most of hers . Still following April's lead we stayed nice. He seemed friendly , really just like ANDY GRIFFITH all folksy and sociable .We'd learn otherwise real soon .............


Up in the presidential suite they settled in .April and the wife went over other specifications and wants . Was a looooong list too. While the maid helped her bitchiness unpack April & I got treated to her husband . Very very folksy and affable on the outside but the way he acted said something else Didn't impress either of us when seeing the presidential debate said " That Obama's one sharp looking colored boy " then like a real gentleman took his sneakers and socks off talking about his gout . I made him a drink , got thanked by being called "Missy " then he performed a bodily function laffing saying it was the non existing dog . The worst was his babbling .April and I were trapped as he gave us his crack pot worse then Fred 75 ideas on about everything .The financial crisis ? The work of " jew bankers on Wall street " ( something jewish April really had to have appreciated hearing ) .The war in Iraq ? The only good sand n i g g e r is a dead sand n i g g e r . And Louisville is a great town but you know the politicians always went to far for the' coloreds '...............


After the old goat belched and told me to make him another drink he got personal asking why our husbands let us work . Him going ( as some of the scotch dribbled out the side of his mouth ) how no man worth his salt wud ever let a wife work . Going on how it's in the Good Book how men are meant to work and women should stay home with the kids and make him a good home .Grrrrr We both told him that we 're single . He was a little confused but say how he understood then and it's better then being one of those welfare queens , but not to wait to long to get married or we'll dry up and not be able to have babys ( adding he sired 6 ) and then joking saying also how a woman should be married or you really got to wonder if there not lesbians or as he said 'lesbins '.My reply was saying "Heaven forbid !!!!!!!!! " with April having a hard time containing her laffter......................... Then he dismissed us , giving us each 5 dollars .


Back at the front desk we gave the bellman our huge $5 tips ,since no surprise Old Man Money had missed tipping the black guy . Despite her people being dissed April took it pretty good , saying it takes all kinds as hard as it is to understand sometimes . Lauren was wondering what the old fool saw in his wife since she was so nasty .Derrick being real smart wryly smiled and said "Some women can make men out of boys and there some women who can make boys..........." with everyone laffing before he could finish .


Later had to go to the security office to warn known coyotes Candy and Rio not to come in or its the calaboose . Candy just laffed , remarking how I've moved up in the world and going " Like everyone say you was Tasha on Roy Wilkins " almost with her tongue out at me . I rolled my eyes hearing that again , security Donnie who has a huge crush on me looked amazed while Derrick shook his head . Again said I wasn't no Tasha saying truthfully it could have been my cousin . That only had the girls laffing more and I should have known better to say anything like that .I can be a moron at times . Then Derrick got them moving fast saying there was a truck drivers convention down to the Holiday Inn . They moved out like greased lightening ..............


Minutes later Derrick , Donnie and I all had to get up to the lobby since this crazy homeless woman security calls EARLENE who has a habit of coming in and making trouble was back . This time even bringing in her shopping cart home into the lobby . She wudn't leave and swung at Donnie when he tryed pushing her cart out . Have to be careful with her , she once waved a steak knife at another security .Then she started hollaring how she had a right to sleep in the lobby and could also kill or be killed by order of the ruler ................ Moi tryed talking her into leaving but had no luck .Soon Earlene was on the floor hollaring away so loud half of Kentucky must have heard . Really was a bad situation , guests coming in were shocked . But am no fool , recall how when my sister was having a tantrum screaming away on the floor so my mother leaned over and & squezzed her thigh as hard as she could making Lori jump up almost to the sun . Suggested that to Derrick and he did exactly that , right away Earlene was up howling from the pain but with her cart headed out the door saying how mad the ruler wud be at us ............. .Derrick rushed to wash his hands , can't blame him . ...................


Finished up just before 2 AM and noticed how we'd made it thru the nite with no insurmountable crisis .And I had been so busy the heel things hadn't bothered me , a nice surprise . So kicked them off and enjoyed a merlot thanking the stars for all ending well............


Today in a white baby doll top and off white capri pants .At the country club there uniform of a white blouse, Kelly green jumper dress with nude garter stockings and brown flats................

[Lena]

No big post today , have gotten some great feedback about SUNDAYS so will let it stand for a day or so .


