Thank You Marilyn King !

[Lena]

Sorry about being late, been tres busy .Maybe a new post tonight from work if not tomorrow.

Today is a day of cops and weddings .Am in a rush , have my friend Barb's wedding. She's from a huge family of cops and is going to be hired sometimes this year as one . The church will be the safest place in town considering how many polices will be there. Somebody whose arrested me or one of my people will have to be there................anyone whose cracked and beaten cousin Gaylord gets a blow job

For Barb's wedding went thru several outfits , picking the right one was trouble because of the weather...........it's too warm for the clothes from THE MARILYN KING COLLECTION but to cool for summer things. Whats a girl to do ? But decided on my gf's lite wool gray skit suit and matching heels . Along with my gold chain .

At work the black cocktail waitress dress and black flats .Do a big wedding tonite which I hope goes better then the one last week, will explain .

After work at the party probably a jean jacket and jeans with a gray t shirt . It's for my best friend's ex whose off to Iraq for a year to be a security . He's a ex police and all his cop buddys will be there so want to be more andro since it'll keep all those horny cops ( most of who are also married ) away from me...........

[Lena]

Good morning , hope everyone is OK .Moi is awake and ready to stumble thru another day in my time here on our planet . A little hung over and tired from too much partying last nite . But then again thats just the price for having fun .............

Yesterday was pretty hectic and didn't officially end till I got home at 4 AM .No I didn't have sex with anyone .First Barbs wedding then work then the good -bye party for my best friends ex as he heads off to Iraq. I'd planned to stay maybe half hour just to please Leslie ( she's always been there for me ) but wound up partying down with some of the police there.

Like I posted yesterday the day began with a big crisis of finding something to wear , have nice clothes for the summer and winter but were in between these days so at first was really desperate . Did give some thought to going in character.............like as the in your face hussy in this outfit I wear to wild times .It's faux silk white blouse and pinkish red suade mini sans undies with these tacky looking red heels I found at a thrift shop or as country girl in a T shirt and my old jean bib overalls......... Maybe bringing along a banjo . As a genuine hillbilly I could say I was wearing a native costume . But at nearly 30 you can't get away with that ( at 19 to show off the new tattoo on my left shoulder wore a sleeveless leather dress to a wedding ) so decided to hit my gf's wardrobe . Lucky for me she cares more about appearance and spends alot more on clothes then moi . Also have to say that like before have found having the access to her clothes is a great side benefit of being in a same sex relationship with someone about your own size............ Eventually settling on her conservative lite gray skirt suit and gray heels .Must say I looked more like a stockbroker then a bartender .......

The wedding was real nice . Moi sat with the gang from work , Capt'n Tom whose head of security and his wife ( real perky Mary Tyler Moore in the old show that was on Nickelodeon ) , Bob & his fiancee Julia ( who even if she doesn't know it is one of my heros, written off as a nerd and mousey type she's s now something like a federal prosecutor who is very dilagent & dedicated so if she can do that I can go from being a bimbo/psycho/ yahoo to normal person ), and Derrick one of my pretend dads and his new lady , a hispanic woman about 50 whose a retired army employee who seemed formal ala Julia but nice. Hope she's good enough for him .Only in America, there we were a couple of different generations and races and even personality types but all getting along real good ! They had these gorgeous gladiolas at the end of every pew in the church and the alter was filled with gladiolas too. No surprise since thats Barb's favorite flower. Barb looked gorgeous and very very happy .

The recepetion line in the church lobby had a party atmosphere. Barb & her new hubby Steve were being great to everyone . Steve whose a real blue collar guy looked a little uncomfortable in the gray Tux with tails .Ofcourse so did Barbs dad whose police buddys were mocking him in that rough penis person kind of way Barb's mom was who none of us had ever met was real friendly to all of us , said she's heard about each and everyone of us . Good lord was I scared what she's heard about moi ............. I also liked Barb's baby sister Doreen whose going to Eastern Kentucky University to be what else but a police too. I guess she'd applyed to the state police where Capt'n Tom was for 30 years .Am sure he'll help get her in .No surprise but one of the ushers hit on me , a nice guy who works with Steve for the city sanitation . It was fun talking to him , name was Rodrigo and not a Mexican a fellow 'billy but you have to be careful . Didn't want to give him the wrong ideas as far as moi's availabilety went and as much as I love teasing a church lobby surrounded by people whose opinion about you matters wudn't have been right or too smart ...........

Once in my car was very relieved to get the too small heel things off then went to work .The barefoot 2 block walk from my car to the hotel ruined my nylon and had security Christophe seeing me come in a suit sans shoes laffing .I told him it was the new look for spring . Cassady was shocked and was nice enough to tell me in a almost disgusted way how she could never come into work barefoot and how unsanitary it was . I just smiled and joked to myself I could never be like her and get into sport f*cking a guy 6 years younger who she claimed was hawt stud but who in reality looked like the MICHLIN MAN and seemed to spit when he talked Changed into another pair and wore the black cocktail waitress dress . First worked the empty Concierge Lounge than the usual wedding reception .

Last nite's wedding was small and completely unlike Barb's wedding and the one I worked last saturday . Unlike Barbs fun weding this was very formal and quiet .Only about 60 people and hardly any children either .The bridal couple were around 40 so smaller and quieter weddings are pretty much the rule though .

Last weeks wedding which didn't post about here was a zoo,too many people and way way too loud . Also the bridal couple were idiots , were young and immature, bet they'll have filed for divorce by fall . The bride was 18 and a real wise acre who though she was oh so clever while the groom was 22 and seemed like my gf's pathologiaclly immature brother in law with a big mouth . Also 2 fights which hardly ever happen where I work . In one the brides brother & his gf were wrestling with 2 ushers over nonsense with the girl stabbing or trying to stab one of the ushers with a butter knife. What fools , if your going to do it right use sharp knife ! Luckily the blade didn't stick .Then of all things the brides dad who from the start struck moi as a warhead and the grooms uncle got in a fight . Was happy to see the fight broken up while the grooms' uncle was winning .Security was real busy braking all then up .........I cut off service to the younger people but couldn't to the brides dad since he was paying . And the person who wud give me a tip at the end , am sorry but couldn't risk offending anyone who will give me money ............

After I clocked out changed into my jean jacket & jeans headig over to the good bye party for Bill whose off to Iraq . Les wanted me there since she figured it wud be mostly Bills cop buddys with her one of the few women . Was at bar thats a big police hang out ,, over the bar there was a huge baner that read GO GET THE RAGHEADS COUNTRY BULL ! ( real sophisticated huh ? ) with COUNTRY BULL is what super macho (but near 60) Bill wants to be called . My female presence wasn't allt hat needed after all , of about 30 -35 people at the party maybe 20 were penis people with the rest women .But there were also other woman from the bar crowd who happily joined into meet guys . Cop -type women too with nice hair and make-up who laffed and at all there dumb and sexist jokes and pretended to care about the cop's war storys . Moi and Les pecked as we always do which had a few of the guys laffing and hot ............. But we didn't put on any show since#1 moi is not in the mood after the thing with Monica that almost ruined everything # 2.Les says has to be a good girl since she's staying at Bills and he worrys about her turning the place into a sex zone while he's away . As much as I love Les and hate to say this he's right too.............. It should be a interesting job .

