Thank You Marilyn King !

[Lena]

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Moi doesn't feel all that good this morning , got home from work at 1AM and was soon asleep .Woke about about 3AM with a upset stomach not being able to get back to sleep till 4 AM or thereabout .Got up when my gf got home from work herself and still have a upset stomach . Maybe it was something I ate or this the start of something nasty ? Have no appetite and the milk in my coffee is making me feel even worse...........


Carlene's shower went fine yesterday . Although I was 20 minutes late getting to Tally's it wasn't a problem since nobody else had arrived . maybe since she stays on the edge of town and it's hard to fin d. You have to get off the main road and take 2 back roads, one only is one lane wide to get to her cabin . The cabin wasn't what I thought it wud be , true was a cabin but not the place she made it sound like and wanted so much to show of toe everyone . Small and square, the concrete at the bottom as exposed not covered up by bushes or even panted .Off to one side was a pile of logs she told me thee going to use to expand the house. Also the pool she talks so much about , but a above grounder not a nicer and deeper below ground pool .Oh well , it's there home not mine . I knew right away when I stepped inside her hubby is ex army , the house is full of pictures of tanks and army trucks and her husband whose named Jackson in his uniform . He mustered out here at Knox and they stayed on . he and the kids had been banished somewhere for the day so the girls could have fun .


About 15 minutes after I got there everyone else more or less arrived at once .All totalled 11 women including Carlene and her daughter Rachel . Except for me and Rachel everyone was in there late 's -late 40's Making me feel like the baby of the bunch . So like Rachel kept my mouth shut keeping busy working while the older women talked away . Carlene was as always her kind and gracious self .Very grateful and happy that we took the time out for her . Loved getting all the Farberware too.


Rachel 's great , going into her second year at VANDERBILT UNIVERSITY . Looks go too with longer hair and there new intellectual looking wire rimmed glasses . Told me she gets free room and board this year being some sort of a supervisor or monitor at her dormitory too. That's a good deal ! Both of us first got annoyed then laffed at a obnoxious friend of Carlene's from her main job at the post office.The woman named Corrine with over dyed black hair and heavy set was talking to us like we were children and when in the kitchen heard her laffing bout the 'little ones' . She got more catty the more she kept slugging down white wine spritzers too. I was able to ignore her after Rachel said how 2 years ago when Rachel was as 17 how Corrine had called up and in baby talk said something like ' Hello sweet-ums , is mama home ? " With Rachel replying back in baby talk herself ' Ma ma here, me go get her " with the insulting bint not catching on ................


Got to the hotel early and it was so hot & humid I was covered with sweat after walking 4 blocks from my car to the employee entrance . So took a long shower which brought me back to life. Wore the black cocktail waitress dress feeling like a femme fatale like I do every time I am in it . A great ego boost for someone with next to with no brests and chicken legs Maybe it was the food in the employee cafeteria that got me feeling poorly . The tuna salad tasted strange . The coffee too was stale and way too strong . ...............


Word the Concierge Lounge first where absolutely nothing was going on . There was none of the caviar I love nibbling on so I called room Service to bring up some which sad to say never arrived. Had to content myself with red wine and a oatmeal cookie , any nutritionist reading this must be screaming at that combination . Then worked a wedding a small one with just 120 people . Nothing really stood out , the brides parents were divorced with her mom and step dad looking very well off ( drove a Hummer I heard them say ) and fit . The actual father of the bride was this huge fat guy walking with a cane who had a long ( down to his chest ) bushy black & white beard , shoulder length hair, and was wearing shades and a black leather cowboy hat of all things . They had him shunned off to one of the last tables in the Grande Ballroom as if it was a leper colony meant to keep him and the others there ( which includded a guy who was badly disabled in a wheelchair and this huge fatter then fat woman who was in a brite yellow and orange dress complete with matching head band ) from everyone else .As big of a oddball as the man looked both Cassady and I felt sorry for him being pushed aside so bad at his own daughter's wedding . BTW Cassady's daily new pair of shoes yesterday were black heels that had what she said was a silk exterior ......... .


Both Cassady left in our uniforms with the wanna be funny at someone elses expense but always unfunny security Arnold Haynes joking ' we were going out to meet men . Hah hah hah , don't know which one of her bf 's ws waiting ( the married 37 year old jewish lawyer who oozes sleaze & is as hyper as a Mexican jumping bean or the muscle bound 19 year old black guy who oozes vanity & being simple minded ) but Cassady did actually have a man waiting for her .She lit up like a neon sign sauntering toward the car no doubt ready to play sex kitten with whoever was in it . Moi though more and more bothered by the heat & a growling stomach made it to her car and was happy to get inside to turn on the air conditioning . Back home the building was busy , there were 2 cop cars stopping someone right in front of the building and the man we don't know on the second floor was saying good -bye to some guests at the front door. Real socialable to them but all he could do for me was blurt out a short 'hello " as he turned and walked away ..............


Inside everything came off and I was in my pj's in seconds .Then asleep but soon back up with my upset stomach .It's really been burning and also in unmentioned ways disgusting this morning . Don't know if I am in good enough shape to work at the country club today but if I call in sick they'll be mad and we do really need the money .


If I do get out will be in something like white tank top and jean mini or jean shorts . At the country club there uniform of a white blouse and Kelly green jumper dress along with last nites garter stockings and brown flats .

Pray for my recovery .

[Lena]

Yesterday was no fun but at least moi feels better today . My stomach trouble is ending and I feel rested from alot of sleep . Although feeling better will be short lived since my period is starting .


Wasn't able to go into work yesterday , even though I did try to make it in . Actually had my clothes out . But I was so tired from not sleeping & all the nastyness during the nite I fell asleep after taking a shower . My gf who is a nurse and should know something about health after all told me I should just stay home to recover and we'd work around the unearned money .That made sense . The country club didn't like it when I called to say I couldn't make it , the dining hall manager made it sound like I had some patriotic or sacred duty to come in and serve the rich people . But then again don't think either the manager or members wud have liked having a server always running to the bathroom and smelling .....................


So spent the day at home suffering . I mostly slept except for the times I had to run to the bathroom . I needed the sleep anyway , never do get enough and needed to catch up anyway . Am now convinced sleeping should be seen as leisure time activity since it leaves you feeling so good . It was sooo easy to just lie there going in and out of sleep . My gf and I joked that she is such a workaholic if she'd been the sick one there wud have been no napping but instead Karin wud have done all the wash for the week and maybe cleaned up the place too. Happy to say I was happy just to chill , comes from my genes .Hillbillys NEVER have any trouble relaxing . .


For most of the time was on the couch in the living room which is closest to the bathroom which was a nescessity . Didn't stay in the bedroom also since didn't want to keep Karin awake since she had to get some quality sleep after working midnites .Being the ingrates they are at least when your sick the cats stayed away ........... There were times when I'd wake up I'd have some energy but it usually didn't last long .Maybe 30 minutes at the most . Tyred watching tv but didn't have the attention span , also tryed making music cd's off the machine but again the attention span just wasn't there and I kept making mistakes like recording the same song twice on the same cd or putting the cd in wrong so nothing recorded causing me to feel totally helpless & stupid .It all took alot out of me too which wud always have me back to sleeping ...............


Karin got up about 4 PM looking totally healthy & refreshed ...................the bitch ! . Got me so Pepto bismol and a fresh blanket . That was very nice but being so bad off moi wasn't in much of a mood to be grateful or even talk . She left at 5PM to go over to Carla and Judy's which we'd already planned to do . I was sad I couldn't go , we always have fun with them and had planned to have dinner then spend the nite looking at each other's vacation pictures.They went to Italy then Vienna Austria .Although I was depressed at not being able to go was soon asleep again . From what Karin said this morning they had a fantastic trip seeing many historic places and things . And like us indulged in some cheap tawdry sex .....................which they loved. For them it was swinging with a pair of Swedish dykes they met in Pompeii Italy .