My day off..........navy blue T shirt & jean short shorts and a gstrings


Last nite after work we went to a welcome home party for the wild and fun Caroline O'Brien . A femme with the long and shapely legs I was born to have but was cheated out of my Mother Nature .She's just back from working for the Defense department in Kuwait ......... was also drunker then a skunk too making out with all the girls including both of us . No wonder Caroline was always known as a life of the party type ......... Her tongue went so far down your throat you felt like your tonsils got a bath ............


Saw Shoshana the radical feminist who after years of seeing us as sub-human has started being nice to us and her new gf a eerily quiet to the point of being rude black woman named Rava ( did they name the Japanesse car after her ? ) whose also a professor . And in the too embarrassing to believe department a woman my gf was with a few times as a swinger during her unhappy married days and also the evil Monica, the semi leather girl I had sex with in the bar bathroom last spring .


But thank the stars both my gf's onetime lover and that wud be homewrecker Monica soon left after seeing us .Its not the first time some from the past has spotted me and booked ( can be insulting ! ) but this time it was fine with me

[Lena]

ANNOUNCING ................THE FIRST DAY OF CLOTHES FROM THE MARILYN KING COLLECTION !!!!!!


Now thats it's getting cooler will be wearing them more often .........


Today in the wool lite gray V-neck sweater, white shirt and tan corduroy skirt .Also nude pantyhose and Doctor Scholls .There's no real name this look , maybe just relaxed 1970 woman when the MARILYN KING CLOTHES are from ? Or university professor too caught up in there studying to care about clothes? Oh well it works for moi who is so egocentric or so so so deep ( ) she can't be all obsessed about fashion...............


Yesterday was nice. We broke from our usual pattern and got dressed up going out to lunch downtown . Karin wore a cranberry silk blouse and black Aline skirt with heels while moi was in her fancy summer dress that a lite blouse with a white floral pattern with a sweetheart collar . Although there out of season ( the etiquete book I've been reading to be more lady like says not to wear white after Labor day ) white kitten heels too. Like rich stay at home moms or women in a 1950's movie we lingered over our meal and chit chatted away . Moi deliberately trying to keep her voice low and talk in a more round about way too as well as watch the alcohol intake . Believe me both took work ................but the whole experience was fun .


Worked at the country club later . Was on with Meghan whose deep into planning her wedding with it suddenly turning into quite a chore which they have a habit of doing Also TT Carlene who says her 30 year old son and his wife who stay in Huntsville Alabama just bought a pet boa constrictor they named Bo , yes Bo the Bao constrictor ............. But moi could never do that , wouldn't want to have a pet that I'd worry about eating me ...... That Fritz the cat of ours is bad enough as it is with his biting the back of your legs when he wants to be fed .


Am sorry will miss the big debate between that hideous Palin creature and Senator Biden tonite since I'll be at the hotel .............. But will tivo it to watch later. Am sure the vile thing from Alaska will be very phony .......in a wud be confident way repeating one right wing cliche after another as if it's rock solid truth . Do hope the interviewers press her since doubt that phony can come up with anything beyond a cliche some handler told her to say and who knows as whacko as she seems maybe our Sarah will say some ancient prophet or the Almighty himself appears to her............ I only worry since Biden seems like a blowhard at times and as selfish/ bizarre as she is the horrible woman could seem like regular people compared to him .


My big post about our day in NYC should be up today in the regular blog area. .................. At work tonite the penguin suit & orthies.

[Lena]

..........Made a mistake yesterday .I thought the VP debate wud be last nite but instead it's tonite . Say what you want ...........silly girl , semi brain dead ex crack head , or just plain moron but it was my mistake . Sorry .



Work is getting emotionally consuming and is getting to me more and more this morning . i ahte being upset about work , it's totally at odds with my philosophy of going in , getting along with everyone , doing my job and then leaving/escaping back to home .From almost the second moi walked thru the employee entrance and for the rest of my shift heard nothing from my co-workers but talk often amounting to anxiety about this big expected major reshuffling of managers. It's all too much for this hillbilly , don't really want to get up in the politics and never ending soap opera of the place like so many do . We went thru that stage years and years ago when we had our own little gay clique at work and am happy to have moved on I come in , smile , work , then get my money and go home and try to forget about the job . !!!!



