Anonymously Guilty asks :
Hi Anonymously Guilty,
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We all need means of escape, it sounds like this was your way of coping; a distraction from your outside world. Perhaps there are other ways to 'get away from the world' that doesn't involve trying to be someone else as this might be counterproductive. If you are struggling with your own identity and a means of release then it might help you to see a counsellor to discuss why you feel the need to create a fake profile for yourself and the feelings associated with when you use it.
How would you feel if your partner had set up an account to talk to girls? It may have been innocent from your point of view; however it's all about how it looks to your partner. He may have jumped to the wrong conclusion; however it might be worth asking yourself what you were getting from these friendships with other men that you weren't from him. Perhaps you were able to talk to them and not your partner? Maybe they gave you some attention when your boyfriend wasn't? Your reason could be linked to a void in your relationship so it may be worth considering that.
No relationship should be built on gift giving or making a partner feel guilty. The gifts might as well be an empty box for all the good it's doing your relationship and reminding someone of why they should feel guilty eats away at both partners. Neither are doing you or your partner any good so maybe you need to tell him that his words and manipulation into gift giving need to stop before you can have a chance to move on.
If you can figure out what you wanted to get from this fake profile and tell him why, then it might help him to understand your motivations a bit better. It sounds like right now, because he might not cope the same way- he's finding it hard to get his head around why you used this method of taking time out from your life. Perhaps all your relationship is in need of is some better communication rather than existing on a blame culture and present giving.
If he wanted to leave, he could have by now, so perhaps he doesn't want to, but it does sound like he needs to calm down and listen to you before you can make any progress.
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