Okay, I've been with my boyfriend for 13 months. for the last 3 weeks we have been arguing and fighting about things. one thing in particular. Trust. At the beginning of our relationship his best friend and him always went to another town for some reason. his best friend would come back and tell me he was cheating on me ALL the time. well i never knew what to do but I never once broke up with him. I just couldn't handle doing that. So i'm not really able to trust him to the fullest. eventually my boyfriend stopped hanging around that town, those people, and his best friend. he know hates him. my boyfriend ending up leaving for 2 1/2 months for AIT training for the Army. When he came back EVERYTHING was awesome. and now we've been fighting constitnly and EVERYNIGHT i'm crying. Last night was probably the worse.
At the beginning of the new year we agreed we'd start over. meaning i'd trust him to the fullest, etc. well last night i asked him if he was going to start going out everynight like he used to. the he started a big arguement about that. and it all came back to me not trusting him. i immediately started crying. after i explained to him me starting over meant i trust him to the fullest. he threatened that if we have another arguement he's calling it quits. for the last week everynight he's threatended me with that. he said if we have an arguement and i start it and he feels like crap he'll break up with me. he's always telling me to let my feelings out.
I now feel that i HAVE to keep my feelings in cuz whenever i tell them he creates an arguement out of it. if i show my feelings he blame the arguement on me. I mean I dont know what to do. It feels like he doesn't care about this relationship anymore. or love me like he did. I dont know what to do. I've been in this depression for the past 3 weeks. and i wont eat anything. i just lie to everyone about me eating.
What should I do?