Talk about some huge change has been going on for a week or so but has gotten more intense now that the general manager is finally back from China ( where he went to adopt another daughter ) and there is constant talking about how now that he's back there's going to a major reshuffling of managers . More on moi and the general manager ahead .Corporate doesn't seem to like those people staying too long in one job , guess they want the managers to learn as much as they can about the hotel business and not get to specialized or cozy . That has all the managers ansy .........they worry about being canned, losing there little empires, and having new jobs they don't want .



Gets to us hourly rated peons too . With new bosses can come promotions and also demotions of supervisors .Generally the supervisors get scared about losing there power and maybe that ' colossal ' $ 1-3 more a hour they make more then everyone else............ As silly as it sounds though it's still ego and money . Not uncommon to also see co-workers try to put the knife in there supervisors back with the new major to even up grudges , kiss up , and no surprise get promoted themself .Also we all have to face dealing with new bosses and the change they bring to our routines , something that's never ever easy .



Maybe moi should be worryed , no one is above changeing times .Years ago when we had our own little queer mafia with members running or in about every department I thought I was right at the heart of everything and was protected from all the backstabbing but it wasn't really true Infact being apart of the maybe powerful but always talked about and also always in some type of feud with other staff was actually in more danger of crap hitting me . It sure did too, when the ex general manager took over he went at us with a meat cleaver. In only a few days we went from the elite to being the scorned ( actually like the rest of my life ) with everyone taking shots at us and laffing about it .In less then 3 months I was the only one left now since the rest of the posse either got fired or transferred .



Must say I have it pretty good now .the money could always be better and we always need more help in the bar , I'd think about giving face to anyone who get us another bar back ( helper) again .Moi was not made to lug around cases of whisky and buckets of ice. But was able to make up my own schedule and with seniority get first crack at special events with there big tips like wedding receptions and corporate parties .Other what I call 'quality of life 'perks too. Like being able to drink on the job ( the perfect benefit for a alcoholic which my gf disagrees with always telling em to get away from the bar and into AA ) and even though am supposed to be in the penguin suit wear the sexy black cocktail waitress dress and WITHOUT those heel things like the girls have too.



But change is in the air , you can feel it like the rain just before a big storm . Even Rafael the head bartender who is way above office politics is concerned about whats coming up .............. Do think he knows more then he's telling too, Rafael's around days and interacting with our boss the food & Beverage Manager Brendan all the time and also hears stuff from other staff too .If there's anything going on about moi do hope he tells me .



And do wonder if there is talk about me going on too. Maybe am being paranoid but yesterday Brendan my boss and up to his current marital crisis good friend barely said hi to me when we passed each other in the lobby as if I don't mater or was on the way out . Friends have turned on me before and since he's sleeping with my enemy the ass't concierge Barb Stuart do have worry she's doing her best to turn him against me .



But the real shot of fear came when in the employee cafeteria I saw himself the general manager with his new daughter ( adorable , a 13 month old named Amanda Li ) turn away from a couple of managers he was stalking to and just stare at me which has never happened before Really , he just gave me a long deep stare with I think with something going on in his mind . All of a sudden moi wished she'd already changed into her uniform like they want you to do before eating ( but wasn't clocked in though ) and for the rest of the nite was concerned but tryed not thinking about it since it was scary ..............


Am a little nervous today , worry I'll get a call saying I' m fired or worse yet now back on days where you make no money unless there's a convention or have been shifted to manager of the dish room Have seen plenty of things like that happen in the past so can't say I'm overreacting ............



Maybe not look so offbeat tonite when I go in ................these hotel people are soooooooooooooo image conscious .So no old baggy sweater and worn corduroy skirt Maybe look more traditional or corporate ? Ah hah , it just came to me : the periwinkle blouse and navy blue knee length skirt with navy blue kitten heels even maybe hose . At work will be going whole hog in the black cocktail waitress dress with nude stockings and black flats .



I not only post but also take my Xanax every day at this time and am definitely looking forward to doing it now ...............

[Lena]

The crisis out of nowhere at work continues but while it's nerve wracking do think I am handling it better .At least this morning ...................


