Emma McVey has been "quite distant" since her wedding, as she prepares to undergo heart surgery.
Gaz Beadle and Emma McVey (c) Instagram
The wife of former 'Geordie Shore' star Gaz Beadle is set to have an operation soon to repair the holes in her heart and she admits she is struggling with "bad anxiety" as a result of it.
She said: "I've actually been quite distant from everyone since the wedding because to be honest I'm not finding it easy. I have really bad anxiety and trying to prepare myself and this kids for it & the recovery whilst also panicking about the risks but I don't have a choice."
Emma felt "angry" that her condition was missed for years, despite going back and forth to doctors.
Speaking in an Instagram Q&A with fans, she added: "I don't mind speaking about it.
"It just took me a while to get my head around and I was angry it's been missed when I've been back and forth to doctors for the past 10 years. I'll have my holes repaired, a valve replaced and then a pacemaker that may or may not have to stay long term. It will take years before my heart goes back to a normal size as it's so enlarged now but I'll hopefully be a new woman in my 30's."
Emma discovered her diagnosis in June this year.
She explained at the time: "Long story short, we've finally found out I have three large holes in my heart and damaged tissue which is causing my blood to pass through the wrong direction, the right side of my heart is now enlarged and weak, along with high blood pressure in my lungs.
"This has all got a lot worse as they should of been closed when I was a child, unfortunately no one checked my heart even when I had seizures and diagnosed with epilepsy or fainted like it was a hobby."
Tagged in Gaz Beadle