Must say as much as I have hated him in the past ( he really nuked Les in the divorce and custody battle , so bad at one point she was talking murder/suicide)) Bill was nice last nite and even though he should know what he's doing I still do worry about him going over to a war . While he's goen Les has what was once there huge very male but still nice old farm to herself and there 6 year old son Grady . She'll be going to school too. A pretty good deal since she'll be living with her son for the first time in years and can get out of the life. The big surprise was seeing Bill and I may have made peace.He may have been just your typical man being nice to get something from you ( like your body or money ) but in the kitchen he came up & in formal kind of way said he hopes we're friends now and to please keep a eye out for baby Grady and Leslie .Adding 'They'll need you more then you know " Then nodded as if he respected me and then shifted moods going back to clowning with the other polices.................

Moi talked to a few people before finding herself at a table with 3 cops all around 30 and this all fancied up woman gym teacher named Donna who sent my gaydar screaming .But moi was wrong , despite a deep voice and being a gym teacher Donna was quite the man loving flirt . The guys all hung on her every word as she flirted away and was able to talk guy stuff about cars and sports . At one point feeling so left out and jealous gave some thought to blurting out how I'd worn a garter belt and stockings to work earlier that nite . But it never got to that point since we all love drinking and were soon happily downing shooter after shooter...................

Moi got home just before 4AM and was able to get some sleep . At least enough to get me thru the day . Am off to the country club . Today in white polo shirt , tan cargo short shorts , nude pantyhose ( no clean undies ) & brown flats . At the country club there uniform of a white blouse & Kelly green jumper

[Lena]

Should be a 'interesting 'day ..................more ahead .

Today's Memorial day here, a big but more low key holiday .Nowhere near as loud and overdone as 4th of July .It's to honor dead soldiers and also lost family/friends.But still it's also a fun day .Kind of weird when you think about it ,a special day to honor the dead but people have turned it into a day to enjoy themselves .Familys/friends get together for bar b que's and dinners. Also it's the unofficial start of summertime . Also the start of summer, the schools ends in a few weeks and vacation season starts .The big car race up the freeway only 90 minutes away the Indianapolis 500 is also today.Most people have today off to and if your a salaried worker the law says you get time and a half . It's my regular day off but when I have worked Memorial day at the hotel you do next to nothing since there no guests .

The whole week-end has been low key . At the country club brunch yesterday they only had about half the usual crowd . Moi noticed that most of the members were even more relaxed and in a good mood then usual .When I got home although tired from having been out most of saturday nite went for a walk since I didn't want to be all alone waiting for Karin to get back from her folks and to soak up the atmosphere of the holiday in the new 'hood . Like a little kid I went barefoot ruining the pantyhose in the process ( like I did the day before with my stockings going barefoot from my car to the hotel ) ) but it didn't matter since being out walking around was just so much fun . .....,...................the simple times really are often the best times .

Really was nice , saw the new 'hood in a whole new lite. We're mixed area with some old houses now condo buildings and other still family homes . All with huge lawns and old trees towering above. Event hough I was tired the more I walked the more fun it got just from breathing in fresh air and seeing so many not all that spectacular but still interesting things . Passed by some joggers and yuppys on mountain bikes, a few small childrens on scooters, and this one cute elderly couple all dressed up ( the man had a old fashioned Panama hat on ) out for there nitely walk , and a few dog walkers . Whenever you passed by someone no matter who they always said hi which was real nice. Saw some kids swinging from a rope tied to a big old tree in the back yard which seemed so strange in the day of WII's and Gameboys .Actually believe they were having more fun doing that then playing with those electronic toys .

Saw more then a few people working on there lawns , this one 40 something couple were planting mulberry bushes under there front bay window, a tall thin as a bread stick old man was on his knees weeding with a huge pile of weeds and dandelions next to him , and this one 40-50 something woman was out with a 20 something blond woman and maybe 10 year old Asian girl putting in these solar powered footlites along the length of the front sidewalk .They were all very excited and having the time of there lives it seemed . Being so cynical I could joke about how dorky they were having so much fun just shoving lites into the ground but won't .Since they all seemed so happy and bonded doing that ..........

Many delicious smells in the air. My nose picked up meat being bar b qued . Also fish being grilled which smelled even more tastey . Then too firewood which is always nice and last nite was very reassuring ad sensual . Couldn't figure if it was from a outdoor grill or fireplace but it sure added atmosphere . Maybe it was a coincidence but about 75% of cars on the street were silver and I bet half of all were also SUV's .

Our building was dead since no one was around . Coming in came across Steve from upstairs and his 2 boys . One of the kids whose 8 blurted out how " That lady isn't wearing shoes !! " with Steve ever the comedian in his own oafish jocko macho way saying " Thats a good point Justin since you can take the hillbilly out of the hills but you can't take the hillbilly out of the hillbilly " then laffing away like that was the funniest thing ever . Moi pretended to slug him and he laffed . They were meeting his gf and I think sooner or later second wife Doleres whose also a railroad police As they walked to his colossal HUMMER ( it just figures he'd have a car like that ) Justin then asked " Whats a hillbilly daddy " with his other boy 6 year old Mark going " Yeah daddy whats a hillbily ?" I was inside though before I could hear his awnser but am glad I missed it...............

Today will be a little hectic .Work for 4 hours today bartending at the country club for a private party . Then meet Karin to go to a open house at some dykes we know .The whole gang ............Celeste , Carla & Judy , and Cindy & Lonnie will be popping in too. Heading out the door in a weathered periwinkle T shirt & jean short shorts .At the country club there uniform of a white blouse & Kelly green jumper and nude garter stockings and brown flats .You can call me a slut but no undies today either, not that I'm trying to feel sexxy or giggle at the idea of me being commando but since am too lazy too do laundry to have clean pair............

[Lena]

Tuesday already , the whole week-end went like the blink of an eye . Ofcourse moi was very busy and when you get that way time has a habit of flying .In addition to 2 partys I worked every day and also lucky me gets to work again today too............ At this rate I'll hit 35 and not even know it And heavens forbid still be bartending .

Cooler and raining here. I love it . Had a great nites sleep last nite after some fun sex . Really is the spice of life . No big plans today except for going out for lunch ,seeing my analyst and working again at the country club . Am doing wash ( or in hillbilly the 'worsh ' ) now , finnally will have clean undies . You really do feel more adult wearing them ......................

Ofcourse didn't wear them yesterday and love the fact that last nite at Bridget's house then when she started getting frisky Karin was able to unzip my jean short shorts and finger me . We snuck off to the closet ia upstairs bedroom and had fun . the only thing bad was the smell of moth balls , got my coughing going .There has to be someone here at FF who has a moth ball fetish ............... OH well , you have to take the good with the bad in life. Including having sex in a closet at somebody elses house with 25 or so dykes running around . I came and also don't have to worry about moths for months ......................

The day began with work at the country club . Waitressed at a private Memorial day party . In the locker room seeing me put on the dress with no undies Meghan shook her head laffing saying how I was crazy .I said yes that is indeed true but was only commando since I had no clean undies .She understood then got panicy about doing her wash later or facing the same situation . The party was organized and paid for by the rich 40 soemthings I've worked for before , Betsy and Tom but they didn't show though . There almost totally abandoned 6 year old girl from China was there though with one of the several babysitters who they've outsourced parenting too. I can relate to having parents who weren't around and didn't care about you . The poor baby really shows the hurt . Nice gig though , everyone was nice and no problems developed .