Lets see........the hotel is full of rumors, even to the point of there planning to fire everyone and bus in a whole new crew complete with armed security's too protect them this week . Who knows? Something like that happened at another hotel the other year . Moi didn't know about that when it happened but if she had wud have happily joined with the people who lost there jobs throwing rocks at the scabs and management .................... Also all the managers are going ( with about half that wud be a good idea ) , from some of the bigger racist paranoids rumors thall the black staff are going to be let go , and that the hotel is actually going to close down and we'll all be stiffed pay wise . I declare the corporation should set up a rumor control hotline to stop this paranoia crap .................although wud they want to since this is sure turning out to be a real in your face lesson that the company makes the rules and we have to go along .


I know it all sounds silly but many at work really are hurting . Arthela in Housekeeping who already has serious medical issues with hypertension got so upset yesterday she started to hyperventilate with chest pains so a ambulance had to come .BTW , in hillbilly ambulance is 'am- beeee - u-lence ' while with most blacks in 'amalance ' . The worried look is on everyone's face and most are quiet sticking to business . The managers remind me of people facing the judge looking at being sent away .Since no surprise this is after all there career that they want to succeed in . None wants trouble that will get them off track to going to the top . Do swear it's worse for all us hourlys who while not caught up in any big career are worked up about having a job . Nobody working hotels is rich and need about every penny they make and definitely don't want trouble at work or to lose there jobs . The benefits are are important , we get medical and dental which you have to have or face going broke and then on welfare if you get sick . For folks with a family thats even more important .


Coming in with the afternoon crew saw how everyone tended to be quiet and serious .Even the younger black guys who work the kitchen and Housekeeping who are usually loud and laffing .Despite the crap food the employee cafeteria can be real lively but it sure wasn't yesterday even though there were about 25 people there . A few contractors who aren't employees were acting normal but all the actual staffers were very very quiet as if somebody just died . I am not joking either. Everybody just sat there eating then when finishing right away left .............. The same with the locker room , all quiet too despite there being 7 women . Cassady was there, she's on egg shells worried about losing her job to the point that she's not even signifying /name dropping like she always is doing . Also wore the black cocktail waitress dress......................maybe for one of the last times ? More ahead on that .


Did learn more when talking to my friend Barb when she walked me and my bank over to the bar . Not good either . Barb said she overheard women from Human Resources talking how since all this crap started hardly anyone has called in in sick or asked for vacation time a sure sign of group panic . Listening to Barbie Capt'n Tom head of security is probably the only manager not scared of losing his job or firings in his department .Unlike so many phonys who claim to be such professionals but don't know there bootys from a hole in the ground in the hotel business Capt'n Tom knows what he's doing ( was a state police for 33 years and fought in the Viet nam war )and you really have to think management can't mess with him since they need security and so bad .Especially today when the heads are going to roll. Making me swear not to tell a single body at work Barb told me there bringing in extra securitys today in case there's any trouble . Didn't tell anyone either , except here at a world wide web site ...............


Once at work decided to not think about the tension & upcoming pirge but instead focus on doing my job .What else could I do , am already a big enough neurotic mess without asking for more trouble . Next week at this I may be bar tending at some loud obnoxious sports bar or some dump full of lonely old men chain smoking but for tonite was just going to do the bet I can .Although did cut down on my drinking having just one instead of the usual 4 drinks I usually treat myself too . No tricks bending over either to get extra tips from men , was too scared the general manager wud walk in and see and I definitely wud get fired . Not much happened , the customers were the same old same old not knowing how all the employees were so worryed .But then again thats the way it should be .I'd rather listen to there troubles since it brings in tips then spill my semi-psychotic angst out to them since it wud drive away business


The only other thing to work was having that vile Barb Stuart get in my face . At first I was pissed off and then some but am now laffing /shrugging my shoulders about it . She's the ass't concierge who trys to act like management bossing everyone around , being a huge phony to the guests , and a backstabber . she's always hated me , maybe since like moi she's from white trash too but in her case won't accept it /deal with it . Listening to her you'd think she was from a family of achiever personality's and was on top of the world and a rising star in the corporation . Although haven't exactly figured out my own identity yet do know I am not and won't pretend to high class and while there's been too much bad from the past growing up poor there's also been some good too that I wudn't want to have missed .And wud rather do my job and get along with everyone then be a big fake trying to come off as management treating others like crap .


After I hear weeks of begging they finally to be a acting MOD they finally caved in and she was the boss last nite . My first thought was she was going to come in the bar and treat me like dirt or write me up for something just to make trouble . Wud be just like her too..............


