Thank You Marilyn King !

[Lena]

It's morning and raining ..............

The rain may bother some but it's still better then the snow they predicted .The atmosphere oozes outside with the rain coming down and leaves changing colors and falling . I feel so happy and energized because of it all. Maybe later go hang around a area in Old Louisville full of used bookstores & coffee places . Be great people watching too.


Had a good time at Frieda's coffee place over by the university yesterday . Although I am about to colleges as whales are to the desert it's always fun being over by the school .So much energy in the air and all those brite young people running around .Not to mention all the wonderful the memorys coming back of the times I'd visit Karin at the library and we'd go f*ck in the basement . I wonder if anyone found the undies I threw off in the heat of passion and we could never find ?


Frieda's place was packed with the lunch crowd . Although the menu's limited and prices for food are steep ( I couldn't afford to eat there ) the students and professors flock there to eat .Maybe since it's a good alternative to fast food crap which we Americans are all OD'd on ? And more likely then not since despite being expensive the atmosphere is so good .Being so nice with the shiny wood floors , fresh coat of soothing tan paint ,and the plants . You do feel good just being there that is for sure. Also gets a good crowd despite that one group of way too over self- impressed group that thinks they are the smartest people in town and maybe even the smartest people in history who are always either in deep talks about big subjects or in one way or another trying to impress each other with what cool thing they did .Freeds always say while there full of there own crap you find people like that in colleges all over the planet so they sort of blend in with hardly anyone paying them mind .


When I got there as usual the slightly manic the stick thin with bleached white crew cut Freeds was running around like a chicken that just had it's head cut-off but all the time being focused on several things . Like making sure the staff ( that has to change weekly causing her grief ) was doing its job, glad handing the customers,and on her phone talking to a stockbroker .Moi always wishes she had 1/10the energy of that woman . We sat down for a few minutes to talk but Freida was soon back to the multitasking , one of the clerks came over saying they need change and her eldest daughter Annalise whose 11 called from school wanting to go over to a friends later .Wasn't long before super Frieda was on the jazz again running taking care of everything ............


Right after she zoomed off moi spotted her buddys/admirers with a third older man at the corner so smiling all the time I went over . Everyone was all smiles too , being there age they were real gentlemen and even stood up . No pecking either, just nice warm hand shakes which felt a little strange ( men will always try to get whatever they can off you , even my great uncle always tryed shoving his tongue down my throat when you'd have to hug him at family things ) but nice . When they introduced me to there friend one of the old guys even remembered my name with me surprised since I thought he'd us there nick name for me 'barefoot princess' instead We all sat down , they wanted to turn the conversation to moi but I said don't let me interrupt and there friend who was some type of nature professor went back to eagerly ( those professors all sure seem to be in love with there subjects ) telling about the evolution of the skeleton of iguanas in South America.That was real ironic since I had been giving alot of thought to that lately ...........NO But it meant everything to the old boy and while don't think my friends were excited about iguana spines since one teaches sociology and the other english you could tell they could relate to how someone could be madly in love with a topic .


After reptile man finished the talk got more informal and personal . At first they were all eager to listen to my story but as I have heard from some smart people I backed off and instead asked them what was going on . One of the men had gone to Corfu to celebrate his 45thewedinga anniversey . That's where member Gay & Proud went to this summer I recalled just telling them someone I knew was there too. Think they were surprised I even knew Corfu existed, of course a few years back they wud have been right .Sounded like they had a great time swimming & sailing along with drinking what he said was a powerful Greek liquor called OZO but called OZOE which sounds so strong it could clean out your sinuses. .Moi made a mental note to give it try , as a alcoholic am intensely curious about all things alcohol The other other man went to his niece's wedding way out in Wyoming , I did admit to all that was the first time I ever heard anyone going there for anything and even before finishing began to feel like a fool for sounding like such a hick but all 3 laffed to saying how Wyoming really is off the beaten path . Then moi talked , best to be yourself not trying to sound intelligent or classy . Especially since these guys are so much older & beter educated with important jobs . I could easily imagine status conscious Cassady from work trying to impress them with talk of only going to the finest restaurants or showing her latest new pair of shoes or if you really want to see a fool's parade my auntie Margaret whose 58 flirting away and dropping what she'd think wud be the mind blowing ultra impressive news how she's so high ' falutin she loves Scotch and has a 19 year old lover.


Moi just said how we went on vacation to the east coast including NYC which got them all going . All were from or had spent time there and loved talking about the town . Was nice to see them not look shocked when I said we were at 2 museums.Then more talk after I mentioned how we were mainly in Boston and how people talk funny there. Much laffter at that although have to believe they were saying how ironic it is to have a body like me with a still thick as tar hillbilly accent say someone/anyone else talks funny .. After mentioning Cape Cod we soon all agreed we'd love to live on the ocean . The english professor asked me how bartending was going and so I proudly told him how I'd been promoted to afternoon manager of the whole which had them all jump back in there seats then happily congratulating me .Made me feel very good !


We talked about hotels and the election ( like moi all had voted for Obama ) and the rough economic times I never thought about it but UL is having a rough time because of the recession too, more students are trying to get financial aid and some are dropping down to pt or dropping out all together. Also any job posted from janitor to secretary to professor gets hundreds of applications . We really are in trouble................


After about 45 minutes our reunion broke up with more handshakes all around . moi invited all to drop in the hotel for a free meal anytime but joked just bring one person not your entire class which had them laffing away . Frieda came over for a few minutes and it was fun with al of us talking . Freeds handles those academic peopel real good . The guys told me to come back soon . After they booked I joked to Frieda that to them I'm probably a curiosity if not a cliche what with take your pick the way I still talk hillbilly ,am a huge flirt , and as I have let them know in a same sex relationship . She smiled and said no , saying they like em since I'm real & nice and even smart ( especially amazing , slap me and call me Charley ) .Must say that news had me feeling pretty good . Freeds though wasn't about to let me get a swelled head , she joked in pretend disgust "If they only knew the real you Pruett ................." Pruett being my mom's maiden name and like I once told Frieda long ago over when sharing a bottle of JACK DANIELS being man addicted then getting fat like all Pruett woman do is about the last thing I ever want to .


Work was fine . Got busy which is good since the time passes quickly and do think I am at my best when there's a steady stream of things to do . JOHN PRINE was with us and saw him and his entourage get in from the concert they did here just before I left . Had the usually loud and confrontational hooker Rio arrested , she's already been banned from the premises for shopping herself around but treats the ban like it doesn't matter .So the general manager told me to be sure to have her locked up the next time she shows up .She really didn't like being taken off to the calaboose , on the way out she yelled at me she thought I was her home girl ( FAT CHANCE !!! ) and her being locked up just wasn't right .Moi has no doubt Rio will soon be back ..................


So now will clean up and head out to soak up this wonderfully atmospheric day . Do believe will wear dark brown wool turtleneck & jeans with a black cami / yesterday's brown pantyhose / black socks , my old brown clogs and red winter parka . At work tonite ( which will be a zoo with 2 weddings ) the navy blue skirt suit uniform with coordinated striped blouse along with nude garter stockings ( should I take a chance and wear a pair with seams ? ) and navy blue heels .

[Lena]

Cold here today , winter has definitely arrived . But that's all right , we had too much summer this year and the change in climate is a huge relief .


I woke up sore this morning no doubt the result of about a 2 mile walk yesterday when I was hanging around Old Louisville and then working my booty off at work . That was the hardest nite I have worked either as a manager and also without wearing undies .More on that tantalizing bit ahead .............


Did have fun walking around OL with it's huge wood houses that are at least 100 years old and huge trees.Not to mention the many many lush gardens that include big patches of flowers/bushes in the middle of the front lawn . Although being there was not without danger , a big dog tried mounting me and was almost hit by a yuppy on a mountain bike .He seemed more mad at me for being in his way then sorry about nearly hitting me too Looked like a real warhead in a bike helmet , two tone black and red fingerless gloves , and red spandex pants with a white stripe on the side. . Later thought he may have actually been in a super hero costume


The little shopping district was nice being so atmospheric instead of some soulless plastic shopping mall . All the stores were in actual old storefronts with tons of character . The impact of the recession was obvious there like most everywhere else . On the way over heard on the radio news that the big electronic store chain CIRCUIT CITY was going bankrupt so you have to figure if that can happen to a big company like that it can happen to mom & pop stores too.I saw more then a few empty stores and a huge red and white sign reading GOING OUT OF BUSINESS at this pricey shoe boutique . But still most stores were managing to stay in business at least for now . A good place for for people watching too , mostly UMC types and yuppies who like city life . The only person moi could relate too down there was the black female parking monitor since am sure she wasn't born into money & had to work for everything too.