Later hit 2 partys where we came across some of our inner circle . For a minute were at Rhoda's but nothing was happening . Also too much smoking which now can get to me and my radical anti-smoker gf hates being a around. Even the food on the buffet table smelled like tobacco smoke ............ So we booked bringing along a woman named Cathy whose a jeweler heading to Bridget's onetime old farm house inthe country now old farm house surrounded by urban sprawl .I never wil understand why so much of downtown is empty but they keep building more and more in the country around town .

Cathy was nice , jewelry sounds as much of a art as a business .This is a big season for them with weddings but she said because of the recesssion things are slow like most businesses . Thank you george bush . Bridget had a good crowd , all female .Already there were our friends Carla and Judy . Was great seeing them , after hugs moi found the bar . Karin and Carla were talking about something at the hospital they work at while Judy was caught up in some big memory lane conversation with 2 other women I didn't know about going to the same college in Paris France for a year .No surprise I didn't know them , coming up in the slums and working in bars you really don't have much of a opporunity to get to be friends with anyone going to college ,especially in Paris France .

Moi mingled ................Nice informal atmosphere and not as much smoking as at Rhoda's . Bridget had a table full of snack food like mini hot dogs and wheat crackers with humus on them . Her 2 maybe 3 dogs ran in and out . A big shiney keg of lite beer ( what else in tody's weight centric world ? ) too in the kitchen . Bridget is one of those people with a ton of energy and was running all over the place. TT Shirley and Madge who we've known for years . No college in Paris France for them , Shirley works in retail while Madge is a dental hygenist . Nice couple , big bicycleists . There going to Iowa soon to be in a cross state bike ride . Will camp out along the way with thousands of other riders . Just hearing them all excited talk about spending 5 days on a bike had my booty aching . Remember when I wrote about those special sales of no doupt stolen merchandise we went to ? As I wandered around the room heard one woman talking about how when driving by this crappy old mall she saw a bunch of state police cars come screaming with there sirens on up to a truck trailer that mostly black people were buying clothes from and taking away some white guys in handcuffs..................didn't stop to ask about the specifics . If it's cops and going to teh calibouse I don't want to be involved. Was just happy to have missed being caught up in a raid From now on when we go to those plan to use a street name not my real name so I won't have to worry about geting involved. Also came across Celeste who was there with her new squeeze Morgan whose also a lipstick .They were on there way out , made plans to get togetehr soon . How is Morgan handling Celeste's sport f*cking guys to get pregnant ? Hmm...............a real mystery and ofcourse juicey gossip we'll soon learn more about .

For awhile was out on the front porch with a few other women , talking , smoking pot ,and looking out on the rain coming down and what used to be a corn field but now is a mini mall and gas station It all had the making of a good country & western song about how the citys taking over everywhere . I really liked being out there and not just since I was getting high and it was good stuff too , actually felt so good since being on the front porch of a old farmhouse had this hillbilly feeling right to home .

After sunset went back inside and my gf was a little drunk and very frisky so without even talking about it we made our way usptars to a closet to have fun . We weren't the only ones , heard a couple having fun behind shut door when we got upstairs .

Today in yellow polo shirt and lime green poplin mini and brown flats & UNDIES . At work the country club uniform .

[Lena]

another day ...................!!

Happy to report that in the last 24 hours this blog has had about 200 some hits while the one in FF's regular blog area had over 500 hits . Nice to know moi is so popular and am now thinking of asking , hell outright in-your-face demanding they change the name of the site to FEMALEFIRST & LENA :

After finishing yesterdays post where I mentioned to how much fun it was sitting out on the porch of the old farmhouse gave some thought to that experience . Really was nice, even though I am a city person now it felt real good to be out there looking at the rain and even the shopping mall across the road . although wud have preferred to have been looking out at a creek or trees It all goes back to coming from the country . If I ever get rich wud love to have a house or in a perfect world log cabin with a screened in porch all around ( to keep out the 'skeeeters ) in the country , best of all on a river or lake . Wud be so peaceful and I a sure rejuvanating to the mind & soul . Oh well , maybe someday ....................

Yesterday went allright .A mix of healthy eating tinged with sarcasm , seeing my analyst , work , then for the jillionth time in my life saving Leslie from herself . We went out to lunch at this new salad bar place , amazing how many fat people we saw thee. Hope there starting healthy low cal diets to take off the pounds but then again wonder how many were pretending to be eating right but that nite had huge portions of red meat with mashed potatos smothered in butter or gravy ? Karin always loads up on the tomatos , guess it's part of her Italian heritage . I loved the cucumbers .

After that saw my analyst and it was meaty .It seems she thinks we've come to a new stage in treatment , namely for me to concentrate on how to live the rest of my life . A issue that I've been giving thought too alot . The big roadblock to that and source of all my problems was the fatalism I was raised with , starting with the horrible example of my totally selfish man & party obsessed mother and my motherfuucking puke so-called father who loved telling me in one way way or another how I was a piece of crap to begin with and doomed to always fail . But now see they were the problem and am very angry about there idiocy especially the way that cocksucker father of mine who ruined his own life told me I was the one who is no good and bound to fail .

The analyst tells me its time to move on and she's right . But I told her how seeing all that with my folks and the anger it brings out is liberating . I feel so free and like there is a future. She's right to about working on a way to go ahead . We have to take the my " Fuuck you pricks for hurting me " to something like ' I survived the destructiveness of 2 scumbag parents so what can I do now to go on and lead a good life " . I've seen other people come out of bad times with a commitment to get ahead and accomplish something and think thats how I have to act . Maybe time to call up my hero Mrs. Simms and talk to her , she's a living example of a person who had it rough who just from her own strength inside ended up kicking as in life............

Hope I don't turn into a intense personality type ................ But then again I like drinking and fun to much to ever be a real type A personality ...........

Worked at the country club with May Wah , went fine . In the locker room seeing me in undies had her laffing . She said there's a rumor going around I had given them up since I went commando there the other day . We both laffed at that . Heard more about the private party I worked monday , this one couple Betsy and Tom had paid for it and for a minute Tom was there. But the real hosts were Betsy's sister who was youngish around 45 but wrinkled up like a prune and who looked as intense as you can be without bursting into flames . Seems poor Betsy had a breakdown Saturday morning , they say she's bipolar which from my sister Lori I know that can be horrible . Wish her the best . May Wah and I work pretty good together , like me she comes in with the attitude your there to work and it's that simple . But have to hand it to her since she does her job with so much ease and confidence . Then again she's Saturday's child while moi is just another person who has to always try hard .Oh well will try to keep on keeping on .......... . Thats alot easier to do now having come to the conclusion I am not doomed like that puke father of mine said

I also got a shot of self esteem later on the way home when I got a call from Leslie , or really Leslie's phone . Felt good to be WONDERWOMAN saving the day . A bartender was at the other end told me Les was there and was too drunk to drive home so she wanted me to pick her up . So headed over, was a local place on the lower end side. Walking in saw how there were no other women there and Les was surrounded by 4 guys in there e 20's who were all laffing at anything she said and also at her since she was so drunk . Penis people being penis people also figured the boys had a gang bang on there minds too. Les was surprised to see me , too much alcohol has always affected her short term memory and tryed making out with but i just pecked her and helped her of the stool . The guys didn't like that , they wanted a show ...............penis people will be penis people But after thanking the bartender ( gave him $10 then later payed myself back from Les's purse) and telling the pack of horn dogs maybe we'll be back someday .As I helped Les out to the car one yelled out to be sure to come back since he had something in his pants we'd both love..............added new meaning to the saying " Boys will be boys " to me . . She was babbling on and on . Couldn't explain how she got there .Then after 10 minutes Leslie passed out .I wrestled her up 2 flights to her apartment which was now all boxes since she's moving over to the ex's this week and got her on the couch under blanket .Left a note saying where her car was then booked . All you horn dogs here will be interested to know that Les had on a red gstrings and is completely shaven .................

