Danny Miller had to stop 'Emmerdale' filming because of his struggles with depression and anxiety.
The 31-year-old actor - who played Aaron Dingle in the ITV soap from 2008 to 2021 - has opened up about "hitting rock bottom" and having on-set panic attacks.
Danny said: "I'm not gonna sit here and lie and say, 'I wanted to kill myself', but I certainly thought it would be easier if I wasn't here."
He described his panic attacks as "an out of body experience" and recalled having to halt shooting so he could recover.
Danny added: "Suddenly I start sweating, I start almost passing out. I had it loads in 'Emmerdale' when I've got a big scene and I've gone, 'Oh my God, I'm gonna pass out'.
"They go, 'Stand by', and my brain's going, 'You're gonna f*** this up, you're gonna f*** this up'. I'm sweating and I go, 'Sorry, you'll have to cut there, I'm sweating.' "
Meanwhile, Danny admitted he didn't realise he was suffering from anxiety and depression until he spoke to his GP, and he "burst into tears".
He explained: "I used to think it was an overactive thyroid. That's what I got checked for. But it was anxiety. I just didn't know how to deal with it."
The former 'I'm A Celebrity... Get Me Out Of Here!' winner - who revealed he turns to ABBA's "uplifting" hits like 'Dancing Queen' and 'Does Your Mother Know?' to help him - was prescribed antidepressants six years ago, and took them for two years, while therapy continues to help him.
And he insisted despite hitting a low, he didn't "have the balls" to actually end his life.
Speaking on the 'Mancs On the Mic' podcast, he said: "I didn't have anything to lose and I thought it would just be easier if I wasn't here ... so if I take myself out of the situation. That was the deepest and darkest it went. I never thought about it. I couldn't."
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