Dropped in a huge old second hand bookstore that had mismatched and usually falling apart chairs for customers to sit and read in . The clerk was no hustling entrepreneur but a left over hippy from the 60's : in his late 50's with a shoulder length hair an a long beard dressed in a T shirt and overalls. Really the kind of person who shows up at the poetry slams at Frieda's coffee boutique and Earth day rallies .Sure wasn't customer conscious , don't think he knew or cared if anyone was in the store . He'd last maybe 15 minutes as a bartender with that attitude.


Rows and rows of old books about every subject imaginable . The occult section had some Goths pouring over everything while there was a 20'ish couple in track suits looking at gourmet cooking books too . A big talk going on at table in the corner between a attractive black woman in a head scarf and long brightly colored African style dress and these 2 white yuppy type guys about women and gender roles in Africa . She was really into it and knew a lot while the guys may have been going along but moi knew they were only talking about that as a way to get her into bed .For the millionth time I thought "Is the possibility of sex the only way women can get men to listen to there ideas ? " Looking back moi should have gotten her attention and sent some signals about me being interested in her to have some fun seeing if she 'd respond and make it all the more complicated for the 2 penis people .......... Why do I always get these ideas after it's too late ....................?


After that dropped into little shop with plants hanging in the window full of things to give your well off yuppies home a warm feel . Such as marble and brass plates to put over electric switches , reproductions of old posters ( art deco really did have it's own distinct style ) , what they claimed to be solid teak lamp tables, and all these gorgeous oriental rugs .And of course with everything very very over priced .Next to it was a ultra pricey children's' clothes store which had me again thinking about how bad I had it as a kid , there were no designer clothes for us and I didn't even have get my first own piece of clothing till I was 12 .Really is wrong and stupid to waste money on expensive clothes for a baby-toddler . But then switched to thinking how now I want to have a baby someday too and who knows will probably be tempted myself to get at least some baby clothes from a place like that . Don't want to ever let the anger and depression about what happened to me poison any kid I have .


Eventually found myself at a coffee place that had a good lunch crowd and a real nice relaxed atmosphere. . As moi drank her basic coffee with cream & sugar 9 in contrast to everyone else who send to be having exotic drinks like Ugandan blend with a dash of cinnamon and whipped cream or double semi-decaff latte with nut meg toppings ) listened in on 4 30 something women on there way home from yoga talking all things yoga . Then eavesdropped on 2 guys and a woman all in there early 20's who were exchanging stories about backpacking thru Europe last summer . Sounded wonderful.....beautiful old cities , being on all nite trains , meeting interesting foreigners . They don't know how lucky they are !!!!


But Lena's adventure in the land of the quaint , interesting , & over priced had to come to a end since it was getting to be time to go into work . Once at the hotel picked up the skirt suit uniform and took a shower . get back to my locker was surprised to see I had no undies since I had not worn any earlier ( the brown pantyhose instead ) and was not about to open myself up for gossip or pay the 500 % mark-up to go buy a pair in the gift shop .So all nite long under the thin layer 50-50cotton-dacron blend skirt it was nothing but a white garter belt and stockings . Also laffed to myself since I had thought about wearing seamed stockings for fun like I some times wud saturdays when a bartender but passed not wanting to seem so flamboyant but here I was commando . Usually I'd have fun with that feeling so free and sexual and for about the first hour at work I did . Although must say made it a point to keep my legs tightly together when sitting talking to some guests in the lobby . And made it a point to stay away from the security office till pt security Christophe left since moi would have had the temptation to have lifted up her skirt to show him how I was undies free and hoping he'd be the one who took the initiative after that . . Good lord am I becoming the master of self control !


BUT my adventures in being undies free soon came to a end since we got hit with a tsunami of work that made not have underwear on totally irrelevant . One can't enjoy the idea of a exposed pussy when your running around all over the place doing what seemed like a million things at once .The biggest thing was dealing with the two weddings ............including doing my actual job and at the same time helping Siobhan the ass't Banquet manager oversee both since one of her banquet captains didn't show up . Although I have enough experience waitressing & bartending you really have to be a detail person like Siobhan can be to run a big dinner/party and moi is definitely not that ! Still tried to do my best making sure everyone got served and the tables cleaned . Believe me it was not easy . Also at one wedding they ran out of beer and it took forever for the Mexicans to bring up new kegs so I had to go search for them with no luck either . Just as I was about to load it on a push cart and deliver it myself they emerged from someplace with the smell of pot on them Also a overflowing toilet in a public bathroom with the Housekeeping crew not putting that much effort into the clean up , security Donnie telling me security York was being obnoxious trying to boss him around , 2 coyotes working the bar , and a nasty argument between a 40 something married couple where I had to be social worker/police getting called a few names by the drunken husband with security York acting like he was in charge not moi ......................


By the time I left at 1:50AM was dead tired ( or in hillbilly "ded tard " ) only wanting to get home and drink . For the first time as a manager I even left in the uniform . Back home finished 3/4 of a bottle of Shiraz and fell asleep .Soon head to the country club to be champagne poured/bartender for the just re-started sunday brunch . Or as I sometimes call it 'HILLBILLY IN THE LAND OF THE RICH AND EDUCATED ". . Heading out in a black turtleneck , jean skirt with suntan pantyhose and brown clogs . After work we head a hour east for me to finally see Karin's new nephew along with his child - like mom and total asshole of a father but those are other issues .It''s the day for baby Nick and am sure he'll be wonderful.

[Lena]

Fate is cutting in on my Karin time Moi has to go in for the weekly manager's meeting AND also work today since we have a important guest coming in who they want pampered .All totalled will be to the hotel ( and mainly on my feet in those hideous heel things ) from 1AM or 1300 Euro time to 1-2AM tomorrow . Lucky me !!!!


Before though Karin and I are going to cram a days loving couples into a few hours . Or at least try too.Although what that will be hasn't been decided yet .The important thing is we're together and making something of it ............


FF commentary : The big bang cost this site something like 70,000 members . Was that expected ? Too bad though , hope the number rises. Also seems a few good people left because of the meanness they saw in R . Something that is pretty bad It happened before in 2005 with troll wars . Happy though to see my friend el Colonel and his wife become the proud parents of twin baby boys ! My congratulations to them !!


The country club switched back from ala carte meals to it's fall-winter sunday brunch that's been voted the best brunch in town in past years . Even though it was still the same people the atmosphere was real festive, the president of the club even got up to say a few words to mark the occasion . Many members were also actually happy about the return of the brunch too. I guess it brings even more happiness to there lives as rich people ......... Although TBH moi hates buffets and can't see the appeal of them . Lining up at a table to get food reminds me too much of the hogs feeding from the trough at my grandaddys back in Lawrence county . Also you have to wonder about the sanitation , how do you know if the person ahead of you getting potatoes washed his hands after using the bathroom ? You also tend to overeat which is not good for anybody . Drinking of course is another matter, am sure moi wud be a regular at any all-you-can -drink buffet .............


After that came home and we drove about a hour east for me to finally see Karin's new nephew baby Nick . Moi was still in her jean skirt which Karin said was only asking for trouble , her fool's fool brother in law Matt has a habit of glaring at women in skirts/dresses . But told her will have to risk that since I am not about to have her people thinking I'm some butch .Moi has no doubt they already see me as some wild semi civilized creature from the hills . A nice ride, not long after you get out of Louisville blue grass country starts and it 's like being in a painting .On the freeway you go by rolling hills, old farms ,and horses grazing .We decided the next time we we'll skip the freeway and take the old state roads which will be even prettier since you pass thru those quaint little towns ................