Back to the hotel tonite . All black today ...........a black mock turtleneck thats short sleeved and off black denim mini along with the black cocktail waitress dress with nude garter stockings at work tonite .

[Lena]

200 hits here in 24 hours ............... Also am now using spell check which I hope is making reading easier for everyone .Still think FF should be paying moi ...............

No big adventures to talk about today . Life is the same old same  old .As boring as that sounds is still better then being dead or in the middle of a crisis. Or for that matter in a iron lung during a power failure..............

Got 2 interesting phone calls yesterday .One from my friend Leslie who I rescued the other nite from the herself and a pack of horn dogs ready to gang bang her . She was real grateful but wanted to know why I was at that bar thinking I'd just happened by . I laffed, told her how the bartender had called me saying she was to drunk to drive home . Les was real relieved then  to know how I got there . I wondered why she was there since a neighborhood bar full of white working guys is not where you expect to find Les. She goes for those phony wud-be sophisticated places where everyone trys to act cool , this black jazz bar off Roy Wilkins and when she wants to revert to her true redneck roots this great dive on the south side that has cheap drinks an a great juke box........... Turns out she went there with a couple from work but they left and since she was having so much fun drinking Les decided to stay . I can relate    .

Now Les is all ready to move over to Bills for the next year while he's gone to Iraq.. He has actual movers ( I think college guys with a van )  coming over tomorrow . She's nervous but excited about it all .But absolutely LOVING the idea of living with her son again for the first time in years . Also laffed how she's doing alot of sex since Bill says no fooling around while she's taking care of his house and there kid . Only Les.................last saturday she did  sex for pay thing with this out of town businessman when working for the  escort agency and on tuesday slept with a another dancer from her bar .  She hinted she's going out hunting for a one nite stand tonite . She's gorgeous ( looks like a young Jennifer Connolly ) and fantastic in bed ( yes I've slept with her ) so some penis person or maybe yuppette will be very very lucky ................... I wonder if anybody reading this is thinking how to get to Louisville to be the chosen one ?

The other call was from cousin Darcy with news galore. She and her bf broke up which she says hurt but suddenly out of nowhere new and from what she said better sounding penis person appeared . I wish her luck . her sister Francie whose been about everything to me at various times in life is also doing great on her diet ,went to JENNY CRAIG and has lost 50 pound .Good for her , 5 kids in 6 years really put the pounds on . So did eating alot of candy for relief when stuck home with most of them . Not to mention taking care of her man . I'm really happy for her !

The funny news was our first cousin Gaylord is back inside, and not the county jailhouse but state prison . That's no surprise since the state pen's ben Gaylord's home away from home for several decades now but since he's always tryed hurting us always fun to laff about . No empathy here, whenever I learn about Gaylord being locked up or beaten up whether by the police, one of his women , or other lowlifes I LAFF !!! Goes back to when he tryed to r**** me at 14 and lying to anyone who listens how he had a 3some with me and Francie when we were 15.Must admit that day we played him along for his coke but when he went to his car to get some whisky we took the blow and ran . I posted about it here I am sure, at 39 or so Gaylord was dating this 15 year old sex kitten, at least a 15 year old tart who thought she was a sex kitten .Darcy told em Gaylord wud lie to her saying he knows all these big people in the porn industry and he 'd get her jobs starring in X rated movies . The poor stupid hick fell for it all, and also got pregnant by Gaylord. But it all blew up in his face when Gaylord true to form cheated on the girl with her 18 year old sister ( guess he likes older women ) getting her preggers too. The 15 year old was so upset she went to the cops so now Gaylords doing a few years for statutory r**** .Only in my family could somebody be the father and uncle of there own kid. Things like that have happened before ....................I really am from white trash Good luck to Gaylord in the prison world full of punks, psychos, wolves , perverts , and other sociopaths like himself !!!! Will have to check in with cousin Darcy to hear any news about his equally disgusting son Gaylord the 3rd ( there is no Gaylord the 2nd he called him the 3rd to sound like old southern money ) since I wud love hearing about any kind of bad stuff happening to that slime too.................

Some good news in the political world . California is going to allow same sex marriage and new York says they'll recognize other states same sex marriage . it's only fair nd so simple can't see how so many think marriage should only be between hetrosexuals . But then again homophobia runs pretty deep here. Oh well it's good start ! Also see a book out by little georgey's ex press secretary Scott McClellan talking about what a dope and self deluding fool W is .................like thats a surprise ! But what they say is important it's from a one time important aide .He also mentions how bush was mislead by other staff about important things . I am no genius and only started paying attention to the world in 2005 but even I could see all this . Pray for us with you know who as boss..................

Am off to run then do errands . Work later too. In a yellow tank top and tan cami army pants . At work tonite the black cocktail waitress dress, nude garter stockings ,and black flats .

[Lena]

Friday and the week-ends's back for many . But not for moi , I work straight thru . While working week-ends can be fun am now burning out from too much work , this is my 10th straight day of working . Don't have actual day off till monday .

Some sort of interesting work news .It turns out I met one of the BEATLES last week and didn't even know it . In fact I only heard about it last nite , one of the managers told me . Every year there's a huge EATLES festival here on the riverfront that gets BEATLES lovers and imitators from all over the planet . This year they has a UK band with the original drummer named Pete . As I recall he was one of a bunch of UK guys when I worked the Concierge Lounge . At first I thought how cool , then as way too often thought how I was so stupid having crossed paths with part of a musical legend and not knowing I'll be sure to spot him the next time he's here...............I hope !

Also had some French army guys here visiting the base . We get soldiers and even cops from all over the world visiting there. the French were nice guys , had that typical soldier look but also that incredibly romantic French accent . Don't know if she's around town anymore but should have called Tracy Berry who always turned into quite the little lust monster whenever she heard French .I think it took maybe 10 minutes between the time she met this French guy who was a chef here and them leaving for le pleasure du sexuale ( I hope that's the way they say it in French ) and for awhile was sport f*cking this Cajun truck driver from down in Louisiana whenever he was in town Was funny seeing the French soldiers follow the lead of the American soldiers hosting them around , many French customers order wine but being all macho our soldiers ordered beer with the French happily following there lead . I guess like me in the end the important thing is that it's alcohol . All had done time in Afghanistan and while they talked about Kabul the capital city didn't mention the fighting . That's pretty typical , no one likes talking about death and terror . Told them how sometimes we get this French channel for free on satellite tv and I am a huge fan of this French singer named OLIVIA RUIZ , they knew about her and were actually impressed someone in America ( I think also let alone a lowly bartender ) knew about them . Well I have always been full of surprises ......... Forget to mention the French pygmy group LES SURFS that we saw a show about . Then again they were from before all of us were even born so the guys likely didn't know about them . Even though I looked pretty nice in the black cocktail waitress dress they were all swooning over cocktail waitress Narla , maybe since she speaks some French and has worked on the Riviara .Or maybe more likely since since she has huge 36 double d's and I don't ...........