Did feel much beter at 8 PM and read some on the machine .Maybe it was seeing BOBBY BARE at work but I somehow got Detroit on the mind and read about the big scandal up there on the www . They have a black mayor whose either a hoodlum or insane facing a bunch of felony charges but won't resign . Even though race is such a HUGE issue up there and the mayor is trying to blame everything on a white plot it looks like most blacks and whites want to see him gone , the sooner the better ! . So more crazyness is bound to happen , maybe they'll make a movie about it like they did about Idi Amin in THE LAST KING OF SCOTLAND . Poor Detroit , it used to be such a great city where anyone could go and get a great paying job in the car factoys but now American cars aren't selling so there's depression & poverty ( along with unbelievable crime ) and they have this fool for mayor .................


Had a lite breakfast this morning and was able to keep it all down . The coffeee was good too while yesterday it felt like poison and son ended up on my pj's . . Am going to take a shower then lucky moi will head out to among other things buy some Midol for the next crisis.I hope this one isn't hard ................


Today in a tank dress, black top and dark brown paisly skirt .

[Lena]

The stomach trouble continued yesterday along with my booby prize from Mother Nature. Why me ?


Still am trying to go forward in life even though I can't be more then 10 minutes from a bathroom . We were out doing errands most of yesterday then came home . Karin cooked up a lite diner of fish and rice which moi finished about half of. Then we sat around with a bottle of wine watching the Democratic Party Convention on tv.The cats even joined us , all of us around here both two legged and four legged are concerned citizens .


It was real exciting too , the opening nite with thousands of delegates having the time of there lives . It's a big thing , there nominating the candidate for president and it's all the more historical since Obama is the first black even non white person to be put up by a major party to be president . That's real progress!!! . The convention is all over tv, on CNN, MSNBC , CSPAN , fox, and DISHNETWORK even has a channel showing what's going on . The reporters are all doing alot of talk and speculation . fox being fox already is lying talking about major trouble among the Democrats and some insane stuff that most Americans think Obama is pro-terrorist .................:


Last nite Michelle Obama was on giving a speech the commentators said was a attempt to get away from her image as a loudmouth ingrate & racist , presenting herself and her husband as being products of the American dream which you know they really are . That was a good idea, if they were Republican's all the right wing yahoos on AM radio wud be saying exactly the same thing about them . They had a tribute to Teddy Kennedy too. Can't go along with what happened in 1969 with girl dying but you have to respect him for doing so much good for the American people . Those Republicans and nazis on AM radio all talk about the Democrats being against the little guy but last nite hearing all that the Teddy Kennedy and the Democrats have done you see how that such a colossal lie Not that any person or party is perfect ( like I said what Kennedy did back then was bad and the Democrats are too pro globalization & israel for me ) just that overall you have to see the Democrats as being more of a friend to regular people...................


We had some red wine but miracle of miracles my stomach being so bad I couldn't finish my second drink .Popcorn to which always goes great with the red but soon the salt got to my stomach so had to stop . The cats didn't like the salt either but were in hog heaven eating popcorn with butter. We overheard our neighbors watching the convention too, not surprising since Belinda and Baily are both college graduates and big Obama supporters too So are Fawn and John who stay up to the pent house but think Steve directly upstairs from us is a Republican , what with him being a white male and police .Have to forgive him though since he's so likeable . he was a huge doll last week when he went with our elderly neighbor Marie and some of her old lady friends to the bank so they wudn't get robbed .


Have to go do more errands today then work at the country club . Am a bit worryed they'll fire me for calling in sick sunday . Hope not , it's easy work and we definitely need the money. Alot better gig then my old pt job at a dying private club downtown where they made me wear this stupid red coat or a pit like the COVE BAR where you could count on some gomer groping you every nite and big fights every week-end nite between the drunk patrons and at times even started by the fool who owned the place . Oh well , just have to wait & see what they'll do ......................


Today in Karin's oval neck/short sleeve navy blue top and a jean skirt .At the country club there uniform of a white blouse , Kelly green jumper dress along with nude garter stockings and brown flats .

[Lena]

I've been in better moods.My stomach seems back to normal but the curse is a bitch ..................


Also got yelled at last nite at the country club which had me pissed off all nite and still bothers me this morning . When I arrived the manager whose a retired army colonel called me in to his office to give me the 3rd degree about not coming in on sunday . He was more serious then usual so right away knew I was in trouble . Dave the almost always silent dining hall manger was there too. Seemed like we were all playing army with both of them sitting while I had to stand there like a enlisted person facing the almighty officers. The two of them were really annoyed I'd called in sick just 75 minutes before I was do in with Dave also asking if "I was 'happy ' working there part time . It all hit me like a tidal wave and I didn't know what to say . To me this was the jillionth jillionth time a working woman has been grilled by her wanna be holyer then holy male bosses who wanted to show there penis's . Moi gave some thought to screaming out " F*** you , I quit " and storming out .


But I have a mortgage so I couldn't .................


The colonel may be a almighty penis person but he does listen while I had no hope of Dave being fair . I've seen to many restaurant & bar mangers use situations like that to squeeze money or face ( a blow job ) out of women .So even though I felt bloated and stressed did my best to patiently explain myself . Told them the simple truth without the gory details : I was sick but still tryed to get in since we need the money . I was so bad off that i fell sleep while drying my hair and my RN gf (I should have said roommate but wasn't able to concentrate so like the old saying goes the truth came out ) said how I was in no shape to go to work . Neither man said anything so insecure moi added she made sense and added how I didn't think the members wud have wanted a server/bartender who as always rushing to the bathroom or heaven forbid got sick there on the floor.


That was enough for the colonel who leaned back and nodded his head saying " I understand " . Never have met a man who wanted to hear a woman talk about health problems . But Dave being a dick then asked " Are you happy here? " Starring at me with a pregnant stare as if he expected me to make a big confession . I also didn't know what to say after that but after what seemed like hours said ' Yes it's fine fine " .He and the colonel still stared with the colonel looking at Dave who said " Are you sure since we've had reports your not happy here bad mouthing some of the members " . The colonel adding 'you " You know Lena the members are our her bread and butter and we have to have a positive attitude about them " . Again I didn't know what to say and thought of getting up and quitting again . The job not seeming worth this kind of crap . But like I wrote I have a mortgage and need the f.ucking job . So trying to be as calm as possible said that wasn't true and didn't go any further defending myself since it seemed so pointless . Did however ask what exactly I was accused of saying and who are my accusers. That's one of the many good lessons I've learned here at FF , going back to troll wars in '05 when a disturbed woman here who was quite the backstabber herself got everyone worked up against me saying I was attacking her .I could have ended it all the first day and saved myself and the whole site lot of trouble just for asking for proof but didn't . This time though I did and all of a sudden the whole issue was dropped . The colonel said how he understood I was sick but next time don't take any chances and call in as early as possible so they can try to get a replacement . Then he dismissed me with a smile .........


We were too busy for me to be upset about the whole thing and worry about who was backstabbing me there. Meghan and I being swamped in the dining hall.But later told Carlene in the bar about it all and she said not to worry since she knows the colonel and to him the matter is closed. As far as who may be backstabbing me she didn't come right out and name Nikki but did say in her own intelligent & experienced way that Nikki the server on days loves serving these rich people and can't understand why others don't idolize . Carlene says she stays on Nikki's good side by making it a point to say something nice about some members huge new car or big trip to Europe . So now be knowing it was Nikki , nasty of her too . But in the end can't take anyone seriously who must not like herself enough so she has to worship these people most of who were born with everything . But will keep my distance from here from now on ......................


Saw Karin for a few minutes between the time I got home and she left for work . She was pretty manic, can get that way real easily abut going to work since she has such a important job .She said they have nurses like Nikki too who worship the doctors but that usually ends when one of the Doc's yells at them . Now am hoping some richie jumps all over Nikki .After she left moi in her robe took some more Midol washing it down with merlot and watched Hilary at the Democratic Convention . She was great , just great . Am almost sorry she wasn't the nominee .More to come though , will record tonites convention while I am at work .