Although only a hour away from L'ville the town where Karin's sister stays is like another world . Mostly a farming town with plenty of churches but with gang graffiti which was a big surprise since there hardly any blacks or Mexicans there . A good place though for a gas bag like Karin's brother in law Matt to be a police though . He's always talking about what what a asskicker he is but do know from experience those kind of people are all mouth . As a cop he would have lasted about 2 days in my old neighborhood .Out in the sticks though he can carry a huge gun & talk tough feeling very safe that the wildest thing that may come his way will be a cow walking on the road or a stolen bike .


At Diane and Matts we found Karin's folks along with Matt's family including his folks , older brother Ed and the man's son Zeek and Matt's sister Lee Ellen . The house was a 2 story brick on the bottom & aluminium on top & 2 car attached garage . Not much furniture which is pretty common with people starting out . Matt did however make sure to buy himself a huge black leather recliner chair that only he is allowed to sit in even when there's company .There were alot of photos including if Diane and Matt at there wedding and at the wedding up to Cleveland but mostly of egomaniac and wanna be ultra macho Matt .......... Matt in his high school football uniform , Matt with a big rifle hunting , Matt in his karate suit , Matt with his shirt off as if he was ARNOLD SWARTZNEGGER , Matt dressed in a cowboy hat and long cowboy coat holding a big sharp pole at a wild pig hunt , Matt in his police uniform , and strangest of all Matt in a black outfit as if he was going out for halloween as a ninja . Actually maybe it was a halloween costume In the kitchen I whispered to Karin who thought it was naughty but funny how I had the idea we were in MATTLAND . :lol


But it wasn't all bad when we were there .Karin's mom Diane senior complimented me for looking nice and then telling Karin who was in track pants she should wear a skirt more often .Baby Nick is wonderful too , real cute with lite blond hair and blue eyes . Getting big too, already at 11 pounds . As big a over-groweed child as I think his mom is must say Diane looks very good.She's very happy feeling so fulfilled about being a mom . She dotes on baby Nick too He was real popular too, about everyone had to hold him .Including both of us , both grannies moms ,both granddaddy's and auntie Lee Ellen He didn't do any crying either . Karin's ultra perfectionist mom was busy cleaning and tidying up things although the house was neat & clean .But seeing how she 's so compulsive and paranoid about first /messes guess she had to do all that . As I watched my semi mother in law run around practically in white heat was happy I am a slob and Karin is nowhere near that bad about cleaning ................ They have huge adorable Saint Bernard dog too named Eric . I loved him , slipped him a few pieces of lunch meat from the little buffet Diane set out . He stayed close to me after that wanting more food .


Holding baby Nick got us both thinking about motherhood again . It really is a experience neither of us want to miss and at times both of us wud love to have little ones running around .The key to the whole thing is the timing . Both of us are firm believers in not having a child unless you can support it and give it a lot of love. For me coming from seeing to any women starting with my own family have kids early not being able to afford or give them the love they deserve .with the kids ending up hurt or even ruined for life . For Karin it's since that's what she was raised with and not just since her mom is such a ultra perfectionist either . Her folks were married for 4 years before there first child waiting till they were settled in there jobs with some bank saved up .For us the earliest will be maybe 4 years when Karin's out of pharmacy school .That's along time but better then jumping the gun .


Maybe the baby softened me up but as much as I dislike that yankee warhead Matt it's easy to see how he ended up such a colossal insecure neurotic loudmouth trying to fool everyone he' s a tough guy and so totally selfish after seeing his people .TBH his family didn't act at all homphoic including no dyke jokes from his oaf of a brother .But they are a right strange bunch .His mom was real hyper and no matter what the subject talked in a angry way as if she was bothered by something inside or thought being almost confrontational made her smart ? Too much for me , as she harped away on everything from the Sloppy Joes Diane made to the election I just smiled since I have heard many many scared angry windbags like her before . Karin said she's done time in psych wards in the past and takes meds for about everything from slowing down to getting to sleep ...... no surprise to this girl !!! Matt's dad was quiet but when he did talk you could really was a big know it all and bossy . He was ordering Diane around even though it was her own house then ordering his his 35 year old daughter Lee Ellen around like she was a pet . Not all that friendly to Brad , Karin's dad either . The two siblings were odd .Lee Ellen is 35 but has never left home and is real fat . Matt's' brother Mark is about 40 and comes off as a real yahoo.While Matt claims to be the snake eater's snake eater and a solid right winger this guy is also Mr. Macho but also the deepest thinker ever into the new age mumbo jumbo . Still goes to his folks for money too . Nice to see another family , especially a UMC one as dysfunctional as mine ...................


Back in town we hit a girl bar but soon left , nobody was there and the place was downright depressing . So came home and watched tv .Then it was sex time .................won't get into the exact details but the crotch of my pantyhose got ripped open and they are now only any good as a toy for the cats to drag around, Karin got a spanking for not wearing a skirt that day ,and we have to wash the sheets today since motion lotion gets funky after a day or so


Semi dressed now ....................In a pink blouse with a white collar and cuffs along with white bikini briefs and nude thigh tops. Being the attention hoare I am have the desire to dance in front of the window facing the street Sure wud liven up the day of joggers /letter carriers/dog walkers/and this one 70 something man who always passes most weekdays at this time . But won't , will finish off getting into a blue pencil skirt and blue heels . Think we're going to do lunch then window shop . At work tonite the blue skirt suit uniform and coordinated striped blouse.

[Lena]

Posting late , was to tired to do so earlier . Moi ended up staying at work till 3 AM , making it 14 hours straight with most while on my feet . Lucky lucky me ...............


Karin and I had a nice time before work walking around the big 4th street Mall downtown ..........it was almost empty and felt like our own personnel playground . Monday mornings are slow in retail here anyway and there is of course the big recession . Saw a few stores at whats the fanciest mall in the city with signs they were either going out of business or having sales . The people just aren't buying anything Even with the sales things there were too pricey for moi Had lunch too , nice to be able to slip my heels off and chill. Also am proud to say DID NOT have any alcohol since I had to got to work . When I start usually can't stop and it wud be a very very bad idea to show up drunk at the hotel ................


The manager's meeting was the same old same old . Someone should come up with a way not to have those boring /get nothing done meetings so you can just do your job .Already mentioned it in MEMBERS CHIT CHAT but mentioned at the meeting how saturday nite was a real freak show for me with all sorts of new or crazy things coming at me . Including the disgusting experience of trying to get a always overflowing toilet in a public bathroom fixxed . Although moi is as coordinated as a pregnant hippo and was in heels I was still able to jump like a Olympic athlete out of the path of the YELLOW RIVER flowing towards me . Really was nasty . So was putting up with a new security a retired air force guy who talks at everyone and listens to no one . He's been on the payroll for only a week and is already po'ing most everyone he deals with . Including me who he shut out when we had to deal with this crisis of a arguing couple That did all however lead everyone else to come up with there own terrible storys some of which were bizarre but funny . The hotel business is not all glamour and fun as most outsiders and many new people working in it think . You deal with all kinds of people and all kinds of situations with a X amount of both being insane . But it really turned out to be a great bonding session ...................


The special guest HC Jr. from NO arrived later , which kept moi at work so late . Things had slowed down after 11PM so moi was able to look at some of the manager training manuals on line while I waited . Although though it's not much bigger then a closet do love my office , still am marvelling at the idea of me having my own office to begin with . One of the midnite clerks was nice enough to bring me fresh coffee too . When HC arrived noticed how like most celebrity's I've seen he is smaller then what you'd think . Also looked extremely tired , bet he had a gig earlier too. Moi was extra sociable showing the group to there rooms & suites but got the vibe everyone just wanted to go to sleep so again with a huge phony smile on my face told them I'd had leave since they all looked so tired wanting to sleep but be sure to call if they want anything . The whole group seemed relieved to see me go and be able to hit the rack ..........


Despite not getting that much sleep moi got up at the regular time and after Karin got home from work and went to bed took a shower and dressed up then going out for semi breakfast . Today in brown turtle neck and chocolate suede mini with suntan pantyhose ( from Germany and how they got to a thrift store here is a mystery but one of the comfyer pair I've worn in a long time ) and brown boots . Even though it was past the early morning rush with people stopping in to get a drink while on there way to work the place was still busy. Moi ordered her coffee and cookie then grabbed one of the big comfy overstuffed chairs when a police left .Then proceeded to chill drinking the coffee which felt very good and taking my boots off. When some yuppy types left very quickly went to get there copy of THE WALL STREET JOURNAL (no comics but still a famous newspaper ) and look it over . Who knows, maybe something about the hotel business or this town . The new manager there like the last two gave me the usual lecture of how you can't go barefoot at STARBUCKS as if that was some type of crime .Later I had to wait for him to go in the back so I could use the bathroom .........