The work lawsuit Karin is involved in keeps going on like migraine .Really is nasty and a huge stresser on her life. The ambulance chasing prick whose representing the family of the person that died keeps calling and calling trying to pump information out of Karin , at first is nice but then gets very pushy . You know that motherf*cking hore has to be looking for something to use against her . The hospital lawyer says to ignore him . Now there may be something called a deposition where everyone is under oath . Lucky us Karin is handling better though and no longer thinks the lawsuit is the end of everything which is good to see . Hope it also helps get rid of the bigger problem she got from her ultra perfectionist mother that everything has to always be perfect or it's the end of life.............

But not everything Karin brings from her people is bad leading me to the next point . Her dad was big into outdoors sports like camping and boats.Maybe since his cleanliness addict wife wasn't about to go out with him and be around dirt so he could have time to chill. Karin grew up always on some kind of a boat whether it was a sail boat , canoe , or kayak .Even has her own kayak . That always looked like fun so yesterday tightwad moi broke down went out and bought a used one for just $150 .The guy I bought it from also threw in the paddle and life vest too. Am going to store it with Karin's at her brothers , he has a huge crawl space under his back deck and it's the official family yacht club .Have to get a license but may head out on the river this coming monday . Anchors away

Have a few errands to do before work .Heading out in my white Lacoste polo shirt dress ( from a yard sale ) with the little 'gator on the front . Also Dr.Scholls . At work tonite probably the penguin suit , nude knee highs and orthies .

[Lena]

Am still tired even after sleeping , am definitely working too much .Only one real work day left before my long awaited day off. Work tomorrow at the country club for 4 hours which is easy since I mainly pour champagne and smile alot .

Got a text from cousin Darcy with more funny news about our scum cousin Gaylord whose now at county waiting to be sent to the state prison . Seems some nasty old boys came by looking for him all mad , they hadn't heard about the statutory r**** bit so I guess they other lowlifes Gaylord had cheated and wanted something like money or his ass or both ! Darcy said they were real pushy and wudn't quit nagging her about where Gaylord was but backed off real fast when she said if they didn't believe her about Gaylord not being in the calaboose to just go down there and ask . Am sure they all had warrants out on them and plenty of bad memorys about being locked up in the jailhouse so that was like waving kryptonite in front of SUPERMAN . Right after they all jumped in there huge pink and white Cadillac and sped off........... That Gaylord sure has a winning way with folks ..................


Also mailed bills and went for coffee before work yesterday . The crowd at the coffee boutique changes from the time of day , early afternoons it's mostly white collar people on there lap tops and cell phones along with moms and babys . Funny to watch the interplay , at times the business people trying to work can get angry at the babys making noise.The kids can annoy moi too and TBH while knowing I am not ready to be a mom yet looking on the moms & kids have felt bad I am not mother. .  Then again the business people can get rude talking away on there phones and at times giving you dirty looks if you talk since it's a distraction ..........   But in the end it's a public place and we all have to get along .

The bar was slow last nite , hardly any business. Not too many guests and no special events were going on so no people to  come in . The singles crowd which can be good isn't showing up much on fridays anymore. Didn't make any real money and also no Mr.Dyson whose my favorite customer . For awhile had cocktail waitress Maura from Sligo Ireland but since we were so slow they took her away to work the family restaurant that was short staffed .Amazing how many of the always young servers who work there get sick on week-end nites.............. .

Derick from security came in , I quizzed him about the hispanic lady he brought to barbs wedding but he only smiled saying next to nothing . Thats maturity for you , when you can keep quiet . He said they had a good time , is going to see his daughter in Atlanta over 4th of july . Barb and her new hubby are in Mexico for the honeymoon . You can can get some good deals for air/land packages now since because of the recession vacation travel is down and also since it's so hot down there this time of year .Barb always loved the heat though .......... Hope she hasn't been sun-burned to death or bit by a poisonous snake or eaten by a shark .Actually moi is just jealous and cranky , wud love to go anywhere and chill/look around .

A interesting day here .................hot and raining. The perfect kind of weather to put my rain poncho ( a glorified garbage bag ) on and go for a walk barefoot having the time of my life going thru puddles and the mud . Loved doing that as a kid, guess I'll be getting in touch with my inner child like this one shrink who was on tv when I was in high school wud say to do to find mental health ........ Work the usual wedding reception tonite .....................to the bridal couple it's one of the biggest days in there life but to me it's just another saturday nite smiling and making drinks .I am so cynical at times but when you do over 40 wedding receptions year you lose enthusiasm fast for them .

Going out in a pink T shirt and white gym shorts and the red rain poncho . At work will go from a mud crawler to sophisticated womyn of the world in a the black cocktail waitress dress and seamed nude stockings .............

[Lena]

In just a few hours my first day off in 16 days starts ................... Am not going to this again for awhile , working so many days in a row may have brought in much needed money but it's taken to much out of me . I'm really sick of always being on my feet and having to smile all the time like some grinning idiot or huge phony ..............

Yesterday went allright . Went for a wonderful walk in the rain , stopped for coffee and then went into work . Although by the end of my shift I was at the same time too wired to go home and sleep and as strange as it sounds too tired to get up the energy to walk out to my car and drive home so stayed for a few hours at the hotel talking to some guests and staff.

It didn't rain long being mostly cloudy ( adding some mystery ) but it was wonderful . Hardly anyone else was out walking /jogging so like when I go out running early or for walks in the winter and your empty out there you feel a s if the whole street is your personal property . A nice feeling , makes me calmer and helps clear my head alot like being on water does. About the only people I crossed paths with were ultra intense male jogger who while waiting for the traffic lite to change was fanatically running in place and taking deep breaths along with a middle aged guy who seemed to want to be indoors walking two designer dogs carrying a pooper scooper. Neither said hi even though we were like the last people on earth all alone out there............ .

The rain hadn't kept the people away from the coffee boutique , the place was booming with alot of people and noise.You'd have thought it as something like a week day morning when folks drop in to get there morning coffee on there way to work . Many of the regulars ..........the old retired guys who are there afternoons , the retarded woman in her 20's who works at the drivers license place, this tall thin 50 something in a ball hat who has the scarey habit of talking to himself But it being a week-end no yuppys on laptops I guess since it was pouring there was also a kids soccer team of boys about 10-12 snacking away while there coaches and parents enjoyed some more refreshing morning coffee. Boys at that age can be so loud but those kids were pretty good .Moi sat there taking it all in having this new PIKES PEAK cofffee which tastes just like all the other kinds of coffee they serve there. maybe it's a plot ? They only have one kind of coffee but sell it under a bunch of different names ? One 40 something saw me the sans shoes and said they saw me from the car walking barefoot and how with the rain I must have the cleanest feet in town . I just nodded and smiled , that being either one of the sillyer things anyone could say or about the limpest way any man has ever hit on me ............... Ironically the ' fascinating ' topic of my feet wud get a comment from someone later that nite at work ...........