Should mention too since I posted about it in MEMEBERS CHIT CHAT how I TT my best friend Leslie yesterday which also helped put me in a even more pissed off mood . I do love her but at times the Les can really bug me by acting so unbelievable crazy ! At present she loves being a stay at home mom and student . Spending alot of time doing things with her son Grady and taking 2 courses at LCC . But after the gangs visit to the museum of creationism which is the meccca of fundamentalists around here she's been going to meetings with all these born againers and sounds more and more like Pat Robertson . Am worryed she'll be a born againer telling everyone how she's so holy and we're all going to hell. Then 180 degrees opposite she said how last week she left Grady at Corvah's for the nite and danced for fun at the bar she used to work at having the time of her life. Including not just getting lots of applause from the guys watching her dance topless but also from other things . Like giving a traveling salesman face for money and a spontaneous sexual encounter with a stripper who was just 17 ....................


There both so stupid and contrary . I have no argument with anyone including Les being religious . But do think some of the people she's doing there meetings with are into it mainly to feel better then everyone else. And the mean spirited right wing politics don't seem to religious to me either . The dancing and sex stuff was positivelly insane .She promised her ex she wudn't do that to be able to take care of there boy ( he has custody ) and it goes against the religion stuff . As I thought about do think it all goes back to Les wanting to be able to feel good about herself one way or another ..........


Back to the hotel today . The weather is finnally cooling down which is great news , was getting sick of summer . Today looking UMC ......... in a pink polo shirt and jeans with my Scholls . At work the penguin suit and orthies .

[Lena]

Overall am in a good mood. Good and bad things are happening but basically am happy because Obama got the official Democratic nomination for president last nite . A great day for him and the Democratic party as well as in American history .


I think Obama's nomination is huge step for equality for black and all Americans. A man on tv this morning said it's like when John Kennedy was the first catholic to get to be president . America is supposed to be all about fairness and opportunity for all and seeing Obama get the nomination is a sign that really true . No matter if your Democrat or Republican all of us here should be proud of this .


Also in the good news department was happy to be back at the hotel last nite . Things ran smoothly and the shift went by quickly . Do feel so professional in that penguin suit too. Had cocktail waitress Narla with me in the bar , another queer and always fun to work with .We had fun during the time together .


Narla was surprised and happy to hear the gory truth about Beth in Sales . Seems Bethie whose really not a bad person has been leaning all over Narla to join her fundamentalist mega church which Narla being a Romanist and hedonist naturally wants nothing to do with . Narla to thought Beth's enthusiasm as kind of fanatic too. Beth's known for going overboard with the religion , they had to tell her to stop nagging at people to join her lunch time prayer group .Bob in security jokes he thinks Beth must get a bounty for every person she brings to her fundamentalist mega church since she's invited about everyone down to the illegal aliens who work at the hotel . Narla however was shocked and laffing very hard when I told her while do like Beth she is not all that she seems .Bringing up how when she was working the bar as a cocktail waitress she and her hubby were having threesomes with cocktail waitress and fellow religious fanatic Sally . Even at work Beth & Sally were having there fun in places like the store room and manager's office. The time they took turns giving each other foot massages at a table in the bar is legendary . Narla really laffed and laffed hearing that news , being the comedian she is said maybe she should agree to go to the fundamentalist mega church if she too can bed down with Betha & her hubby .............. Only in the hotel business................


On the bad side tryed to talk to my boss and long time friend Brendan about his trouble with Marla . Even went in early to get a chance to do so . But Brendan didn't' ant to talk and dismissed me . Told em to if I really do want to help not to ask him any more questions and definitely not to contact Marla whose my friend too. That hurt since those two and I go way way back and it's never nice to be blown off by a friend ..I took a deep breath and left his office.Outside waiting was Carita , the very attractive Puerto Rican sous chef ...................


Am still bleeding which is no fun . Horny too which makes it all the worse....................


Going to watch some convention news today .Love hearing the commentary .The governor of Montana of all places ( a friend says it's full of steers and queers ) has been on alot and he's fantastic .A regular guy but you can tell also a pretty smart politician who makes things sound interesting and understandable .


Today in my dark green army style dress with a button up front and belt with rip stop fabric . At work the penguin suit and orthies again ..............

[Lena]

Tired this morning , work got intense last nite . The curse makes it all worse. Feel bloated as if I am Lena the human balloon . Luckily that should be coming to a end .


Still excited about Obama .Last nite he accepted the nomination and gave a great speech at a stadium .You could feel the enthusiasm in the air watching it on tv .Even this far right wing commentator Patrick Buchanan said Obama should come out of the convention with a huge bounce in support . Do hope it lasts !! There saying this morning McCain may have the woman governor of Alaska as his running mate . That's interesting and cleaver . Heard too she's very likeable ( sure at odds with the image of Michelle Obama ) and even has a baby with Downs syndrome . Considering McCain's age & health she could even end up as president .


Works interesting .The health department closed down the employee cafeteria for the time being............YAY!!!!!! I have the soap opera I'd rather not be seeing with my boss and friend Brendan's marital troubles and last nite the bar got busyer then it has been in a long long time .Phew............no surprise moi left exhausted .The money was good but I was so worked up from all the intensity that it was hard getting to sleep back home and I had my usual dream I get on nites were so busy that customers are in my living room howling for drinks .


I wore my penguin suit again last nite . Also with one nude knee high and one black knee high , that was no sign of rebellion against the corporate world or the fashionocracy but completely unintentional since I wasn't paying attention when I was dressing . Since I was spying on 2 of the family restaurant servers who were having a big talk about S-E-X. I really should start making notes of what I hear in the locker room since over the years it's been amazing at times . There used to be maid named Sheila Montayne or Sheila Mondane who wud say things there that were almost unbelievable such as about her life as a party girl and doing sex for pay with the guests and you'd also hear other employees saying muey juicey stuff about Sheila too............. Will definitely post some of those storys .


Heard coming in how the employee cafeteria that I whine about is closed down for the time being . A health inspector came by and found of all things a dead mouse in a salad .That led them to take a closer look finding all sorts of violations , like more rodent droppings in the storage area and even inside the walk- in refrigerator along with seeing how rodents have been nibbling away at the cereal boxes the morning crew gets to eat . Real nasty ! No wonder the managers all try to eat in either the family or gourmet restaurants !!!!


The employee cafeteria has always been a running joke among us hourly peons . If it's not having bad food and watered down drinks except for of course the stale cofffee thats been brewing so long it's stronger then rocket fuel it's the fact in the room is usually dirty and the staff can be bizarre.Like the present chef who did 20 years for killing 2 people, the illegal alien woman who couldn't speak english and when anyone asked her anything she's talk or often yell back back in Spainish as if you understood ,and the insane pencil thin guy with terrible acne who once stirred soup obsessively for hours and hours. Guys from the hospital came later that day to take him away away . If they hadn't bet he'd still be there stirring away .....................


So for now we all get to eat food from the family restaurant which as you'd think is unbelievable 10,00 times better . They've set up a table that eats 8 in the back of the family restaurant for us to eat . Chef Pedro who looks like the rapper Ice Cube is not to happy about this here situation since he is known for complaining about being short staffed already and doesn't like the extra demand on his crew & can't believe the general manager is happy either .But the rest of us are over -joyed .Eating at work is my main meal of the day and nice after 6 years to finally be eating GOOD food . Last nite moi pigging out on a big fat juicey half pound sirloin steak burger ( only ate half ) and huge cottage fries. All they need to do now is add alcohol and it wud be perfect .But they won't so will have to make up for that shortcoming drinking when I'm behind the bar .............. About the only bad thing is being the attention hoare I am unlike the employee cafeteria cannot when I am in the black cocktail waitress dress put on a show for the guys ...............