I could have spent more time there ( especially since some god looking yuppy guys came in who were a great target for my always ego building flirting & teasing ) but got a call from our neighbors Fawn and John asking if I could sign for a important letter they were expecting today .So the boots and coat went back on and I left . Thats the second time this week I have been the official waiterer for one of our neighbors, the other time waiting for Belinda and Baily's mega tv to arrive . You don't want to be taken advantage of but with neighbors what can you do ? So back home , maybe if he comes soon will be able to either go back to the coffee boutique or head over to drop my old friend Corvah 's b'day present off ?


At work the navy blue skirt suit uniform , matching striped blouse , and black heels................

[Lena]

Up early to get today's posting out of the way so I can get moving . This machine can take over your life .......... ..


Lets see a brief look at my last 24 hours then on to depending how you look at it either insiteful or half baked comments on America today


Didn't make it back to the coffee boutique yesterday since the mailman came later then usual . Too bad , I was bored at home and hanging around at the coffee boutique can be so much fun .Especially when it's full of guys and your in a mini .......... Got a TM from my best friend Leslie about getting together for lunch soon which wud be fun . I started to TM her back but it was too much trouble so just left a message on her machine at home .


Work ran smoothly , managed to TT Siobhan in Banquets who among other things says business is down from last year because of the recession .There's only 2 weddings between now and New Years and the number of company's throwing holiday partys is really down . On the brite side her soldier boy gets back this week-end I gave her the name of a motion lotion we have found to be very exciting and she laffed calling me a tart . Truer words have never been spoken ................... Also found time to m'bate which can be a welcome relief when you have things coming at you left and right on the job . The new security Tony York was on and like I wrote yesterday he 's muey hard to deal with , except for his boss Capt'n Tom the man talks down to everyone and listens to no one .Whats really annoying to me is how when telling .you something he shakes his finger in your face going " Lookie here now ..............." A too typical example of a senior enlisted man who thinks he knows everything and loves throwing his weight around .Don't think he realizes this isn't the air force ...................


As far as America goes you get the idea the whole country has multiple personality disorder. Even Though I was in therapy for years and in psych wards a few times am not pretending to be a shrink . But just listening right away you pick up this terrible fear about the economy and at the same time some real excitement /happynes about our new president .


Fear about the economy is all around and never goes away .It's worse then the paranoia about terrorism after 9/11.You can never get away from it either since you turn on the tv or car radio and there's always bad news like some local company is closing or laying off most of it's work force and even big chains like CIRCUIT CITY are going into bankruptcy .About everyone you TT is scared of losing there job and knows somebody who has been canned too .Even without listening to any news or other people right away anybody with eyes in there head know something is bad driving around town seeing things like houses on sale for a log time with no buyers and signs for going out of business sales .


At the same time many are excited about a new president . I heard over 4 million people are expected to cram WASHINGTON DC for Obama's inauguration . A great thing for the local hotels and bars too It wud be great to got here to se him sworn in but I can't get time off from work and really don't want to have to deal with the mega crowd . For many balck people the excitement is since he will be the first black president . Democrats are all happy they finally won the White House Am also sure many many many non -black and non- Democrats are happy since we have a very smart new leader replacing the ignorant & arrogant fool who did such a terrible job . No surprise moi is happy & excited too.............


It's cold here today so dressing warm . A navy blue crew neck sweater from THE MARILYN KING COLECTION along with a white shirt and charcoal gray slacks we got at the hijacked truck sale last spring and the new brown clogs . Also yesterdays comfy German suntan pantyhose & black socks for extra warmth .At work the nay blue pant suit uniform and a white crew neck top with black heels .............

[Lena]

I just tryed and failed to post in the regular blog area................another disaster traceable to the big bang here. Change can be a pain and I hope someday we get used to the new format here.


Where do I begin today ? It's cold again which is still nice not having lost it's novelty .Have to bundle up to stay warm and of course look nicer.A good thing about winter clothes is there mostly long sleeved and cover up the huge tattoo of the sun on my left shoulder that I am getting more and more embarrassed about having . It's just so white trash cry: Really wud love to have it removed but can't afford it yet .Someday though..........


Moi is getting more and more scared of a depression .Not a depression like the ones I've fallen into in the past where your sad and don't have energy ( there bad enough ) but a global economic depression where millions including us could end up poor . Like bad weather you can't escape all the horrible economic news and it can drive me up the wall. . On the car radio yesterday heard experts say the stock market will continue to drop more and more with NO end in site .Also congress isn't about to give the car company's money at least for now which risks them going under that some think could actually trigger a depression . It all hit home even more getting me even more paranoid when I drove by a CIRCUIT CITY store that was having a liquidation sale .In the locker room at work overheard one woman tell another how the sheriffs came to repossess her sister's house yesterday with the entire family of 5 now split up staying at various relatives


All too depressing for me and I do believe many readers .So back to my favorite topic ; ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope it's more uplifting ! Went by the coffee boutique yesterday on the way to work . The place was a little different , they were having a huge staff meeting in the part where the easy chairs are with them crammed into the main room . I guess they were preparing the barista's for the holiday rush .It was like a convention of people in there early 20's all dressed in black . Moi was able to get a easy chair and chill . Also saw the old manager Janet a 40 something plump blond woman who I always got along with . She was always friendly & wud never holler at me for coming in barefoot during the warmer weather like the last two metro sexual male managers have done . A really nice woman, now a area manager .


Wore the navy blue pant suit uniform at work .Being a manager is starting to sink in now .Including the realitys that come with it . I've had no trouble adjusting to being treated better and more money . In that area yesterday was very happy to see the Persian rug I was able to buy on Ebay arrive. I't s a mix of gold and green being 4x4and 6x4" . Really is gorgeous in the living room between the couch and fireplace . We put the old rug in the 2nd bedroom . But like I wrote the new job has some new realitys that are not always fun .Lat nite for the first time ever I had to suspend someone .


It was a kitchen staffer , a young black guy maybe all of 20 .Suspending him was unnerving ............I've never done it before and also ironic since in her time at the hotel moi has broken about every rule there is except for stealing money . But there was no choice. The guy was on the phone talking away to his gf while everyone else in the kitchen was as usual working there behinds off, the whole area is a manic anthill . Romeo even ignored me when I was standing right keeping up with the "Oh baby you know I love you " talk .So I up and interrupted him which got me a shocked "whats your problem " glare then telling him how breaks over and they need him . He grunted then went back to talking to gf . Moi didn't know what to do since he was ignoring me as if I was invisible . I felt pretty frustrated especially after turning around to see New York Rick and Carlos the chefs just staring at me expecting me as the boss to do something . So I turned back around and raising my voice told him he had to stop talking or he'd suspended . Didn't do any good, rather then go back to his work station Romeo yelled at me " No white bitch tells me what to do ............" .


Soooooooooo.................walked away and while he kept doing the sweet talking I called security to send 2 people up . With Barb and Lucius at my side told him straight up to hang up since he's now suspended and has to leave the premises or be arrested .Romeo was shocked............. got hostile calling us all names including some racist and sexist ones to me and Barb then accused Lucius of being a Tom and mothercopulator.Then he left but going from being all hostile to laffing how this was no big deal, the executive chef and he are cool so tomorrow he will be back and also get paid for the lost time .The chefs seemed satisfied, guess I passed the test .Carlos whose also black ( and was once a boxer ) shook his head saying how he's seen a million fools like Romeo , too true fools like him are all around ..................


Going by Frieda's coffee boutique today agin . Maybe I'll run into my professor buddys In a ribbed navy blue turtleneck and dark brown corduroy slacks . Also suntan pantyhose and brown clogs .At work my purple pant suit and lite purple blouse with black heels.

[Lena]

Today's blog ......................how the morning news can cause depression , my minds being jarred by my gf's comments about seeing teen-agers on there way to school, workplace gossip , and what I'm wearing along with a few other things . Moi is just so fascinating and brilliant isn't she ......................?