At work wore the black cocktail waitress dress and nude seamed stockings I got at a thrift shop in there original box from a jillion years ago , the sales receipt was from 1959 !. Thats about as close as this girl will ever get to being like elegant women from the past like GRACE KELLY and AUDREY HEPBURN . If all the coffee at STARBUCKS tastes the same it can also be said that all the food in the employee cafeteria tastes the same , as in having NO taste at all. No matter whether it's meat or fish you don't feel anything special inside your mouth . Sometimes I expect my palate / taste buds to ask "What is this ? " . The soda is so watered down it's nothing but colored water................ Worked the Concierge Lounge which was easy , there going to start to charge for the alcohol up there. Luckily for moi I hit on wine not beer so there's no way management can find out about my drinking on the job . The wedding reception later was the same old same old , they had 150 guests and I worked it with Cassady . Shes a good bartender and you can't come down on her since she has issues with about everything including addiction to male attention , ocd and agoraphobia but her always trying to act so high falutin and classy can get on my nerves . She was really being terrible about that last nite .She has a new ' meant to sound so above the rest of us ' way of talking now .............. After saying to myself this is just more of Cassady's phonyness moi made her own statement about being a regular down home person by going barefoot for the rest of the shift infact right up to 3 AM when I finnally left the hotel . Happy to say it was not only more comfortable but got me a wanna -be condemning stare from Cassady as if I was some greener then green Daisy Mae that just came down from the hills .................

The wedding ended at 11 PM and we finished cleaning up about 30 minutes later . Cassady and I were going out the door together still in our uniforms , I could see her older married but rich bf waiting in his red jeep .Being the sarcastic bitch I am thought " Oh lucky Cassady and Shlomo being able to have some time together , wifey must be out of town or back again in the high class dry out clinic " :lol But before I could get out the door the security told me to go to the front desk . Had to give directions to some guests who were of all things going out at midnite ..............? After doing that almost automatically got in a big talk with Roger the new nite manager who just transferred in from Miami . he wanted to know as much as he could about the town and I think pump me about our fellow employees. Have to be careful when it comes to talking about people at work and also since while Roger may seem like a nice guy he's still management .So was smart and just focused on the town and praised my boss and friends . Being a bartender is such great training to be a actor.....................or phony !

That led to me spending the next few hours walking around with Roger ( he's married with kids & religious too so no passes occurred ) and talking to whatever guests we came across so late . Including this one group of 30 somethings from up to Pittsburgh .Nice folks and all the nicer since they 'd been out drinking & partying . When we first met them got my second comment about my feet . One of the guys who was a jock type made a Kentucky joke seeing me there barefoot that he now knows its true Kentuckians ( ie hillbillys ) don't like wearing shoes . I swung at him with my shoes as if I was trying to hit him and we all laffed . I ended up sitting in the lobby talking to them for the next few hours. Nothing big or important , just nice talk . Thats a great fringe benefit of working in the hotel business, you see more then your share of the bad & downright stupid but also get a chance to meet good and maybe best of all interesting people ( who can be huge pecketheads too ) but last nite was lucky enough to get to spend some time with folks who were both nice and interesting . The leather chair I was in was so comfy I never wanted to get up either . Just before 3 AM we all booked . Roger came back to say goodnight them . The guy who made the anti-Kentucky joke last word was " Hey pay this woman more so she can afford shoes ! "

Off to the country club now to work the brunch . In a white ribbed tank top and khaki mini . At work there uniform of the white blouse, Kelly green jumper dress, and nude garter stockings . Later we meet friends to go see the SEX IN THE CITY movie .

[Lena]

A new week and my day off in weeks ............... Today's post is a little lite weight since moi threw herself into a big post in the regular blog area. all about blogging and of course me me me me me me me..............


Yesterday was all right , felt real summery . Worked the country club brunch which was almost empty . Moi just stood around most of the time with May Wah and Meghan doing pretty much of nothing . Those tricky chefs, they didn't put alot of the food out since they knew it wudn't get ate and wanted to take it home for themselves . The game worked too , Charley Brown and Creech won't have to go to the grocery store for the next week . I could have brought home a huge plate roast beef and also salad left over on the buffet table but just like I won't buy second hand undies won't eat second hand food ...............

May Wah is leaving after next week to work for one of the members law firm then in july I think going with his family and two other couples to China for the Olympics. She and her younger sister whose in college ( another genius , she's going to dental school up north this fall at the expense of the US navy ) will be there tour guides.Getting not just a free trip but also money . I can only hope someday they have the Olympics back in Lawrence county where I was born so I can get a gig like that ............. Then again somehow even if that happened going back to Louisa ( that's the county seat and biggest town with 2,000 people ) wudn't be the same adventure going to Beijing China on a jet airplane wud be .

Came home and when Karin got back we met Carla and Judy and went to See the SEX AND THE CITY movie . Had fun , seeing the characters all together again was like seeing old friends . They may all be straight and older ( SAMANTHA'S about my mothers age ) but all of us can relate since the show is about women and friendship . Actually I can relate a little more since CYNTHIA NIXON is now in a relationship with another woman and we just learned KRISTIN DAVIS is both a fellow southerner and fellow alcoholic . . The movie was actually nothing more then a big episode of the show and no doubt there will be a sequel and maybe after that another sequel . The theater was filled with mostly other women too , no surprise ! All kinds too since the show had such a wide appeal among women . Karin fingered me right there during the movie ..............better then popcorn ! Later we all went out for drinks and as we sat there at the table it came to me that we were just like the characters out enjoying each other . Nice to have friends !!!

This morning had more sex ( we did it last nite after coming home ) and threw myself into the other blog entry about blogging . It's not bad , please give it a look see .

Soon leave to get a license for my boat .Then go look at a launch site .Maybe head out on the water tomorrow .

Today in a yellow tank top and white shorts ...................!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Lena]

Hello ..................

Wednesday morning here and is hot but lucky for us raining cats and dogs . Is this what living in the rain Forrest is like ?

Yesterday turned out to Be a gift from the god of relaxation . We'd planned to go out and kayak on the river but when we got up knew right way that was as not possible since the storm clouds were brewing . We were both disappointed ,especially moi who was really looking forward to jumping into a new hobby but what can you do ? But it all turned around when we decided to make the best of it . Don't want to sound like some grinning idiot-always positive type but it can be true when given lemons try to make lemonade

The lemonade was spending the day at home together and was very nice. I recommend it highly to everyone , you recharge and reconnect as a couple . Actually no mater who I have ever been with have loved times like that although they've changed over the years . During a bad ice storm n Jerry and i I were bottled up in our apartment for 2 days spending most of it either in bed , getting high , or watching his library of horror & and slasher movies . We really were mature & deep couple .......... . At 19 with Donna we talked ( her life was alot more tragic then mine ) f*cked , and also got high . Then danced naked in the front window hoping the soldiers who stayed across the street wud see, don't know if they did but do recall how we made the day of some 70 something geezer out for a walk . Wonder if it was John McCain ? ............

After a pretty fun run outside ( always feel so healthy after running in any kind of bad weather from rain to heat ) we came home and showered . Then ended up having a pretty special day together .Nothing major or for that mater even much talking , just hanging around the crib with each other . The place was clean thanx mainly to Karin's work and felt just so cozy . Didn't feel like e were cut of from the rest of the planet like past times like this , just rainy day and we were lucky enough to be in our nice little home together having fun doing nothing . Sat around with Karin in a T shirt and jean short shorts with moi in my yellow robe watching tv. OPRAH really is smart , often how she reacts to what her guests say is more interesting then any of there storys . Then my hero RACHAEL RAYE who makes being super smart and a born winner look just so natural . Of course when going thru the channels also saw JERRY SPRINGER with both of us pan icing / screaming to change the channel . Karin hates it since she thinks it's awful people are so angry and at the bottom of life while I hate it since for moi the show is like being at a family reunion .Along with JERRY'S clones ( but who don't have fights like MONTEL WILLIAMS and MAURY.