Sad to say TT some people at work and found out the word is Brendan is messing around with Carita the sous chef . Long ago decided not to be part of the gossip mania that grips most of the staff .For awhile it was fun , like major fringe benefit but it got to be too much of a distraction from doing my job and getting along with everyone .Also too much of it was about the bar crew including me and believe you me it was NASTYER then NASTY . Although must say still laff at the talk I was going thru a sex change to marry lesbian bar manager Susie ........... But since this involves people I love made a exception and went fishing . You can't believe most of what you here especially when it comes to details of what someone says they heard someone say they saw . But a pretty clear and depressing picture emerged that Brendan & Carita are a item .Don't know if it's sport f*cking that is always going on at work or something serious ...................either way it hurts since he and Marla seemed to have such a good thing going & have childrens . .


Luckily couldn't dwell on that or my period since the bar was swamped . We have a convention going on and many of the attenders jumped on the bar like ants on sugar .It seemed many wanted there drinks 5 minutes before they even ordered and moi had to be the anti-smoking police telling more then a few you can't smoke in bars here anymore. A loud bunch too. After closing cocktail waitress Narla and I sat there almost numb having a few drinks to calm down .


Tomorrow plan to make another entry in the regular blog area about our vacation , this time writing about WASHINTON DC .Some of you will like when it gets to a past trip there ( actually my only other trip there ) when my wilder then wild friend Leslie went out on the town and ended up having the mini-orgy with 2 marines .Talk about hard bodies and also hard male sex organs .....................


Rain today! So in my tan army dress with a button up front with the red rain poncho over it a going for a long walk before work . At work tonite the penguin suit and orthies again and plan to get the socks right this time ...............

[Lena]

A short post today since will be putting up a big one later in the regular blog area.Please check it out .


Had a nice walk in the rain yesterday .The rain and I are are overs, can't get enough of it over me . It makes me feel both at peace and energized .


Tired though , work got intense . Wore the penguin suit . We were swamped again last nite in the bar by conventions. Had a mini crisis in the bar and also another one just outside the bar that turned into live entertainment for the customers.All involving the issue of groping ..........


Good lord the conventioneers were whooping it up all over the hotel again .Drinking like there's no tomorrow . In the bar cocktail waitress Maureen and I worked our bootys off and then some . She also got groped which is a occupational hazard in this business, like hearing unwanted dirty jokes and sexual innuendo & getting propositioned . As a bartender haven't been grabbed , groped or pinched often . The bar itself being like the Great Wall of China stopping the guys from getting at me .It used to happen all the time when I was a cocktail waitress Like Mo last nite got my as pinched on the rear about a jillion times , once when I was at a table taking a order this man just started squeezing & running his hands up and down my legs , and there was the one joker who up and put his hand under my skirt trying to rub what Karin calls a woman's " Holiest of holys ".............


Getting grabbed had never hap pend to Mo before so I had to calm her down . She was a mix of angry and ashamed . I just kept telling her not to mind , goes with the job and the guy was a asshole . Even broke the rules and gave her a shot of whisky to calm her down . She bounced back and was fine by the end of the shift . That made me feel good. Also don't know what I wud have done without her since the crowd was way way way toooooooo big for one person to handle . As it was I was having enough trouble keeping up as the only bartender .


We also had a huge fight that soon involved police and fireman right outside the bar . Lucky for moi it went down there or I'd still be to work doing paperwork and answering questions about it all. At one point about half our bar customers were out watching it just like the poor blacks and ' billy wud do back in the old neighborhood . Lucky for me and Mo most came back in , we work on tips and didn't like the distraction . Moi went and offerd everyone a free round . A 30ssomething ice princess type woman( oevr 6' tall with platinum blond hair, a white skirt suit with a red blouse & red nails ) thought she'd been groped by a man crawling on the floor and went nucleur attacking him , including kicking the 50-60 something amn who was alot shorter and already on the ground .She was sooo amd and hurt hapy it was scarey .Some jerk male friend came out to help , him too kicking the man this time in the ribs . The poor man was laying on the floor with his face covered with blood crying but those two jerks still screaming all sorts of death threats and swear words at him ...................they wud have kept beating away if security hadn't shown up .


The man on the floor had to be taken away to the hospital .It turned out he wasn't trying to do any groping but find a lost contact lense and was searching for it when he acidently grabbed the ice princesses ankle seting her off . Tahtwa s enough for security and the polcie who had come . But the ice princes woman and Sir Lancelot were still boiling over with anger ( really was something to see) and as the firemen took the poor guy they hurt away ona gurney she tryed hitting him with a table lamp only to get arrested . Sir Lancelot jumped into it trying to stop the police from taking her off only to have 3 police pile on him . Both fools are now in the calaboose till monday ................... No doubt looking at a big lawsuit ahead .


Today in a white T shirt and tan shorts .At work the black cocktail waitress dress, nude garter stockings , and black flats .

[Lena]

Sunday and I feel great .The monthly bill has been paid .


It was so hot and humid yesterday you didn't want to be outside . Even in a white top and shorts the weather was still nuking me . To hell with worrying about greenhouse gas, moi just wanted to be where there was air conditioning .I ended up at the coffee boutique thats always cool.It felt nice, even had a second drink happily over paying for the ice tea so I could stay inside. When I got to work took a second shower to feel more refreshed . Wore the black cocktail waitress dress .NO surprise that everyone is getting used to eating in the family restaurant since the food is so much better then the stuff they wud give us in the employee cafeteria . You can order anything you want so am seeing alot of the guys at least ordering steaks Moi had chicken tetrazzini last nite .


Wasn't able to post in the regular blog area yesterday since I got busy at work .Instead of spending he afternoon working the Concierge Lounge I spent most of it working a 40th wedding reception party . Hardly anyone drank and I spent most of the time standing there smiling .Then they put me in the Concierge Lounge which was pretty dead until some of the children of people from the convention came in and all of a sudden I was running the planet's only day care center that came with gourmet food and alcohol .The youngest was 9 and the oldest were 2 girls who are 13 and were like miniature adults. Rich people can turn out some real verbal and smart childrens.


The wedding reception was the same old same old .A nice looking white couple in there 20's , good looking wedding party , many friends ( 20 something weddings always have the most friends of the bridal couple , as they get older though the number of friends really starts to drop off ) ,seniors and kids too. As always at 20 something wedding receptions the band played HERE AND NOW and POWER OF LOVE. Alot of drinking too, no surprise 20 something weddings are known for that .


It's the 3rd anniversary of Hurricane Katrina down to New Orleans and no doubt a nightmare to many down there another big storm is headed there. Alot of talk about it on tv .The mayor ordered the city evacuated . good idea. We were in NO just weeks before Katrina hit and had a great time .It was such a unique and interesting place. But they say it never really recovered after Katrina .Party since george jr. didn't really do too good getting relief supplys and money there, have to go with the view of many he wasn't interested in doing anything to help a mainly black city that votes for Democrats .So much for his compassionate conservatism and his claims to care about all Americans .............. One guy on tv says another Katrina or big storm could kill New Orleans which wud be terrible for the people there and whole country .


The Republican convention starts tomorrow , it's up in Minnesota where I've never been .Looks nice on tv though . McCain's choosing the woman from Alaska has everyone talking . Happy to see a woman named the vp candidate , it's all the more interesting since you don't expect progress from Republicans . Although a woman she looks like a big right winger who moi is automatically against . Some on tv are saying her lack of much experience hurts McCain's chances of using the whole experience thing against Obama . She has only been governor a year and a half and before that was the mayor of a 7,00 person town .


Work at the country club today and do hope I am back in good favor after calling in sick the other week . Will try to be extra nice to all my co-workers . May Wah should be back from China so it will be interesting to hear what she has to say about her trip with some of the rich members over there.Hope she brings pictures .


Heading out in a pink Lacoste dress ( from a yard sale ) and there will be in the uniform of a white blouse ,Kelly green jumper dress with nude garter stockings and brown flats.

[Lena]

A holiday weekend...................Labor Day here .Originally set up to honor unions but nowadays to honor all working people .