Getting up this morning as always turned on the tv news to see whats going on .After a few minutes came to realize it wud have been better not too.Have done that , good lord was the news depressing . I try not to drink before noon but this almost had me opening up a bottle of red. The very first story on BBCAMERICA was how the CIA says American power and wealth will continue to decline . Martine Dennis whose always so dead pan actually seemed to like saying that too.............. Then she went on saying how global warming is expected to get worse and cause wars.Also how small countrys & terrorists will likely use atomic bombs . Good grief Then the usual famine in Africa story that makes some ( including my already guilt ridden gf ) feeling guilty since we have enough to eat . I switched to local news and as expected they were talking about how the state of Kentucky is executing a child killer today ..Fine with moi !! But it got bad when the anchor talked about how he stabbed 2 small children to death . The horror and terror those babys must have felt ............ Then more bad economic news , more and more experts saying we're headed for a depression. Finally a radio shrink I like turns out to be a slimey asshole ,he always advised people to take certain brand name drugs and now it comes out he is paid by the drug company that makes the exact brand name meds he always praised............is corruption everywhere ?


Luckily just as I was about to switch from coffee to merlot Karin got home from work .She ws real tired from a rough nite , the fact she cares so much and can be such a perfectionist makes it all the worse. After taking a quick shower she mentioned how her brother is having Thanks giving dinner next week (which moi will be at for maybe a hour since I have to work ) but how on the way home at a red lite she saw some high school kids on there way to school and for the first time in years thought about the whole subject of getting up and out to school which I too haven't thought about either .


Naturally although we both liked going off to school our experiences were totally different . The one thing we had in common was enjoying getting out of the home and going off to be with other kids . For her it was escaping the dictatorship of her ultra perfectionist and never either satisfied or happy mother. Diane really could be called the Queen Empress of Analness and Unhappyness.And for moi escaping to from the insanity of my moms . The exceptions though were when I was living with Taw at 15 and sometimes wanted to stay home all day to keep f*cking or watch MTV and when either she was at our place or I stayed at her moms with cousin Francie since we always had so much fun together whether it was talking or sex too.


For Karin the day began with a sense of intensity bordering on panic all do to her mom's perfectionism . Her always zealous mom coming in to wake and her sister even if they were already awake and she knew it . Diane is a creature of habit and then some .Diane wud also be finished with her daily hour long routine to look perfect or since she overdoes it so much perfectly appearing corpse Karin and her sister wud take turns in there shower called the 'Princess Shower' with one eating while the other cleaned up .The last person taking a shower had to make sure it was left spotless and neat ....toothpaste had to be in the jar and heaven help the girl who didn't leave a towel hanging neatly !!!! Over the healthy balanced but very low cal breakfast since Diane didn't want to see either fat mom wud quiz them about homework and school life as if she was a cop . Then after a brief inspection to see if they had everything and looked nice ( heaven forbid button was left undone !! ) both were driven off to school ( with Diane sometimes hollering at them both to sit more erectly ) with a warning to be good. Once at school Karin said she felt relieved to be free !!!! She loved the learning & activities too, was even on the student council for a few years .


Unless Francie was over I was happy to get out of my moms . Escaping the mob there made up of my mom and sisters, usually at least the cocksuckers any two of them were messing around with , the screaming babys that nobody ever seemed to pay attention too, and the ton of noise and cigarette smoke that filled the kitchen & living room . While my gf and her sister had there own shower my moms only had one bathroom and most days you had to wait in line behind a few people , on mondays at least often next to some strange men someone had brought home for carnality . You had to be quick too since if you were in more then 15 minutes others wud start pounding on the door or even come in all confrontational or using the john like my sister Lori and my mom's bf Lamar were known to do . Naturally there was never any breakfast with coffee having to do and the idea my mom wud ask about homework was so impossible . I am laffing even thinking about old Rose ever doing that .............good lord that wud have been as out of her nature as being sober . Maybe she wanted too but ma always seemed to always have better hings to do like falling over her latest mothergrabbing bf or sit being angry at the world ........... Once out the door it was great ,unlike Karin I didn't care about learning or activities but was happy since I'd been with my friends and taking in the insanity that was Shawnee High ...............


Oh well ....................it's all the past .As Far as the here and now go dropped into my friend Frieda's coffee place on the way to work .Loved the feeling of energy all the smart students bring to the place . My buddys the 2 older professors weren't there though . Do love that connection , unless I was a hooker or there cleaning lady there's no way someone like moi should know people like them and in our own way get along . Freeds was as always manic .............yesterday about the old building she's in on rehabbing . The 3 flat has huge potential as a investment except for now with property just not moving . Did get a kick out of the carpenter she was meeting with , a 30 something blue collar/roughneck kind of guy as out of place as moi in a college world but he sure sounded like he knew his business and was cute too. ......... Freeds curses the decision to get involved in the project but do think whenever the recession ends ( ) she'll be making a killing ............


Work was work ..............wore my new purple pant suit which it turns out needs some more tailoring . A little baggy in the shoulders and legs We may be short staffed Thanksgiving day since so many are taking the day off, moi will be on the job though. Melissa whose a 22 year old desk clerk has a secret admirer.She got a dozen roses delivered last nite from who the card said was "You One True Love" and she's very happy . No surprise to anyone she'd get such nice flowers since she's a very very pretty blond haired/blue eyed all American type and friendly to one and all. Also we had a cougar woman and her boytoy check in , she was a 50 something ( with a diamond ring so big it could choke a horse) and the guy couldn't have been over 25.They used her gold card to get a enhanced room and soon after checking had sent down to room service for champagne and caviar............ Moi hopes she''ll be that lucky in 20 some years ..................


Today in more from THE MARILYN KING COLLECTION .................a white cable knit turtleneck dress . Also a white cami & bikini briefs ( after taking the last few days off am now back in undies ) with nude garter stockings . Had thought about nude pantyhose since the hem is short but after trying them both on went with the stockings since I always like them better .And figured how there's no danger of getting in trouble by accidentally putting on a peep show since about the only way anyone could see the actual stockings tops wud be if I was sitting with my legs crossed ......................which you know at times can be fun At work the navy blue skirt suit uniform and navy blue heels.

[Lena]

Another saturday , the week went by so fast . Know I know why older people say how the time goes so fast your young then all of a sudden middle aged ...............


WARNING: Today is rant day here.Moi hAs heard /seen to much crap and is ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Is the world falling apart ? Global warming , a global economic crisis , Aids , the CIA saying terrorists will get atomic bombs and little countrys will be dropping them on each otehr not only killing millions but polluting the atmosphere even more ,Africa seems to be a giant mess ( pirates, the war in Congo , the old fool in Zimbabwe ) , and the Mexicans are flooding in here slowly turning the USA into the USA of North Mexico . Just thinking about it makes me want to go back to bed and pull the covers over my head .those ostriches have the right idea about burying your head in the sand............


Am wondering too how people can be such f*cking savages . Yesterday here they executed Marco Chapman here for stabbing 2 liTtle kids to death , he also left a third kid for dead but the child lived . How could anyone ever do something like that ? The whole idea of the government being able to kill people is scary to me but in cases like this it's FINE !!!!! Executing the slime didn't take long either . He was convicted in 2002 or 2003 and killed off in 2008 which is short since with all the legal stuff you often hear of people doing 15-20 years before they meet the executioner . Some of the the protesters outside the prison were idiots too.I do understand how you can be against the death penalty but some of them people were whackco crying a way as if the child killer was a loved one or innocent . Good lord he stabbed two kids to death ........... , Like those people on both sides of the abortion issue I wonder if many of the crybaby's weren't just nuts to begin with and stumbled into the issue .


Also am disgusted with the people who cheered on the college student who killed himself on the www. People sure can get carryed away on the 'net saying things they'd never do in the flesh but posting to tell a guy to take his own life really went too far .FFS he was a human being and was talking suicide ,what the f*ck was wrong with those people if you want to be so kind or dishonest as to call them people at all .............. I hope the site is shut down and the victim's family sues everyone involved including the pricks who said go kill yourself .Also as a result told myself to be more careful about what I post from now on , not that I'd ever egg a body on to end it all but in general don't want to act like a asshole .