Also played with the cats , they enjoyed the whole family there together too .AGATHA stuck close to us we laffed enjoying the female company since she's stuck with alpha male FRITZ all day . He wasn't as clingy but FRITZ liked being talked too and of course talking back .He really is a chatterbox. Moi thought about making a fire but didn't , it ws sure dark enough for one since the rain just kept coming down and down . then we had sex , no garter belts or push up bras like in lesbian scenes in movies . Just a naked Karin ravaging moi who part of the time was in her open robe .

After our fun Karin worked on forms to get money for graduate school while I took a look at CNN , happy to see Obama probably has enough delegates to be the Democrats nominee never thought about it before but this is the first time anyone not white is nominated by one of the 2 big parity's .God for him and good for America. Although not as much as me Karin likes Obama but thinks McCain will win and who knows but I'm hoping Obama gets it . Was proud of myself since as alcoholic did not automatically drink , only had one glass of merlot all day . Was really nice being home with Karin

The doing nothing special but nice day came to end late in the afternoon As the afternoon faded moi had to go into her pt job at the country club and Karin had to take a nap before going into work midnites .With a huge open mouth kiss complete with tongues we said adios till later then in a periwinkle T shirt and tan cargo short shorts& red rain poncho moi headed off to the country club ..................

Am now in white jean mini and pink tank top and planning to go out for a walk in today's rain while Karin sleeps . At work tonite the black cocktail waitress dress , nude garter stockings ,and black flats.

[Lena]

Make today the start of the rest of your life.....................

My in person reply to that wud be to roll my eye and find something else to do or someone else to talk too . I really do hate those cheery and optimistic cliches .But when your at work and a big part of your job is being friendly you have to suffer thru it ( and boy did I suffer ) thru them ....... We had a group of people in from herbal life, a company that sells weight lose food .Good lord were they all a bunch of grinning idiots , each one convinced that 'd hit on a gold mine and were going to get rich and also obsessed with all things Herbal Life .The pack of cheery smiling faces came close to making me sick. Also almost ashamed since moi had also written yesterday about how the rain had stopped us from going kayaking so we made lemonade out of lemons by having fun at home .

The Herbal Life people really didn't need to be drinking to feel good since they were ere already so high on herbal life and being sickeningly optimistic . All of them had huge smiles over there faces , the worst was the 50 something lady with over-dyed red hair who again with huge smile on her face showing capped teeth talked about " making today the first day of the rest of your life " . She was more then a human but a walking encyclopedia of optimistic cliches . At one point when they were all talking about one Herbal Life's relative who has depression the lady smiled saying good cure for depression is to just laff alot and wear a brite colored clothes . Later she added that " A frown is nothing more then a smile turned upside town " and how she loves reading inspirational books . Help ..............moi kept smiling thru it all though.One of them was nice enough to there peoples mindless commitment to happiness was so crazy that one predicted the recession wud soon be over while another one said we've war in Iraq . The lady with over dyed red hair didn't say anything specific about big problems out there ( bet she thinks little georgy is doing a great job ) but smiling offered the idea that maybe things wouldn't be so bad if the media didn't report them ................. By then I was s close to telling her how I spent the first 24 years of my life all happily ignorant of anything /everything that didn't directly concern me and it didn't help . be as stupid as you want but trouble is still out there. but since my job is to be grinning idiot in addition to making drinks said NOTHING !

At one point like religious fanatics they were buttonholing other customers with extra weight telling them they have a way to lose weight and find true happyness. They even hit on cocktail waitress Maureen who doesn't have any weight problem in a smiley but insulting way telling eh they have the solution to those 'few extra pounds ' which sort of shocked her . Since I am so thin thought that wud save moi from there huckstering but didn't , one woman in a yellow track suit told me in a phony warm way s if she was a auntie or someone like that like I had some serious problem or was deformed she had a cure for my pale white "unhealthy looking skin " ...........how nice of her !!! I smiled and said no thanx and thought the solution to my pale skin is not to always be inside working but having some free time to get some sun . And maybe tossing a drink in her face for the sickeningly sweet way she told me I looked like a ghost ............. happily they all left . Thank heavens we didn't get any AMWAY people after that , there the worst .......................

After the attack of the grinning idiots we were pretty slow . Maybe there mindless hapyness and Herbal Life fanaticism created a karma that scared off people who just anted to come in and chill. Maureen and I talked , she's all of 21 but with 2 kids back in Ireland .hearing how a woman whose 7 years younger already has 2 children for some reason my biological clock started screaming ......... Bob from security came in , looked tired ,He also has white skin from always being inside between work , school ,and studying . He said the hotel was full of Herbal Life people . They leave friday .................thank the heavens !!!!! Earlier they found 3 kids who snuck int the loading dock , 2 ran of but the other security 'The Rev " whose a preacher too caught one and the police came by to get him .Also swapped e-mails with my friend Leslie whose now staying at the ex's house sitting and watching there son . They'll find a cure for cancer and the common cold before Les settles down ............... In the little over a month before she moved into Bills and in the process had to become celibate she did 11 people .More on them later, sounded like a diverse bunch Is it just me or are golden showers becoming a standard part of sport f*cking ?

Moi sees the analyst later then works . It's very very hot here today so will wear my white sleeveless summer dress .At work the black cocktail waitress dress, nude nylon and black flats .

[Lena]

I loved the rain last week but now hate the weather's first heat wave of our Dixie summers is here and is a real mothergrabber.Not just bad heat either, we get intense humidity with it .Going outside right away you feel like someone has wrapped you in a hot wet blanket . Am glad I don't wear make-up since it get ruins right away No surprise that even though it costs arm and a leg we have the air conditioning on .........

Not much news today. Saw my analyst Naomi yesterday and had a good session . All about rising to the occasion of crisis's but more important living life . You really have to have a attitude that your going to make it thru whatever your aced with and do what it takes to get what you want . Hope I have that now, the fatalism in the past always made that hard if not impossible .More on that later.

The big news was my analyst of 4 some years is retiring leaving me all alone to fave the uglyness out there in the world and also the ugliness inside me . Really took me back since it is a major change in life losing what amounts to your doctor and more important since she's been so helpful . But she's pretty sure I will survive. Was going to devote this post to that whole issue but will hold off and make it a big entry in the regular blog area . want to read up some on whole issue of being in therapy and how it helps and also since this is a European site if it's mainly a American thing .

Work went fine .Learned we're getting Melissa Etheridge in a few weeks . They had me in the Concierge Lounge for awhile which was busy then down to the bar . No grinning idiot Herbal Life people last nite , thank the stars ! Cocktail waitress Maureen was set back by how friendly but fanatic they were .Even insulting to her all with a huge smile saying she was fat ( which she isn't ) so they could sell some weight loss products too. I guess it's a American thing Like the nite before had a lively group of Japanesse business men in , they love to party and laff . They were absolutely hysterical the other nite when the tv said Obama had clinched the Democratic nomination talking and imitating black people walking around with there heads held high and huge smiles on there faces with white women looking all upset .Both blacks and whites were laffing along with them too. Amazing how alcohol and a sense of humor can bring all humanity together ................ Security also said they saw one of the Japenesse guys hook up with a coyote they call 'Missy " whose a blue eyed blond type about 18 and not very smart . Actually she could even be retarded . But then again the Japanesse guy wasn't paying her to hear about what THE WALL STREET JOURNAL had in it or learn more computer skills...............