Also the official end of the summer even though it's supposed to stretch into September . Mainly since school is back in session .


Also the also not written down but official star of the presidential race. The Republicans are having there convention this week but it's already underway .


Moi is all for Labor Day , anyone who has a job and works deserves to have a day set aside to honor them . More important too when your from the permanent underclass where folks don't like working wanting to party 24/7 .Looking to welfare or temp jobs with some even dope dealing to pay the bills . Do love partying and sleeping in but that way of life does something to you , eats away at your soul .I'm not saying there shouldn't be welfare and understand more then most how many and it.But as hard as work an be especially not being paid much and , bad hours, shithead bosses, and not being paid much you do get a sense of pride from it that is great . and althe crap as bad as it is helps motivate me to move up the food chain making more money ...........


Moi is all for unions .We all need protection , the companys /management only care about money . Including keeping as much of it for themselves as possible at the expense of the people who do the actual work . So regular people have to get together to make sure there treated right and get there fair share . Sad to say unions are dying here, it's complicated going mainly back to the death of industry . Many states too have laws that go against unions called right to work laws where you don't have to join a union or pay union dues .


This week-end has been good for my blogs here. Since Friday this blog has had just under 500 hits My other one in the regular blog area has had over 1,100 hits too. made a new entry these yesterday about our in and out trip to WASHINGTON DC. Check it out , you get a tour guide to some sites there that could come in handy in case you ever go there as well as steamy XXX rate story about when I was there 6 years ago and my sense of patriotic duty led me to sleep with 2 marines . Actually patriotism wasn't involved, it was more lust .My best friend Leslie and I were up there visiting a friend and very happily capped the tip with a nite of cheap and kinky sexual passion with the 2 jarheads . We definitely found A FEW GOOD MEN ............... I waddled for most of the next day too


Getting that entry up was hard too. Was long so it took alot of work .Also ran over time and had to leave finishing for later since I had to run to the country club . I actually punched in exactly one minute before the star of my shift which was not good since there still mad at me for calling in sick late the other week . my co-workers were very cool to me ( the coldness reminded me of years ago back at the MARRIOTT when I came back to work after almost dying of anorexia and spending 6 weeks in the hospital including the psych ward ) for the first few hours before warming up later .Nothing room full of rich people wanting food and drink to bring us all closer.A m sure server Nikki is bad mouthing me to everyone since she's P O 'd I am not a rich people worshipper like her and also Carlene says she wants to look down on hillbilly moi to feel better about herself . What a dough ball.............


A busy day for us . Going by Karin's brother's place for a family bar b que .Moi is even dressing up for politics sake , a yellow u-neck T shirt and yellow check shorts .One of the outfits we got at the Hijacked Truck sale . If I didn't have that huge tattoo if the sun on my left shoulder in that outfit I'd look sweeter then sugar despite all the wildness and debuchery ( new word ) inside moi . Then over to this one dyke named Edy's place since she's having a open house . I don't really know her but she's buddys with our amigas Lonnie and Cindy , all part of a gay parents group .


HAPPY LABOR DAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Lena]

Another good day for moi's blogs....................over 500 hits combined for both .Am very proud and happy about that .


Nice pay back by the goddess of justice for abused children When I was 10 and talking at a big family get together my father cut me off and when I started to cry about been interrupted about something I thought was as so important .But Diamond Jimmy being the cocksucker he was he just barked at me " Nobody gives a S*** about what you say about anything wart " and I cryed some more .Now that prick's dead and 500 times people looked to see what I had to say ..................... Sure more than any who cared what that overgrown child and lazy drunk ever had to say


Have a hangover this morning but it's not all that bad . Partyed to hard last nite at this open house. More on that ahead . The day started out when we stopped for the annual family bar b que at at my gf's brothers . They had about 15 people .......the 4 of them , Karin's folks , her now 9 month pregnant sister and the overgrown little boy she's married too ( ) , Denises' folks , her oldest sister visiting form Charleston along with her kids and us . A very American middle class family event , alot of smiling & joking . Nice though , as vile as my gf's brother in law is at least unlike with my people there's never any brawling or someone sneaking off with someone else's man for sex thinking it's cool ..............


The only mishap was Karin's niece dropping a hot dog on her .Leaving Karin's new white shorts smeared with catsup , mustard , and relish . For a second it scared me , guess my reaction wa automatic .Something like that with my family wud have been followed by a outburst full of swearing & name calling and maybe even a hand//fist across the child's face . But the attitude is different with these folks , Karin didn't blow up and even made it a point to tell her embarrassed little niece she wasn't angry & it was all right .


After stopping back at home to change we went to the dyke open house that was a whole new experience for us . We've both been around alot of kids ( at one point at my mom's there were 9 children under 10 ) and ofcourse dykes but never all together . Regular child free couples and singles too but the dominating element was dykes with kids ,maybe 20 of that kind of family .


In Old Louisville in a huge old wooden Victorian house. a huge garden in front and back .The host was older woman about 40 named Edy whose a lawyer. Nice enough , but we got the idea since we were so much younger she saw us as kids too . But Edy's coolness it was a nice party .There may have been so much going on in the world like the Hurricane Gustav and Sarah Palin mess but it didn't matter at the party . No one cared and was happily caught up in all having a good time .


Lonnie and Cindy were there with baby Jasmine who moi is proud to say recognized her right away .Lon and Cin are fine , like everyone else always busy with hardly any free time . Cindy is on the road 3 days a week which gets in the way of family life and puts alot on Lonnie too. But there struggling thru , they've got a good attitude about it all. Soon they and Karin were talking about how good Carla and Judy's vacation photos from Europe are . Do have to see them since I feel so left out when folks do the usual raving about them . I was even thinking this could be some form of divine punishment like I do when stuck around people who went to college which I didn't .


The kids were all around but mostly in the backyard where there was a huge swing set and sitters. The little ones ,were having a fantastic time . moi was jealous seeing some run thru the sprinkler . Looking at the children Karin and I both wanted to have babys since kids are so wonderful . But not until she's done with school and I'm out of bartending .Lonnie and Cindy were ina minority having brought baby Jasmine into the world themselves ( with the help of a penis person whose name we still don't know ) with most of the other kids being adopted . Except for one black woman all the moms were white while about half the kids were either black or Chinese . Karin got the idea most of the white kids were from Russia with 2 looking like they have the Fetal Alcohol Syndrome that also runs in my family .


Most of the moms were congregating in the kitchen and also tended to be older, in there late 30's - early 40's .Many looked well off too .No dominant theme to there talk but some of it was a little too self congratulating or whiney for me . Some moms ( so so typical yuppy ) were busy praising themselves as single moms and bragging about there kids .Yippee for them . A few others though were singing the blues about how hard it is being a single mom ( I could have told them that when I was a child from what I saw all around me ) but always seemed to follow it up with more bragging ............


But our friends and this one Italian ethnic or jewish woman Holly were all talking about life and the world which I always love . Holly has a 3 year old from China and is a special ed teacher . As fate always has it with me ended up with a few other women drinking & talking then drinking and drinking and also talking some more............... W left at about 10:30 PM getting home and drinking some more............. Moi can get romantic when drinking and while we were watching tv moi leaned over kissing Karin and talking dirty with the 2 of us soon ..............................


Going to be hot today again , in the mid 90's We're going to mess around not doing much of anything .Whatever it is we'll be indoors since it's so god awful hot .We both go back to work today too, Karin has to be at the hospital at 10 PM while I go into the county club earlier at 4PM . Today in a pink tank top and white mini . At the country club the uniform of a white blouse, Kelly green jumper dress along with nude thigh tops and brown flats .

[Lena]

Wednesday already ................where does time fly ? Nothing like a 3 day week-end to speed the work week along .


Was very very hot yesterday , again in the 90's . Summer this year as always has been too long and too hot . The heat and humidity just sap all the life out of you as well as leave you sticky always in need of another shower.Maybe I should move up north where it's cooler , another reason for Karin to apply for the state of Alaska program where she'd get a pharmacy degree and stay on for 5 years . At least we'd stay cool in the summer..............