Finally in terms of negativity after coming home last nite on tv saw ASHLEE DUPREE whose actual real name is ASHLEY YOUMANS the high priced hooker at the center of the ELLIOT SPITZER mess.She is very beautiful but a colossal phony and probably worse . She tryed being very nice and also acting truly sad for having been a hooker and what happened to Spitzer's wife. But I had a hard time believing it . Don't think she's evil like the scum they executed here yesterday but still to me seemed to be a very out for herself person who uses lying to get her way . Thats the way hookers usually are whether there working a corner or the big bucks kind like her . Also just my impression of her as a person screamed out "Selfish lying bitch " thinking she's working everyone else . The report also included a entertainment agent saying she's probably trying to act this way as part of a attempt to get past the scandal and get a music career going and it was likely all written for her by a public relations person . May be cynical but it rings truer then snow in the winter to this hillbilly .................


I could go on and on about other things like the talentless singer Ashlee Simpson naming her baby THE BRONX MOGWILI but won't .Don't want to bore anybody and also get myself so worked up I'll be angry all day . Believe me there been too many days like that in my life already .In fact the quota for being that way has already been met ...............


Will mention tomorrow how my shameless attention hoaring at the coffee boutique got me some much appreciated new attention yesterday . Usually when I sit there teasing it's always guys who leer............. But yesterday lucky me got a intrigued look from a yuppette. Again more tomorrow ............ Work later ..............maybe a wild nite . THE BAD BOYS OF COMEDY are staying at the hotel following a concert and there's sure to be at least some noisy party and some wild people . We have extra security .A wedding too, there's only one other scheduled between now and mid January .


Am going to try to put myself in a better mood ,at this point am thinking about drinking earlier then I usually do to get past the anger . Instead may head by a coffee boutique to relax .Cold here ...............today under my red winter coat it will be a navy blue blazer,white shirt , and jeans .With brown clogs . At work the navy blue skirt suit and navy blue heels . maybe seamed nude stockings too which are always a pick me up ............

[Lena]

Bump ....................see above

[Lena]

Sunday and in a reflective mood ................ moi doesn't get this way often and hardly ever if I hadn't been drinking which I haven't done yet this morning but I am . Wondering about many things , nothing in particular or anything major just many little things .Including why so many people here have a ' In your face attitude' that can get so obnoxious and why so many don't want to explore whats out out there whether it's travelling to or living in far away places or exploring there own sexuality ............... Although I haven't come up with any answers it's still fun thinking about it all. I better seaway from doing this thinking to something that takes energy or I will actually soon be drinking ..............


Like fidelity and staying away from fools thinking about things is new to me . I sure didn't see much of it at home ,our neighbor Mrs. Simms wud always say in life it's always got to be needs over wants but with both sides of my people it was ALWAYS the other way around .Immediate gratification was the number one rule not matter how unpractical it is or worse yet if anyone else snuffers .With my folks the money went for fun not saving or other things like food and the electric .Blame myself too since in therapy learned I was always afraid to think . In part to escape being yelled at for coming up with ideas . And do think more since I didn't want to look too deep inside since I was afraid I'd have to face some pretty ugly realitys about how life around me was and especially because I 'd see how awful & domed a person I was . My so called father did a pretty good job of convincing me I was that way ............... Was he ever a mean destructive motherffucker.


But after years of hospitals and therapy do believe I am past all that fear and the fatalism about myself . I do love observing & thinking about whats going on around me .Gives you more control or at least the feeling of more control over your life too Have found also helps getting along with others when you try to understand there actions or ideas.


As promised on friday moi got a very interesting look from another woman at STARBUCKS . along with having coffee and people watching one reason why i love stopping off at that place is to flirt in a passive not close to cheating way with the men there. The place is usually full of guys who work nearby or in this computer age stop into do work on there laptops .In Fact you could call doing that one of my hobbys ....................beats the hell out of doing other things like bird watching and knitting . I get so energized from the leers and peeks I get doing among other things crossing & uncrossing my legs as well as pulling up stockings as if they were sagging . Happy to say on friday in the short white cable knit turtleneck dress moi got those lustful looks not just from a few guys but also another woman .


I could actually hear her before I ever saw her and she looked me up and down .While just sitting in my chair looking at the newspaper listened in as she talked to some guys . She had a distinct voice with alot of enregy and confidence in it , the kind of voice that goes with strong & energetic people . definitely a yuppette mentioning things like quotas and customers along with flying on airplanes and renting cars when on business. Also a athlete , talked about sports like she was one of the guys and brought up how she'd played basketball and done track in college .When I got up to go to the b'room saw her and it all fit ............had auburn hair in a Bob cut and was in a lite gray pant suit and black heels and although sitting you could tell she was tall ,about 5'7" . Moi went by and she seemed to look up but it wasn't till I was coming back did I see her glancing in THAT kind of way . All of a sudden I felt so alive ..........it's always nice to be appreciated ! I didn't go back to reading the paper but just sat there catching her take peaks with THAT look now clearly obvious in her eyes You can call me a tease or slut but just for her I crossed my legs, do hope she saw my stockings tops . In a way I was hoping she'd come over since it wud have been so intriguing ( in my past pre-thinking days gf or not I wud have thought about asking her to have some quick fun in the bathroom ) but also since I do love Karin was content with the attention & shared lust . When the whole group left we both smiled at each other and we're no doubt thinking the same thing................ As the old sayings go little things mean alot and the best things in life are free . And also as moi always says there's nothing like flirting & getting that ' I want to f*ck you look ' to get this girl energized .


Off to the country club soon . I work extra long there today , usually am there for 3-4 hours but today it's 6 -7 hours for a special function . A happy to be back as the official champagne pourer , it's alot easyer then waitressing !!!! Heading out in a white turtleneck and tan suede mini along with nude support pantyhose , and brown boots with a 3" heel. At work there happy uniform of a white blouse ,Kelly green jumper dress,and brown flats with pointy toes. Looking forward to just coming home tonite and enjoying Karin, the cats & the homestead

[Lena]

Moi's not really awake or focused this morning so please be bearing with my ramblings , typos, and probably extra idiocy


Monday ..................my day off .But have to go to the hotel for the weekly meeting which means putting up with alot of hot air as well getting all dressed up . But happy to say after that changing into something more then going out to have fun . We'll probably go shopping which for me means mainly looking not buying ! I was not put on the planet to make some store owner rich . But it will be fun being with Karin and people watching . The economy may be in free fall with 2 wars going on but it's the holiday season with all the decorations up and lites up and is great for people watching . Also I get to drink to my hearts content tonite


I was at the country club for 7 hours yesterday ................... First the brunch where with a always smiling face I poured bottle after bottle of champagne , made 15 mixed drinks,and got 38 beers .But still fun , the happy atmosphere at the brunch is infectious . All the rich members are so happy ( and why shouldn't they be with there money ? ) and make for great people watching . Do like working with May Wah and Meghan too .We all concentrate on doing our jobs which makes things work like they should . I heard alot of talk about college football , plans for Thanksgiving this week , good deals in the stock market ,and the great price Mr. Wallingford got on his new Benz which he mentioned in a low key but still very proud way . I guess that means more spending money on the upcoming ski trip to Teluride he was also talking about Moi is happy he and his family won't have to pinch pennys and eat at somewhere so litle people like OUTBACK STEAKHOUSE or APPLEBYS but will be able to use the extra money to go to some fancy place like they usually do .


After a 20 minute break May Wah and I worked a private party to for the return of a members daughter from the Peace Corps which I had never heard off. It's a US government agency that trys to help people in backward countrys .Doing everything from health care to building irragation systems,and teaching english.It seemed like a very cool organization to me since they do good things .The young woman had been teaching english in Romania a place I also didn't know about but see here on the map in front of the monitor. Heard how thats where DRACULA came from. eeeck ! That movie scared me so much that even though I know there was no real DRACULA I 'd never go out after dark without a hammer and big ass wooden stake .


Do like any kind of welcome home party whether it's like back from being overseas helping foreigners , army guys returning from the wars , or with my people after somebody's been let out of prison .Everyone is happy and up for fun .Naturally many folks her age from friends to cousins .About everyone seemed to be going to school to be a doctor or lawyer or getting the MBA . No surprise since most of the older people even women seemed to be doctors ,lawyers, or big business people . For awhile the president of U of L was there too, thats where my gf got her degree and starts pharmacy school this summer .