After work didn't want to go home so right away so stopped at a girl bar in the TRIANGLE for a drink .Despite being a week nite the place as doing real good. Ran into Madge Mc Keithan whose also a bartender and used to date my best friend Leslie .She was nice,( at first when she was trying to pump me ) still seems interested in Les.Wanted to know where Les was staying and if I had her number .Right away I knew that was a potential problem since if she called Les wud surely see her and that wud get in the way of her taking care of baby Grady . So moi basically lied making it sound like Les was back with Bill and living straight . Just said she's living at the ex's ( not mentioning he's in Iraq) and throwing herself into motherhood. Poor Madge frowned and soon walked away .Leslie will thank me for that someday when I actually get around to telling her about seeing Madge , maybe as early as 2010 .. You know in my life I have lied so much when being bad it felt very good to lie to be a good person and keep Les from ruining everything by falling into her old habits of sport f*cking and whirl wind romances..............

Today pink second hand Lacoste polo shirt dress & Dr. Scholls. At work the black cocktail waitres dress, nude garter stockings , and black flats . .

[Lena]

A new day here in the blast furnace we call Louisville's heat and humidity are staying around like bad hangover making life very very hard . We should be in the mid 90's again today with humidity as bad as the jungle .


After running moi plans to go to a huge flea market alter this morning .it's local tradition , exciting people bring out what they don't want anymore which can go from crap to classy antiques and they also have corny things like barbershop quartets and also good street musicians playing everything from bluegrass to classical music .I plan to window shop only !!!

Wore the black cocktail waitress dress at work , did the usual routine of the Concierge Lounge then bat . Cassady got to work a reception and get it's huge $100 tip ................. The lounge was slow but the bar got lively being full of cops here for a big week-end seminar on something at the base . They were excited about being here and drank like fishes . Listening in on customers is like going to school, you can learn alot .With all the cops hear about how they do things where there from and of course war storys about the crazy people they deal with . Also had a married couple from new York who looked right out of the SOPRANOS , the wife had teased hair and long red nails and was in tight pink capri pants while the husband was in all white that included a white LAS VEGAS t shirt , white pants ,and white shoes along with a gold chain .But they were the nicest people you could imagine .The cc had a Italian name and I heard the wife say she was half Jewish -half Armenian , I laffed at that since once had a whole family reunion of Armenians here to visit a relative in the army . Before it was over they was treating this hillbilly like a member of the family . Mr.Dyson came in too, was nice. But again forgot to tell me he's my long lost father or ask me to go on the payroll as his chicklet complete with a condo and sports car .................

Worked with cocktail waitress Narla who really has attitude. She works hard and does a good job but you can tell is proud of being independent & no one's fool .Last nite she confided she's also bi and has been dating a soldier girl . Good to know I have a sister at work ! There hardly any other queers around the place anymore anymore . At one point the hotel was almost run by a group of gay and one bi male manager but that sort of eroded away After work went down to the TRIANGLE with Narla for a drink , we hooked up with her gf named Peggy who and some there friends . Despite the awful weather the whole area was hoping , being a friday nite the people were out partying .Many coming from work , you saw both men and women in suits mixing with others in regular street clothes . A few bikers too and I think some sexually curious upper middle class college girl types . Narla's bunch were nice but it was their world and I was the stranger . Luckily saw some dykes we know and joined them for a drink . As I left spotted the manic /hyper and two faced Valorie who is Shoshana's ex sitting alone at the bar signifying away to the poor bartender .............. I didn't say hi and kept walking so I wudn't have to put up with her................

Outside amidst the tidal wave of people ran into Scott and Barry who are 2 gay docs who work with Karin . Nice guys , we were at there wedding and have been there pretend gf's for straight social functions . Lucky them , the bank so good there off to Europe in a week .They also need our services again for huge society garden party in a few weeks which should be fun

Today in a white sleeveless T shirt and jean short shorts . Tonite in the black cocktail waitress dress , nude garter stockings with a seam ,and black flats .

[Lena]

Another day , another heat wave ................really is terrible out . Just so f*cking hot and humid . The radio is warning people about the heat as if it was a tornado or blizzard since it's dangerous . They tell seniors and people with breathing troubles to stay inside. God advice, the terrible weather is setting off my asthma too. Have been sneezing and coughing alot over the last few days . Karin's been annoyed by the serious crisis of running make-up ...........I should be so lucky .

Had a nice time at the huge flea market yesterday in spite of the heat and humidity . They really had a good crowd too , all kinds of people were there. A busload of seniors,yuppys , whole familys and joggers/bikers. Also a dorky barbershop quartet singing away , what else but ' My Old Kentucky Home " Alot of used furniture and kitchen stuff . One older woman was delited about getting whole set of wedge wood china for a few dollars , this aged yuppy Guy was almost dancing for joy finding this huge old wooden globe from a hundred years ago , and one vendor who as selling old fashioned exercise equipment had a huge crowd around him . He had these giant medicine balls and pins .Some amateur jugglers bought all the pints and right way were talking about painting them changing the color from the bland white paint to bright colors. Moi cam close to buying but old wood frame mirror but held off, happy to say my natural stinginess kicked in ! But left thinking mirrors are neat and collecting them then putting them over one wall of our place wud be a great hobby . After buying some lemonade from the Boy Scouts left and was very happy to get into my car to escape the heat . When the air conditioning came on it felt like a cold shower or dip into the lake ..........

The hotel was so empty it was spooky , hardly any other employees were around when I went in which is strange . No one in the locker room which while at first felt creepy but that feeling passed . Was able to take a long hot shower , the water pressure is the best I have ever seen and the hot water never ever stops . After that got into the black cocktail waitress dress. The employee cafeteria was almost empty and that was weird to since during the day since as bad as the food usually is there's always somebody there from employees to contractors to cops & paramedics . Yesterday it was just me , two of the retarded people who work the laundry , and middle aged cop who was on his cell phone working on his on the side catering business . After eating half the lasagna worked the Concierge Lounge which for awhile was over flowing with people here on some promotional tour . They ate almost everything in site but went soft on the bar .

Later worked a 88 person wedding reception with weird Norm .He really is the lazyest bartender in town , about the only slower bartender I have ever heard of was a this guy a few years ago who died on the job from a stroke and just stood there dead at the bar with folks continuing to make orders . Whoever works with that dork ends up doing most of the work . It gets even more annoying since you have to split the tip 50-50 Nothing about the reception stood out except one guy about 20 who had the disgusting open mouth tattoo one his throat .............

Hilary gave up yesterday and is now for Obama. Even though she lost she should really be proud since she was the fist woman who was a serious candidate for president and did real well. Who knows she may still be his vice president partner . Also see on Google news this morning wearing flip flops may have long term danger . I've been saying that for awhile after getting open sores between my toes. Don't know if anyone is listening since there America's most popular shoe , everyone wears them . Moi even has pair .But for most of the time will stick with going barefoot or my Dr . Scholls.And there telling us not to eat uncooked tomatoes since they may have salmonella . That has my gf upset since she's addicted to tomatoes whether it's cooking with them or snacking on them . Am happy there's never been a salmonella warning about my favorite snack food , alcohol .

Work at the country club later, ho-hum . Another 4 hours of being a grinning idiot for the rich people . At least it's money and easy work . And moi does get a look into another world . Going out in a navy blue v-neck T shirt and jean short shorts . At the country club there uniform of the white blouse, Kelly green jumper dress , nude thigh tops ,and brown flats