Worked at the country club last nite , the same old same old . Meghan and I were the servers in the dining hall while Carlene handled the bar . They had a good crowd , many looking either refreshed or dog tired from the week-end . My favorite was 60 something with tick white hair ina tan suit who I overheard tel his wife how he was 'depleted ' from a long day in his boat yesterday along with on the other hand another 40 something woman who was overflowing with energy going on about how a long week-end of tennis and partys had recharged their batteries .In the lobby there's a new big photo display of all the activities that went on at the club during the summer from the 4th of July golf tournament , a tennis tournament ,and the kids golf , tennis ,and swimming programs ( you can tell learning rich peoples forms of leisure early on in are a priority to this bunch ) and semi formal summer dance . .I even saw myself in one photo , a beautiful shot of my back when I was working the golf tourny But what stuck out were a few photos from the big trip of several families accompanied by super woman server & future millionaire ( really ! ) May Wah and her sister to the Olympics in China . You could see it as being goofy showing no respect for a great historical site ( like having sex in a graveyard or something like that ) or just having fun but one was of two of the men and May Wah pretending to play golf on the great wall of China with writing underneath saying it was from the Chinese division of the annual 4th of July golf tournament . Moi respects historical things but still laffed ..............


I got home just before Karin left for work and we had a quickie She gets so tense and hyper about starting a new work week and I only wanted to help her get into a better frame of mind .TBH I was horny too .It was fun but definitely a rush job , she never got her undies and shorts completely off , both ending up around one ankle Along with the usual fun things moi ran to the fridge to bring back a icicle basically shaped penis that we both used to f*ck each other with . I never thought something so cold inside you could be so so erotic ................ After I finished using it on her Karin didn't want to go into work instead wanting to stay home for more fun & games but came to resign herself to her fate and go in .You really have to hand it to her as far as duty and dedication go . She's staying a little late this morning , should I be naughty and ty to relieve her stress and fatigue with more sex when she gets home ..................... ?Lord knows moi is certainly in the mood for some carnality


There's much news today . CNN says North Korea is going back on it's promise to tear down a nuclear weapons plant or something involving making atomic bombs.Oh great , maybe another war . Sad to say Jerry Reed has passed. Foreigners may not know about I'm but he was a very talented C &W singer , producer, and song writer.Very lively with a great sense of humor too . And very intelligent which too many outsiders don't associate with C&W people . He knew the music business inside and out and had also produced & acted in movies.


See too Sarah Palin story continues , now there saying the McCain camp didn't take a real deep look enough at her which means there could be more nasty surprises ahead .The story about her daughter being preggars has a real hot debate going about not just teen pregnancy but also how Sarah Palin is more interested in her career then kids .Thats the real issue here to me , girls have always gotten pregnant and it will never stop . The point is her mom whose a big right wing politician claiming to be so pro family didn't know .Since she's just out for herself being more interested in being a politico then mother . In the end she's no different from my mom and her sisters who were too busy chasing men and partying to care about there kids . A big reason about every girl was pregnant by 16 , moi was the last one getting knocked up at 18 . Also and more important to me is my mom and her sisters didn't care about all the hard stuff that comes with being a poor teen -age mom and here this vile creature Sarah Palin doesn't seem to care that her 17 year old daughter is being eaten alive by the media with NO end in site . Bet she's even screamed at her daughter Bristol for embarrassing mommy during her big moment


As a American I hope McCain throws that self absorbed hypocrite off the ticket .As a Democrat though hope she stays on being as stubborn and angry as that crazy mayor up to Detroit there trying to rid off about out about sticking around . Her staying the VP nominee can only hurt McCain and moi wants Obama to win .


Moi's going to take a shower and put on her short sexxy purple robe & these matching off purple thigh tops just in case my SO is in the mood......................


The work week at the hotel starts again tonite . Leaving in a brown tank top and lite grayish green thin canvas mini . Planning at work to wear the penguin suit and black orthies .

[Lena]

Must say we did have fun yesterday , spontaneous sex can easily be the best sex.


Moi lounged around in the purple robe and off purple thigh tops eagerly awaiting Karin's return from work . Even had a screwdriver to add to the mood. Also broke out some of our toys like the strap-on, a dildos As I sat there sipping my drink and examining our toys my always dirty and devious mind went over all sorts of ideas of the fun we could have ................. Some distractions ............but while presenting complications they also got me feeling better about myself and in the process feeling EVEN MORE sexual . The distractions didn't have anything to do with sex either , more about me being more mature then I used to be so I didn't have to flaunt my sexuality to shock people .


First Steve the jocko macho rail police from upstairs came down to ask us over sunday nite for a celebration of his gf's Delores's b'day ( she's turning 35 ....... ) which was real nice . In the past moi wud have opened the door and stood there knowing it wud get Steve very excited, even encouraging it by doing something like exposing a big part of one of my breasts or pulling up one of my stockings .But not yesterday , while I have no problem exposing mys elf and do love the attention can't do that with Steve since he's a friend and I do like Ms . Delores .Don't want any confusion about what the relationship is and also don't want to be playing games with a man whose been good to us .


The second was a group of elderly ladies that came by to see our other neighbor the wonderful Marie . That's really great they all get out and social .I wonder if 50 years from now we'll be doing that with our friends now like Carla and Judy or Leslie ( who am sure at 70 something will still be getting in trouble ) or Corvah and Ronnie Raye ? Hope so ! I w as just about to go out and check the mail when the golden girls came in but being only in the mini robe and stockings scooted real fast back into our unit . Phew ! Thinking how relieved I was for avoiding getting us all embarrassed Out of nowhere ( I get alot of ideas out of nowhere, maybe it was all that glue when I was 11-14 or the drugs & bottle ) of how as a kid even as younger adult I wud love doing things to shock /embarrass people for fun . Including old ladys . There's a long list , like at 14 when at this big mall we saw a group of seniors bused into shop and to set them off cousin Francie and I started to make out saying how we loved each other and no man wud ever come between us . Or at 16 when my black bf and I knowing the result started making out and groping in front of several black community leaders touring our school . each time sending some into outer space with shock and anger.................


But no more, don't need that anymore. Was now looking forward to some nice pleasure bonding with the woman I love. When she came in Karin didn't notice me , she being preoccupied with going over the mail ( she actually gets upset if bills are late while I am glad and hope whoever we owe money too forgot to send one ) then when asking me what I'd been up to to see me there in the lingerie with a wicked smile on my face ...................... 'Noooooooooo she said, I've been at work for 10 hours and smell " . I kept smiling and walked over running my bare stockings clad left foot up & down her leg saying how we should have some fun , then opening up the robe exposing myself and also metaphorically my L-U-S-T !!!!!! She as 50-50, you could tell she wanted to have fun but that colossal sense of responsibility of hers was still holding her back . Saying " I need sleep , for f*ck's sake I'm a ICU nurse and have to back at 11 tonite . I need to rest !!" . Moi didn't let it end there , nozzling up to Karin I put my arms around her , kissed her , then adding how I had a special way to make her more relaxed . That was enough , Karin saying " Oh what the hell and unbuttoned her pants letting them drop to the floor ...............


Lets see to be brief ..........for the next few hours plenty of straight person to person sex with no toys .Always is the best since it's just the two of us enjoying each other . She came close to fisting me which was a mix of erotic and dangerous . We took turns f*cking each other with the strap-on , the be ben wa a balls were marvelous , vagina use only . My ass is saved for icicles and ofcourse wooden spoons . At one point she squirted in my face ........... Also moi was standing on the bed as Karin beat me off with her hands and a foot . While we cuddled and talked Karin fell asleep with a smile on her face . I had gotten so sweaty had to take another shower. Right before leaving went into kiss her good bye and she looked gorgeous , lying there naked except for the sheet across her booty , hugging my robe as if it was me, and one of my thigh tops she had put on earlier now bunched up around her ankle ................