Heard some interesting things .To my surprise several of the people there had actually been to Romania although never did hear exactly why . All made me feel dumber since until about 3Pm that day for all I knew Romania was a suburb of Rome which I am proud to say I did actually know about . One 40 ish couple were invited to the Presidential inauguration in Washington DC and psyched about going , I wud be too. . They got in a pretty friendly talk with a older couple who had gone to one of Reagen's inaugurations about Washington DC and inaugurations . Sounds like they are hectic and colossal fun ! A 70 something woman weighted down with too much make-up and jewelry ( thats rare for there usually low key people ) was going on about spending the last 2 weeks in NYC going to plays and staying at the GEORGE SANC which from what she said has to have been the big GEORGE V we walked right by when there last summer .I later felt stupider since I thought it was actually called the GEORGE V or GEORGE FIVE since the V could have been a Roman number Oh well. live & learn . My self esteem and knowing something about the real world came back later when we heard a 20 year old girl going to what May Wah says is the great Dartmouth University whine away about staying in school and later working since her folks will get her anything she wants ?. Both of us rolled our eyes at hearing the princess babble away like that ...............


Toward the end of the event a couple of the members called May Wah over to talk , most love her.Long long ago maybe in 2nd grade when I'd never get picked for basketball in gym or was invited to birthday partys it came to realizing I was not one of life's born winners like May Wah and while a litle jealous don't hold it against her .Especially since she's always been nice to me . But moi ended up doing most of the work which was no fun . Got downright annoying seeing May Wah sitting there at a table talking away to this US federal court judge and his wife For a second gave some thought to doing something like throwing a plate at her sideways like it was a flying saucer or going up and asking if I could get her anything to drink ? But luckily for both of us she eventually got up and came back to working explaining away she had to be friendly to the judge and his wife. .


Back home it was tv, sex,and more sex.................... But am proud to say not all that much drinking . I decided to try to limit getting wasted to 1-2 nites a week not the usual 4 . Besides not even the best red can take the place of sex, especially with Karin .


Going to the managers meeting in a periwinkle blouse and wool navy blue skirt from THE MARILYN KING COLLECTION along with suntan thigh tops and brown boots . Later plan to go sloppy in a lite gray sweat shirt , white T shirt , the old falling apart jeans and brown clogs .

[Lena]

Manager's meeting ..............66 minutes of total boredoom . My left leg fell asleep . Lucky me found out she works from 12PM to 12AM Thanksgiving day .All so all the other managers can spend time with there loved ones as if I have no loved ones and nowehre to go........... When I complained about it later to April the Guest Services manager she told me thats part of being the new kid on the block .recalling the umpteen holdiays she had to work .Also April being April added a positive note that it will be easy sicne the hotel is so empty and help in my training . I guess so but on a holiday I wud rather be with Karin then at work...........

[Lena]

Manager's meeting ..............66 minutes of total boredom . My left leg fell asleep . Lucky me found out she works from 12PM to 12AM Thanksgiving day .All so all the other managers can spend time with there loved ones as if I have no loved ones and nowhere to go........... When I complained about it later to April the Guest Services manager she told me that's part of being the new kid on the block recalling the umpteen holidays she had to work . Also April being April added a positive note that it will be easy since the hotel is so empty and help in my training . I guess so but on a holiday I wud rather be with Karin then at work...........


Moi has a hangover this AM ..................as planned drank too much last nite . I had about a whole bottle of merlot and a tequila shooter with a friend we saw .You actually pay twice when you drink like that , fist the money for the red then the next morning with a hangover & feeling rotten . In addition to my headache feel sore with some other side effects to disgusting to get into . At times like this I have to remind myself how much fun drinking is and how I need it . Am 50-50 about people like my gf who can have a drink or two then stop .There sure missing out on some good fun but also are lucky they don't need the crutch .And I do know unless I want to die early of liver cancer or sclerosis of the liver like way too many relatives have someday I will have to stop drinking .............................but not today .Am sure will have a drink with lunch .


Yesterday after the meeting I came home to change from the dress clothes into a sweat shirt , T shirt & jeans .I felt so free and me . Karin was of course as always more stylish in a pink crew neck sweater and black track pants with the sneakers she never wears running since there too nice . Did some window shopping ...........some sales and good prices but not the bargains you'd think wud be out there during a recession . Not as many shoppers as last year or so it seemed , most people are scared and not about to toss around money .Who knows they could lose there job tomorrow and really need it for basics like food & rent not some play station or new couch .Karin though did her part to get the economy recharged by buying some holiday presents, a black down jacket for herself ( there seems to be a law that every other woman under 30 MUST own one ) ,and a table cloth for our place. I guess I did my part too buying us bottles of water at a concession stand at the mall.............. Later we hit the TRIANGLE which is the gay area for dinner and naturally drinking and yet more drinking Came across Takisha Hendricks whose a nurse's aide Karin works with and her new partner Lupe Martinez whose from Puerto Rico a Mexican country that's part of America which sounds confusing so will have to find out more later .There a new couple and the passion is over flowing , when we walked into the bar they were passionately making out and all during the time we sat talking & drinking they were holding hands and you could feel the heat between them as if you were standing by a bonfire .


Back home more red and a movie ...............some French comedy about people's reactions to a middle aged mother getting married to a much younger guy .Karin liked it more then moi maybe since she can get by pretty good in French .I think it ended with everyone in a big pie fight but then OK with the woman getting married to the younger man Snobs always talk about how deeper French movies are then ours but the end with everybody throwing pies was right out of the THREE STOOGES ...........


Today in my own yuppyish black pant suit with a white crew neck top & black heels . Also pink bikini briefs, nude knee highs ,and a gold necklace


Now more coffee and some toast to try to feel more human ..............

[Lena]

Happy Thanksgiving Eve ....................It's my own special holiday devoted to having fun . Do believe I posted about it last year in this blog and also did today in MEMBERS CHIT CHAT .Anyway goes back to when we first came to Louisville when I was 13 .Although nothing big was planned my friends and I got together and had some fantastic fun .It became a annual institution after that lasting all thru school . Usually it was just all of us being out together looking at the world .Some other things too though they were X rated and also involved being criminals or as we saw it being individual Robina Hood's stealing from the rich to give to the poor which was all of us ................. Exact examples can be found in last years blog from today .................won't go into them here since it wud sound like more bragging .


Even after graduation those of us still round tryed to keep it up however men and motherhood soon got in the way . Things change as they say .But moi did her best to keep it going for herself usually having fun that nite .At 18 on Thanksgiving Eve met Donna May who I'd live with for over a year ,at 21 spent a whole evening in a bar ( something not at all strange for moi ) but instead of drinking myself into a stupor was mostly talking away feeling very happy to a old friend who'd been away for a long time ,and at 23 despite risking getting killed helped my friend Ronnie Raye get her bf who'd taken off a few weeks off from the army back to Fort Campbell .That's a whole story onto itself .He went awol to be with her , after awhile the MP's then the FBI's showed up wanting to know where he was telling Ronnie Raye's housemate that Ronnie Raye could be sent to federal prison for helping a deserter so very paniced she called me and we decided it was up to us to get the guy ( name was Hector Goncalves, a gorgeous Mexican god from Nevada ) back to the army before Ronnie Raye was the bitch of some butch in women's prison .We sped thru a ice storm which despite being very dangerous were still having the time our lives drinking & singing away with the radio . I still laff every time I think about it even though us two dummys were having so much fun but almost got ourselves killed We got Hector back to the base but they soon broke up with a demoted ( going from e-4 to PFC ) Hector getting shipped off to some remote island off Alaska for the next year as what amounted to punishment ..................... Wonder if when up there he ever ran into Sarah Palin ?


Do plan to get e-mails out today to everyone from when I was a kid marking the the 'holiday ' we all invented I know it probably means more to me then some of them but all of us being together and having so much fun is still a good memory . Especially since we were about all each other had back then . Also a good way to say I still love you .


