Rylan Clark thought he had suffered a stroke when he got divorced.
Rylan Clark was in a dark place after his divorce
The 34-year-old TV presenter was “so broken” when he called it quits with Dan Neal, 43, after six years of marriage and needed to take a hiatus from his showbiz life.
Speaking on the ‘On the Mend’ podcast, he told Busted star Matt Willis: “My marriage ended and I didn’t know it would end, and I felt like everything was my fault, and I felt like, right, but this is salvageable, I can sort this out…
“I’m the fixer, that’s what I always do, and all of a sudden I couldn’t fix something, and it’s confusing me because I was like, but that’s not right.”
“I can’t remember what made me disappear, basically, from the person I knew, but the next thing I knew, I could not see, hear, eat, breathe, sleep, I couldn’t do anything.”
“It was like I’d had a stroke and my mum thought I was having a stroke…
Rylan stepped out of the spotlight for three months after splitting from Dan in June 2021 and recalled being in “a dark hole” and noted that he was “going mad” while staying with his mum Linda, 71.
He said: “I just got into this dark hole where I thought I was crazy because nothing was making sense to me and partly that was because of upset and heartbreak, but at the same time, the situation, with what I was being told, I thought I was going mad, I thought I was making things up.”
“I’m so strong. I’m so, so strong, but I was so broken, to the point where I physically couldn’t dress, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t do none of these things."
The former ‘Strictly: It Takes Two’ presenter admitted that he “tried to end” his life on a number of occasions and is happy all his suicide attempts were “unsuccessful”.
Rylan said: “I tried to end it a few times, unsuccessfully, gratefully now, but I just remember going to sleep at night, after doing nothing all day, living at my mum’s, frightened to leave the house, didn’t want anyone to see me.”
However, the former 'X Factor’ contestant vowed to “never” find himself in that place again.
He said: “I would never let myself get like that again.”
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