hey ladies...
stright to the point . i had my daughter at 19...then fell pregnant again about 3 yrs later but i had a miscarriage, at about 3- 4 months i was in some pain all down my left hand side and i took my self to hospital, and went to the early preganacy department where they scaned me with in minutes and found out that the baby died inside me... i had to go for a d/c
i was a mess... i know at this stage its still only a tiny little thing but to me it was a fully grown baby, i cried all the time, couldnt look at babies, then about 3 months later i was pregant again, and i lost it again, at about 8 weeks i just bleeded for ages...i was given all these leaflets about mis-carrige and grieft, etc....i just went abit dispreased for a while i think...then about 5 months later i think i was pregnant again, i decided i was not going to even attach my self to this baby..as it was not staying....
but i was getting bigger and bigger and i went full term and over...by 2 weeks then i went into labour and had a 10lb baby boy....ouch it did hurt as i am only 5ft 2 in but he was a healthy baby ......
i do always wounder what sex were the babies i lost what would of been....but i believe everything happends for a reason, have no idea what they were but thats what i think.
now my son is 7yrs old...
i think i want another one as i am 31 now not getting any younger ......my daughter is 11 ....... but there is always the worry what if......