When I got to work Capt'n Tom in security told me I looked extra happy and wanted to know if anything special was going on . I smiled saying except am in a good mood. You really can't be honest and tell a 55-60 year old man you've just been swimming in the sea of Sapphic Lust Barb noticed too and as she walked me and the bank to the bar told her how I had spent the morning getting some . Right there in the lobby surrounded by guests and managers she suddenly burst out laffing . She later called me in the bar telling me never to do anything like that again since no sooner had she dropped me off the MOD wanted to know what was so funny and she also got weird looks from a guest .


Naturally muey mucho gossip at work . My boss and I hope still good friend and carita the sous chef have veryoen talking . He was MOD monday and she spent the nite in his room . Although he told me not to do it ahve decided to TT his wife Marla . Wish me luck there, am calling her today . Barb told me too one of our favorite coyotes Myrtle was caught coming out of a midget's guest room tuesday . She said she and security Donnie , who has a crush on me I hear ( poor guy even if I was straight I'd feel sorry for any man stuck with me ) .They also had a hard time keeping a straight face and burst into laffter when they wondered about the size of the midget's gizmo ................ The general manager leaves for 2 weeks vacation this saturday too ! He and his wife ( who I hear in her younger days had also been a cocktail waitress ) are going back to China to adopt a second baby girl . Good for them !!!!! Front desk manager April who've I've always gotten along with is acting manager.


Hot but rain today . Today in a navy blue T shirt and jean cut offs . At work the penguin suit & orthies .

[Lena]

Nothing about lacivious sexual activities today .......sorry .


Yesterday morning was fun , thought about it at work all nite at work .Including when I m'bated on break . Mental note to self : Do a post about alll the places I've masturbated at work . My gf loved it too, she usually sleeps from 9AM -maybe 6PM but yesterday since we were having so much Sapphic fun she didn't fall asleep till noon then sleeping to 8PM .Waking up she said completely rested and in a wonderful mood .



Am happy our relationship is on track and wish I could say the same for my friends Marla & Brendan . Eeeck , the crap has hit the fan with them . On one hand it has me very sad since they have been such good friends and as corny as the word sounds 'role models ' too. Think there the first couple I ever knew who were faithful and level headed . Everyone else always cheated and things could get wild with screaming , hitting , and the whole break-up then make -up cycle but not them . They were loyal and things stayed on a even keel with 'em .Watching them had me wanting to have the same thing with Karin . Now this horse manure................ I don't want to lose my role models and figure I owe it to them as a friend to try to help .



I tryed talking to Marla yesterday calling her at work .She kept me on hold for awhile then was cool to the point of being frigid .I was shocked and didn't know what was going on with her.The fist thing she said ( after Hi Lena ) was 'was in a angry way 'Did Brendan make you do this ? " I told her no and since the cat was out of the bag so to speak came out and said how the word is how thee having trouble and I wanted to know if I could help . That was followed by another long silence , so long in fact I even wondered if anyone was at the other end of the line . Then Marla in a flat monotone voice said there was nothing I could do then got paranoid telling me 'the next time have Brendan do his own dirty work in the snoop department " .I tryed telling her how calling was my own idea and Brendan had already asked me not to get involved but don't think she believed me .Wasn't long before she said we couldn't talk more since she had to go to a meeting , when I asked if we could have a drink or lunch she said she'd call me about a date . As of this morning don't think she's going to call.............ever !



At work last nite Brendan was too busy to notice let alone talk to me as he always had before. His thing with sous chef Carita is big talk among the staff .The office busy body Savannah from accounting who I never talk to came up to me in the employee cafeteria trying to pump me for info as if I was the Perez Hilton of the hotel . I told her I didn't know anything which is the actual case . But Savannah kept digging asking nosy questions like have Brendan and Marla seemed happy when I've seen them , did he ever hit her, and the most annoying of all have I done anything like go to dinner or party with Brendan and Carita outside of work ................... Again I said no which am sure that gossip monger didn't believe . Seeing moi wudn't talk she soon left .



Maybe there having trouble since because of the 7 year curse, they've actually been together closer to 8 years but we're still in the same ballpark . Have seen /heard of other couples being together that long and getting bored with each other so they start looking elsewhere. Or maybe it's just the hotel business that got in the way .The work can be so intense that it can very fast draw people close together, including romantically . Moi has seen that many many times .Happy to say my work place relationships have always been all about plain and simple sex though . Managers like Brendan work 50 plus hour weeks and he's actually around Carita more then his own wife and kids. Or and it's hard typing this maybe Brendan has that way too typical penis person disorder of always being on the look out for cheap sex ..............



I'll stop now , don't want to obsess and bore you all. Also don't want to be thinking about this no doubt complicated problem all day .Maybe I should follow the lead of Avrah one of the company's lawyers who was once in the bar and when a bunch of suits were all caught up talking about the executive VP's messy plus divorce . She refreshingly said she doesn't worry about any relationship except her own . Thats sounding more and more like the really smart thing to do .



Works going to be busy all week-end , they even asked me to come in sunday which I can't since am committed at the country club and figure I am still on thin ice there after calling in sick 2 weeks ago . Tonite do a reception for another convention then the bar . Saturday do another reception in the afternoon then a wedding . The hotel has Brian Regan staying saturday too.Starting saturday too the hotel filling up with performers and fans here for a huge gospel music fest .Popularity wise in these parts gospel music is right up there with guns ,grits and pick up trucks .............



The rain is coming down in buckets now .The temps have fallen over 20 degrees since earlier in the week from the mid 90's then to about 72 today . Am going to grab my rain poncho and go for a long walk . Do hope it can help get my mind of my friends troubles .Today in white U-neck top and jean skirt & my old beat up/beyond saving brown clogs that will be perfect for walking in the rain . .At work the black cocktail waitress dress , nude garter stockings ,and black flats .

[Lena]

Moi woke up with a cold this morning , sniffles, sneezing & feeling sore. Hope it passes , plan on playing tennis later and don't want anything getting in the way .Yesterday's' rain was wonderful , bet I walked over 2 mile in in . They''ve had me on Xanax  and Quaalude along with even anti-psychotics when I've been in psych wards but at that this point none were as good at calming me down as walking in the rain . Don't want to sound new ageish ( which I always thought was mumbo jumbo ) but the rain usually does wonders for my brain and soul . My gf says I should consider living in the show or  ,maybe if she'd join me  . The rain rolling down the back of my bare legs felt so natural .At one point came on a huge pond that had formed on a lawn and spread over the sidewalk . Taking my clogs off walked thru it feeling almost like a child again   . Passed by a  letter carrier , although they brag about how " Neither the rain nor snow will stop the US Mail " the poor woman was obviously suffering and wanting to be someplace else. Came across a few joggers too.


At work I wore the black cocktail waitress dress which is a week-end tradition for me a work . I walk in rough edged moi and after putting on that dress along with a silver chain and stockings suddenly turn into a femme fatale . Last nite I was pretending to be RITA HAYWORTH in GILDA . Sad to say they announced starting next week we won't be able to eat in the family restaurant anymore .No surprise there, it's not as if the company ever cared about giving us edible meals . The Health department has said it's OK to get the employee cafeteria going again .The rats & mice having been eliminated .................at least for the time being .   You can imagine how 'wonderful ' I felt last nite eating delicious Fettuccine Alfredo knowing we'll all soon be back to cold hamburgers and watered down soda in the employee cafeteria ...............


Gossip gossip gossip too..........Rick or New York Rick as he likes to be called ( even though don't think he's from NYC but hours away over by Niagara Falls ) a chef in the kitchen told me he thinks sous chef Carita is preggars by my boss and at least one time good friend Brendan . That wud be something . I just shook my head then saying how we all know how gossip gets out off hand so we can't believe anything till we've seen proof .New York Rick just laffed and nodded in agreement .We both know that too from personal experience , over the years moi's been accused of everything from having a sex change to marry a lesbian manager& doing the sex for pay thing while with New York Ricks there's been talk he's dying of AIDS since he's gay and also a heroin addict .