Well the alien queen was in bar twice and acting the fool both times .the first was to show some people what she called 'my bar ' where she said she demands 'the highest standards of cleanliness and service ' .................. The second time was worse and lucky for us both there were hardly any customers around .Barb waltzed in with a huge self satisfyed smile on her face and a metal clipboard asking me how the shift went , if we needed anything , and then hinted as if she has some special knowledge about the trouble at work . She giggled saying a a lot of heads wud roll and some people wud be looking for new jobs tomorrow then smiling right at me as if to say " Your history tomorrow bitch !!! " . Then Barb wrapped it all up being just so nice to give me advice on how to look for a new job just in case I am fired. She's such a clothes trying to look so classy horse ( although the sleeve tattoo of dragon on her lower right leg takes away from the look ) she mentioned how I dress so sloppy and should go for a new professional look telling me to get a book called DRESS FOR SUCCESS .Then being nice enough to tell me clothes like the old grey sweater and tan corduroy skirt she saw me in yesterday may get me in at STARBUCKS or fast food but not in any carer path job . Again ironical from a woman whose job is mostly telling people where the restaurants & bathrooms are and ordering theater tickers .............


On the way out she was good enough to say hi to cocktail waitress Narla including telling Narla know she was MOD and saying to ask if she needed anything . Narla smiled saying alright then back at the bar shook her head calling Barb a bitch saying she wished bard wud just 'dry up ' which I guessed was Irish for STFU which was definitely the tone in Narla's voice !!!!! . We both laffed at that ..............


Moi is scared but trying to put this in all in perspective.TBH don't know if I will get fired but don't want too.The money may be crap most of the time but can do well with tips and the benefits package is good. Like the control I have too or at least the feeling of control such as being able to set my own hours and knowing how the hotel works or at least used to work .............. But if I do get tossed out it's not the end of my life.Wudn't be anywhere near as bad as almost losing Karin was and as you regulars know have been planning to get ourt of bartending and into real estate anyway for a long time ............. . If I do get fired will take it like a adult, may call someone a asshole but won't do any crying & begging or give a blow job like I've done before to keep my job .


Today today today ............white blouse with large red stripes and a pointed collar , navy blue skirt & blue kitten heels .I honestly do feel like dressing up and wud want to look good at my own execution if thats what today will be at work . At work again maybe for one of the last times the black cocktail waitress dress, nude garter stockings , and black flats ................


Que Sera Sera ................

[Lena]

Maybe a new post later today , if not a big one tomorrow.Too tired to write now , exhausted from all the pressure at work and in the you -can-always-count on- me -to- do - something too make it worse department I was so upset after getting home done ate and drank myself sick ...................


This morning feel sweaty and tired and of course nervous as a cat ............. Lucky for me was able to clean the bathroom before Karin got home or it would be worse.She won't tolerate a dirty bathroom.................


In a nutshell there was a huge pirge yesterday ...............heads rolled in almost every department . The cops were by a few times taking away folks who got violent learning they were fired . The whole hotel was full of tension and fear . Plenty of extra security , Capt'n Tom the security manager even stayed over last nite .More telling while he's real laid back yesterday he was downright tense.


Coming in moi got called into the Personal Managers office , I despise that guy ever since the time he bungled enrollment in the dental plan & since he's such a huge pseudo sophisticate /know it all type . He asked me all these open questions i n a wud be profound way if I am happy at the hotel and like the company . For a minute my boss and the general manger both looking very serious joined us .Really expected the next sentence out of some one's mouth wud be 'your fired ' or we're transferring you to a subsidiary property ..............


But before it could happen they all had to run since someone else was raising hell about being let go ..................


Worked as MOD last nite all thru the shift seeing the general manager & the pisshead Personal director staring at me , even heard they asked for feeback about me from staff & guests alike .............. My friend and patron the Guest services manager April sent me a text saying to be very careful at work ........................couldn't get back to her to find out why /what she meant so have to figure am on thin ice .


As a alcoholic under stress all nite long I wanted to drink but had to sufffer thru , thats why I killed 1.5 botles of wine when I got home ...............


Today in a white jean jacket , old fading green T shirt and falling apart jeans . At work ( if I still am employed............ ) the black cocktail waitress , nude seamed stockings ,and black flats . No undies, my way of fighting back against the anxiety