Last nite at work for 4 of the 12 hours I was with April going over the manager's training manuals ................thank the heavens we're almost finished with them . They describe my job which is pretty obvious( babysitter for the hotel ) and also go into whats expected from all managers & company policy .The rest should take only maybe 2 hours April says and we'll get to them saturday .April herself is flying back to be with her family for Thanksgiving then coming back saturday morning .Then it's one more week here then a 2 week vacation and after that her big new job as a manager at the company's property by Mall of America .She says I can stay free there anytime Do appreciate the offer but as a anti-shopper /tight wad the Mall of America is about the last place I'd ever go .


Even Though The hotel was at only 16% occupancy I was busy all nite . You'd think if business was slow there wudn't be much to do but last nite we had a string of situations . A steam pipe had a leak and althis white steam was pouring out all thru the hallway by the employee locker rooms .The engineers were on it most of the nite . The # 2 engine guy even had to come into help then they had to do all sorts of checks to make sure it wasn't happening in other places. Shevron the new executive mega egomaniac chef had a giant hissy fit about one of the ovens not working then had a double hissy fit since the engineers couldn't get to it right away ( I don't even know if there qualified to work on stoves ) and when I tryed telling him they were already dealing with a outright emergency with the leking pipes his reply was real mature , screaming "BULLSHIT" then going on how the kitchen always came first at whatever hotel he worked at in the before Heaven help us from high strung prima donnas whether there cooks or anything else ............ Also at 9:00PM the securitys found the loud and flashy coyote Rio getting of a elevator heading toward the bar and threw her out . At about 9:35 PM a 60 something woman from up north was at the front desk shocked & confused saying the billfold was missing from her purse and she had it when getting on the elevator since she gave her grandson some money but then when she went to pay for things from the gift shop it was gone . After Barb the security went over her movements from what we heard the only other person on the elevator was a woman who fit Rio's description . Doing a 2+2 guess who we think took the billfold ? Anyway let her use my office to cancel her cc's and arranged for her to pay for the room and restaurant bills another way . Did a lot of apologizing for the loss too although didn't let her know we thought Rio had robbed her, that wud open the door up to a law suit and the corporation wudn't want that !! Also gave her 2 nites free at any property in the USA & Canada . I sent a memo to Capt'n Tom head of security and cc'd it to the general manager that from now on Rio should be arrested whenever she comes on as a way to keep her out of the place . I don't think sex for pay is bad but sad to say too many coyotes are thieves too.......


Today today today ............since it's a holiday at least for this girl will be in a good mood . Plan to think more about how to have some fun later ................who knows ? Heading out in a white cashmere turtleneck from THE MARILYN KING COLLECTION also a lite gray pencil skirt with a white Cami and bikini briefs along with nude garter stockings and navy blue clogs .At work the navy blue skirt suit and coordinated dark striped blouse with black heels.................

[Lena]

Thanksgiving Day ..................


A nice holiday .........more low key then all the other holidays and that's what helps make it fun .You just show up at friends or family and eat . The penis people get plenty of football thrown in . :love: Tomorrow the holiday shopping season starts with stores opening early to welcome the lines of shoppers some of whom start camping outside store doors tonite .Moi of course will be at home happily sleeping under her old quilt .


My special holiday turned out pretty nice .Even when I stopped at the coffee boutique on the way to work there were more then the usual number of people and a party atmosphere. Although the hotel was at just 12% occupancy for the second nite in a row moi was running around as if she was on speed dealing with one thing after another. When I got in my old boss Brendan whose Food and Beverage manager wanted to know what exactly happend with executive chef Shevron the nite before since Shevron was burning up with anger at me for a stove breaking down . Saying I didn't get the engineers on it and blew his holiness of as if he was nothing . Moi was little shocked but just told Brendan how we had steam pouting out of pipes by the employee locker room and personal office so the guys had to deal with that . And I didn't think the building engineers were allowed to work on ovens . Also How I didn't blow him off but just explained it all to him while he swore and stomped his feet . Brendan took a deep breath and said "That's fine " but then told me with a egomaniac like Shevron it's best to go the extra distance dnd humor him .Maybe Brendan's right , don't want any trouble and sure don't want to get pulled into a manager's feud like the ones I saw so much of as a bartender. His holiness should be happy that special technicians are coming today to fix the sacred stove..............


Although the hotel was at only 12% occupancy for the second nite in a row I was dealing with one thing after another .I should have skipped the skirt suit & heels in place of a jump suit & sneakers . Among the stuff I had to deal with was checking in on the engineers who were busy repairing the sauna in the Health club area ( that's fancy talk for pool and mini gym area ) which wasn't working all day . There were several familys using the pool with the parents rushing to cover the children's ears when the frustrated engineers wood let out swear words being so frustrated not being able to fix the sauna .Moi apologized and apologized even giving them free in room movies . The engineers didn't get it back up till about 11PM . Also very angry over the hooker Rio's snatching of a wallet from a female guest the general manegr decided to punish all the coyotes working the hotel by ordering them arrested . All totalled in 11 hours I sent 3 who were already banned off to the jailhouse and had 2 served notice on 2 others before telling them to get out .Some complaints about watery beer in the bar so comped the people and had Howard the new head bartender ( almost as lazy as weird Norm but with personality which seems to get him over ) string up a new pony . Some female market researcher was in the bar then later the lobby nagging people if she could pick up a questionnaire .........kind of goofy since don't think anyone going to have the desire or time to do that the nite before a holiday . Since there was no business I let the bellman help her, Ahmad filled out 4 of the big questions booklets at $ 50 each walking all happily walking away with $200

Also the terrorist attacks in Mumbai india hit home .A Indian couple who had been in the pool heard the news and in less then a second went from happy vacationers to being shocked & terrified.I have not seen the horrified look on people;s faces since 9/11.We were all real nice trying to help them thru it.Especially since the wife was from Mumbai and was very worried about friends & family there. They only wanted to see the tv news . So to do what we could to make it all easter I had room service bring there diner up to them then checked in on the room later .They were grateful for the special treatment but understandbly all caught up in events back there .The husband said he'd been tying to call Mumbai for hours but couldn't get thru . Do hope they didn't lose any of there people or friends ...............


After work went out to enjoy my on special holiday and did have a good time For awhile I thought about wearigamycoktailwaitres dress for fun but decided to save that for the next time out with Karin and the girls .Instead went in the white turtleneck sweater and lite gray skirt I went to work in . Headed over to the big gay bar area THE TRIANGLE and hit a girl bar which even though it was 1AM was full of people having fun . After scouting the place to see if there was anyone I wanted to avoid 9 there's a song list but TBH am sure there's a even longer list of women who don't want to see me ) or on the other hand some to hook with and luckily came across Randa Haines who I used to see all the time when I was with Marady and some friends of hers who know some of our inner circle from summer softball . Including my second back-hispanic dyke couple in 2 days . The other nite Karin and I seeing Takisha and Lupe while last nite was hanging with Kizzie and Ladonna who were also caught up in considerable passion . I wonder if this is some kind of trend ? Everyone was friendly and in a fun holiday mood . Moi was soon engrossed in talking , drinking , dancing , and drinking some more............. Enjoyed too coming up with my own dance moves which while were great fun but don't expect to be asked to be on DANCING WITH THE STARS .


I knew I was totally chilled when I went to the bathroom with a drink still in my hand & barefoot .Seeing me that way and 2 women in the bathroom laughing at me . I can't help it , tacky is as tacky does Also half way thru my peeing it came to was in the same exact stall where I had sex with Monica last summer which was one of the stupidest things I've ever done . After realizing that moi very quickly finished and got my booty out of that evil place................... Randa asked me what was wrong but I said nothing then peeling off my ruined stockings which had everyone at the table laffing and like the women inthe bathroom thinking I am such a mega oaf asked her to dance to get my mind off that reminder of a huge f*cking colossal mistake ............


We left after 2AM and I headed home . Stopped at a mini mart to get some fresh milk for morning coffee and came across this abandoned or lost dog outside when leaving . So animal lover me went back inside and bought him a box of dog food leaving it open in a alley nearby .


On my way to work soon ......................blaaah ! In a loden green turtelneck and dark brown corduroy skirt with the comfy suntan German pantyhose and brown clogs . At work the navy blue skirt suit uniform and navy blue heels ...........

HAPPY THANKSGIVING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!