Amanda Holden learnt to live a "happy life" after having therapy.

Amanda Holden

Amanda Holden

The 'Britain's Got Talent' presenter sought professional help after the birth of her stillborn son in 2011 and welcoming a baby girl in 2012 while suffering from severe medical complications, and credits the decision with helping her get her life back on track.

Amanda - who has two daughters, Alexa, nine, and Hollie, three, with her husband Chris Hughes - said: "It makes you suddenly think, I have to live. I've got to live, but I've got to try and live a good, happy life for me too and I think that's why I faced up to the fact that I needed to speak to somebody.

"She was very good at giving me sentences to say to myself to make me stop panicking about my own mortality. I think you have none of these worries unless you've got children.

"If it had just been me and Chris and I'd died, it would have been awful for him but nowhere near as bad as a child losing their mother."

The 44-year-old presenter added she is no longer "allowed" to have any more children due to fears of further complications during pregnancy.

She told Good Housekeeping magazine: "I'm not allowed. I would be dead the next time. And I think Chris would say you can have them but you're not having them with me.

"I've got the two I'm supposed to have. I just had to complete my family to feel like I could be me."

The blonde beauty - who wed record producer Chris in 2008 - gushed over her hubby and credits him with changing her life "for the better".

She explained: "The minute I met him, my life changed so much for the better. He has a great perspective on life. He makes me stop, he's given me my children and literally stood by my death bed and I really fancy him...How I feel about Chris still feels new."


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