They had me sit in the bar manager's office for over a hour just waiting to work a private reception in one of the banquet rooms .Boring . The actual reception was busy , guess it being a friday nite people wanted to relax and what better way to go to a free bar complete with table full of orderves ? The private partys on fridays are always the most fun , it being the start of a week-end people are looser and drink , laff , and best of all tip more Moi even got propositioned , this time by a tall thin 30 something man with a wedding ring . I blew him off with a smile though to be ncie and TBH since I loved him being interested t in me ...........


After that took over the bar from Rafael who was very glad to leave .The place gets to all of us at times . Things were pretty steady there too. Best of all my favorite customer whose a very a cool 60 something geezer who is this very attractive mix of blue collar & world wiseness Mr . Dyson came in , this time in a black tuxedo . He looked at me saying ' Hello young lady , the usual for me and please take good care of my friends from south of the border" while nodding at this 40-50 something middle aged couple . I knew right away they were from Mexico or below , those Latin Americans definitely do have there own look since the women can depending on how you see it over do it with make up and jewelry and the men can be more of a dandy then American men . The woman was in a gold gown with a cowl neck which I haven't seen too often , still a gorgeous dress and with diamonds galore from a huge necklace & earrings as well as tennis bracelet . Her wedding ring was so big cocktail waitress Narla was calling it THE ROCK OF GIBRALTOR. Too much make -up though , she really really overdid the eye shadow . Gave her a bitchy even sinister quality . Her hubby was in a tux too, with a turned up collar I guess to look extra elegant . Unique hair ,moused down onthe sides but almost uncombed on top .


Both seemed on guard focusing only on Mr. Dyson at first speaking only in Spanish .I noticed too how Rafael just stared at them but said nothing to them on his way out ...............? It was no surprise Mr . Dyson spoke Spanish but not in a fancy sounding way but instead in his blunt direct way . I guess what you could call real American accented Spanish but he had no trouble keeping up with them . Was funny too hearing both the woman & man call him " Rico " or as they said it ' Reeeco " which I guess is short for Richard which is his first name . They were in a big talk though obviously having a good time .Only knowing a few words of Spanish I couldn't understand ................wud have been a great conversation to listen in on There were other customers so couldn't spy on them like I wanted ................


But somehow the talking shifted to English and I was able to listen in , all the time while pretending to be working . The people from Honduras a place I've never heard of but see on my map here in front of the monitor is just south of Guatemala. The lady spoke formal but flawless English while her husband spoke English with a bit of a accent .The more they talked in English the more open and liter they got . Think they were horse people since a lot of talk about horses. Also a funny story about going deep sea fishing with them catching a big fish that had both Mr. Dyson and the man along with 2 others doing there best to reel in . They all had a second round with more laffing and storys . They left after the third round , very happy and with Mr. Dyson and the man singing some happy sounding Spanish song with the wife looking amused but also embaressed at the same time . .


Off to tennis having a cold or not . Today in a lite gray T shirt & jeans . At work the black coktail waitres uniform , nude garter stockings ,& black flats .

[Lena]

Up early today ...................a convoy of police cars and fire engines with there sirens blaring woke me and I can't get back to sleep .Hope to be able to take a mini nap later .


Is it just me or do Cindy McCain , Paris Hilton and Barbie all look alike ? I swear they do . I didn't know it till friday but McCain met his wife in a bar while he was married to another woman . And to think how those Republicans make such a big deal deal about morality and family values.............. Maybe theres a chance for me in politics since so much of my life has been spent hanging around bars and moi too has quite the history with married /mated men .


Happy to say my morning cold I'd woken up with had disappeared by noon which was a major relief .Only got to play a few sets of tennis yesterday since Lonnie and I were thrown off the court Some people had reserved it so the park manager tossed us off................. Public courts may be free but you still have to worry about other people reserving them .Dammit !!!! Lonnie and I both laffed later how if they did that with basketball courts in rough places like my old neighborhood . Nobody in there right mind wud think about asking the guys to get off the court since it could get violent real easy since the guys are usually young & crazy and it's all mixed up with macho nonsense in the 'hood . I have no doubt doing that could easily lead to shooting .


Work went fine last nite . Coming in had what will be my last meal in the family restaurant since when I get back from my days off next week the employee cafeteria will be up and running again . Adios food fit for human consumption , hello stale molding crap that's been laying round for days/weeks . Last nite had a shrimp and pasta salad with clam sauce that was delicious . Next week who knows , maybe a dry stale hamburger or watery soup Got pumped again about my boss and friend Brendan , this time by Suzette a front desk clerk who is very very into the hotel and staff . I played dumb , saying I didn't know anything .Have decided I have done all I can to help Brendan and Marla and am trying not to worry about it anymore. I really can't do anything to help especially since neither one wants to talk and don't want to beat myself up with anxiety about them . That's all the more important since my own recent troubles at home really took alot out of me and who wants to go from one crisis to another in life ?


I spent 90 minutes working a private reception with my old partner Rafael after that . They really didn't need 2 bartenders since there were only 6 people and they weren't a bunch of big drinkers. So Rafael and I had a chance to catch up . He's fine , very proud but also nervous about his oldest daughter starting college . Like about every Mexican I've met he and his wife ( who is nice to me but know sees me as a sex crazed alcoholic perverted demon * ) only went to grade school and now they have a genuine college student in the family . But being as conservative as he is all concerned about meeting boys / crazy people / drugs and especially spring break when they say those college students go insane partying . I told him she'll be fine and he was very very glad to hear that . Little does he know what Carmelita is going to see Alos for his own good hope Rafael gets the attitude that most parents of college students develop " What I don't know can't hurt me " ................


After that in the lobby saw the couple from Honduras who were in with Mr . Dyson ( or Reeeeco as they called him ) the nite before. Again all dressed up , the wife in a very well tailored white pant suit and white heels along with of course jewelry galore with the hubby in a yellow Lacoste polo shirt with the collar turned up and khaki pants with alligator loafers along with a thick white cotton sweater stylishly tied over his shoulders. They were very nice , even warm .The two of them had been out shopping with the doorman following them with a whole luggage cart filled with bags . Don't they have stores in Honduras Moi noticed to that the woman had a real upper class aura while the man as overdone as he was clothes wise also had Mr. Dyson's mix of blue collar and sophistication . Does he want a gringa pomosexual mistress ? Best of all the woman told me how " Reeco says you are magnifique " with her hubby nodding & smiling in agreement


Later worked a wedding reception which actually stood out from the other 40 + or so I do every year .Alot more lively in part thanks to the fact the father of the bride and his other daughter were life of the party types and what turned out to be huge lesson or maybe better put insight into the world of romantic attraction . Really had me thinking as I watched it all and later on the way home . Will post about it tomorrow .


Since I got out early at 11:30Pm or 2330 Euro time had some extra energy and gave some thought to heading over to the TRIANGLE which is the big gay area here for a few drinks and fun . But as I got closer began to think that wasn't such a good idea. Don't want to give anyone especially Karin the idea I'm cheating . The trouble a few months ago after I f*cked with Monica while drunk has made me paranoid about even the appearance of cheating and all this trouble between Brendan and Marla has intensified it . So didn't and headed back to the crib . Being home with the cats and watching tv may not have been as wild as stopping at a girl bar but was definitely safer !!!!!


Today work at the country club again .Then lucky me will finally get a chance to see Carla & Judy's famous vacation pictures of there trip to Italy and Austria . Karin and everyone else whose seen 'em says there fantastic making you feel right there .There coming over here for dinner .Heading out in the tan army style dress with the button up front and belt with nude garter stockings and Dr . Scholls. At work the cheery uniform of a white blouse , Kelly green jumper, and brown flats .






* She's not the only person with that opinion either but then again I don't want to brag about my finer points